Y4 D5

This year is off to a weird start. I had no voice all day yesterday which made for a challenge. I had two conference calls and it was a little hard trying to do them when I can't say anything. I did have some other work to do luckily which kept me from having to talk. I also had group last night. Group was enjoyable. I think I am getting something out of it. At least it's geting me out of the house and giving me a place where I can dump some things. My biggest goal from the class is learning how to cope and I think I will get that as the weeks go on. Right now it is focused on helping us identify our moods and thoughts. Basically the same shit I have been doing here for the last three years. I mentioned this to the doctor after class and what I was looking to get out of the sessions. She told me to be a little more patient and see how the next few weeks go for me. Fair. Between that and work, didn't do much else. It was actually nice not having to worry about seeing TD. Last Tuesday I was stressing out from being sick and then having to go to the city to see her; not this week. Again, the reason I don't date women who live in the city. Well it looks like I am back on the at home schedule from this post doesn't it? Oh I did make arrangements for my next trip. I am going to Memphis in July. I did get one piece of possible bad news regarding this - I may not be able to take a summer trip as planned because of money. Because the feds took my state refund I don't have the money for a hotel which really sucks. I am pretty bummed about that. We will see how that plays out. Now it's time to see if I have a voice.