Y4 D366

AND I DID IT! I made it through 4 years. Four years of non-stop writing. Four years of ups, downs, and everything in between. This has been a hell of a year hasn't it kids? Not as insane as year two, not as depressing as year one, a little more exciting than year three, but we did it. Everyone is still alive and has all their pieces. I have a woman who cares for me. The kid has made it a good way through college, I have a lot of Disney pins, and basically, I am healing. I am not as bad as I was 4 years ago on this day. I don't have any desire to plunge a knife through my chest. I see a future. And it's not one that involves being alone in a trailer in the middle of a desert. Yay me.

Yesterday was the most crazy day. I left the house at 530 because I wanted to get donuts for my class. Because I left so early the traffic was insanely light and there was nobody on the road. I got to the client at 645. I sat there until 7 because the building was locked. Started at 9 and the class loved the donuts. I had kept them hidden from them until class actually started which was fun. All in all, while I bitched about the commute and traffic the last three days, the class itself was good. A good group of people who were genuinely interested in being there and who took away a good amount of information. From that perspective everything was a success.

I left there at 4:30 and got home a little after six. I was in a shitty mood because of traffic and because once more the idiots were sitting around while the kitchen was a mess, there were clothes everywhere, etc. I cringe at the thought of what their place would look like if they lived together. But I was already wound up from diving and to see the house like that just tweaked me. I didn't say a fucking word to them. I hid in the other room until it was time to go to the show. We had a special show last night at Baycon. Aka nerdfest 2013. Fucking nerds. Fat nerds, skinny nerds, ugly nerds, nerds that go boom. Sigh nerds. I did run into someone I haven't seen in like 10 years. That was fun. He looked exactly the same. He is working at some new company with some other folks we worked with together in the past.

The show started really late and I had three tech guys. We made due and pulled the show off without too much incident. One of our performers did fall preshow and ended up with a concussion. She is doing okay as far as I have heard this morning, but it resulted in some last minute changes which, while rough, we handled. I have another show tonight and that is going to be fun. I didn't get home until 4 and will do the same tonight.

I am feeling pretty good right now. I need to pay some bills, do some chores, and prep for the show, but otherwise, I am doing okay.

Big love to everyone who has been there for me during these last four years. You rock.