Good morning sunshine. Goddamn I love when the time rolls back an hour. I was thinking last night that I bet if I go back and read the entry from one year ago it will sound pretty similar to what I am going to say today. It was a damn good show last night. It was the cast birthday show and everyone was drinking and partying. For some reason when we have crappy weather people come out. Our last show at this theater we had like 50 people max. Last night? 250. Fuck yeah. Plus we all stood up and took a bow for the audience to celebrate the cast birthday which was fun. We as a team did a great job last night. We hit our marks, nothing was missed and it was just on.
During the day I didn't do much of anything. Hung out, watched a little TV cleaned up from the party, and basically relaxed. I was getting cranky around 7:30 or so because I didn't want to go to the bar before the show last night. I actually didn't drink and was probably one of the rare few who was sober all night. But I was cranky and tired and by 9 I was starting to get in a pissy mood. Luckily TGF was there and helped keep me cool.
If there is one difference between this post and last year's it's that - TGF. I was in a worse spot relationship wise this time last year. Psychobitch and I had ended things, I was not seeing anything real on the horizon, etc. I did take a chance last on something. I drove the van and TGF went with me. No hiding, no pretending. We showed up together. We didn't flaunt anything or be in anyone's face, but screw it. She is my girlfriend and that's that. No one really noticed especially my director who was too drunk to notice. Her and her husband had their own drama at the end of the show which was interesting but nothing out of the ordinary. Same jealous shit we have all seen before. I used to be a jealous and I can sometimes understand where her husband is coming from, but in my case it was because X1 really was a lying cheating whore. My director loves her husband so much and vice versa. The two of them amuse me sometimes with how blind they are how they let their jealousy get in the way of things. And the drinking doesn't help. It just makes all their insecurities rise to the surface. I know it's a bit of pot calling kettle black, but look at the difference here - they drink every single day and to excess. I am down to the point where once a week and even then I am still functional. Even Friday night I never blacked out or forgot anything that happened. I have sort of stopped worrying about things that get said to me at shows about TGF or whatever because I know that the next day they won't remember a good portion of what was said.
Regardless, TGF helped us all clean up after the show and our cast advisor who is the biggest sweetheart in the world, went right up to her personally and thanked her for helping out. Made TGF feel really special and accepted. I owe our advisor for that. In two minutes of kind words, she helped erase some of the 4 months of shit TGF has received from the directors.
We went for pie with a couple of folks afterwards and it was really nice. Just five of us and we all had a relaxing time. No craziness. In bed and home around 3:30. Thank goodness for that extra hour.
Today TGF had dance again so she is gone already. Me? Nothing baby. Just gonna take it slow...
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