Monday, March 31, 2014

Y5 D310

A good Sunday. Felt long, but good none the less. I got about around 8 after 5 hours of sleep. B got up around 10:30. We got ready and went to try the new Taco Bell breakfasts. Suck. Don't waste your time. After that we popped into Men's Wearhouse to look at suit colors for the wedding. They were annoying as fuck. I kept telling the guy I don't want to rent and he wasn't listening. We then hit the mall where I found a pair of grey pants. They look good. A little more than I was hoping to spend, but they look good. Came back home, B took a nap, I played Diablo (Crusader is at level 27) then we had a Big Bang marathon. Made grilled cheese for dinner, read, went to bed early as I have to be onsite today.

Spending the night at a hotel tonight. Don't want to do the back and forth to this client. It's just far enough that I got the okay for a hotel stay. One night at a hotel, one night at a friend's house. Saves me from going back and forth 120 miles a day.

That's about it for now.

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Y5 D309

Pretty routine Saturday. Got up when B left for work, did some minor stuff around the house, went out for lunch - great lunch by the way. Had a chorizo sloppy joe with slaw, baked beans and ham hocks, and a beet salad. It's from an upscale fast food place. $11 for all that with a drink. I will definitely go back there. Came back, played some Diablo, had a nap. B got home and we went to the mall, came back empty handed and ready to kill. Got chinese food for dinner, then headed out for the show.

It was a good show actually. First time in a while that I felt like it was a good show with no drama and no issues. B was still feeling icky and right after we headed home. Got home by 3.

That was it. Nothing major. Tomorrow morning I leave for three days onsite. Need to iron and pack today. Also need to find a new pair of grey pants. Mine no longer have a button. That's my big plans for the day.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Y5 D308

Anything that could go wrong yesterday during class went wrong. Server crashes, incompatible browsers, bad demos, losing my place in the material, everything went kablooie. But I kept my shit and finished right on time. I managed to get everyone through it and I think everyone was satisfied. It was a rough day though for sure.

Not as rough as it was for B. She woke up in extreme pain due to a UTI. So bad she couldn't even function. Her first thing in the morning was to get to the doctor. Which she did all on her own while I taught. I felt bad there was nothing I could do for her, but I was impressed at how well she got shit done without me. After work we decided to do all of today's errands last night. Target, the pet store, the liquor store, etc. I went to the liquor store because St George has released a new coffee liquor. I love their products and wanted to try it. I didn't get a chance last night but I am thinking tonight I might give it a shot. Got some new jeans at Target as well as household stuff. For dinner we ghettoed up went to IHOP. Yeah I know. But sometimes you're just craving some damn pancakes and no one ever wants to go to Denny's while the sun is out.

Came back from dinner, watched Supernatural, and then she was starting to feel uncomfortable again so I went in the other room while she read.

It was a taxing day but made it through.

Friday, March 28, 2014

Y5 D307

I am so tired this morning. Functioning on less than 5 hours of sleep. Self induced so no one to blame but me, but at the same time? Both B and the kid are happy. A little self sacrifice to make everyone else happy is worth it in my book. Why the late night? Went to the movies. But first, the rest of the day.

Taught my expert class. 3 out of 4 of the students belonged in an expert class. The 4th one was trying her best but I know many of the concepts were above her knowledge. Especially since she had just taken the beginner class on Monday. We offer four levels of one particular subject - beginner, intermediate, advanced, and expert. In theory someone should take the first two, wait a couple of months, take the advanced, wait a couple more, and then take the expert. These people instead try to take all of them in a row. Three days of a product you have never touched before does not prep you for the expert level class. She tried bless her heart, but. We got through it with zero minutes to spare.

After class I decided to do something nice for B. It was an inexpensive little gesture that I knew would make her super happy. She has been missing her fish 'Happy'. I went to the pet store and got a basic little aquarium and a fancy goldfish. Setup the tank and waited for her to get home. While I was waiting the kid texted me. KBF had to go to PA last minute for his grandmother's funeral. The kid couldn't get the time off at such short notice and she has been home by herself the last day or two. She didn't feel like being by herself again and wanted to see if B and I wanted to join her for dinner and a movie. Sure. Problem? Movie didn't start until 8:30. B has today off and the kid is on spring break which means no issue for them. I sucked it up and went along.

B got home around 5 and went nuts over her new fish. Mission accomplished. We then went over to the kid's place (which is clean finally) and met her downtown. Dinner was sushi, followed by walking around downtown to kill an hour until the movie started.

We saw Divergent. If I hadn't have read the books I would have been bored out of my mind. All three of us have read the series which meant we were all pretty judgmental about the movie. We nitpicked afterwards. By the time we dropped her off and got home it was 11:30. The neighbors were apparently having sex ON THE WALL as I laid there listening to 'thump thump thump' of a headboard for 45 minutes. B had stayed up since she wasn't tired and didn't need to get up. She came to bed around 12:30 and I was still awake. I fell asleep with her in bed, but it was not enough.

LAST day of teaching for the week. Full week next week onsite for 3, home for 2 so still no break, but at least I get my weekend!

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Y5 D306

The great laundry fiasco of 2014 has come to a close. We now have clean clothes thanks to the generous spirit of the complex manager. No one ever came and fixed the machine that issues laundry cards so he ended up giving me his own allowing us to do laundry. While I may bitch about a lot of things wrong with this current place, he is not one of them. He tries his best to make people happy and for the most part succeeds. Well done sir, well done.

Other than laundry nothing much happened yesterday. I had a rough class. It was an advanced class which means there are certain assumptions and expectations regarding the users abilities. Little Miss Indian should not have been in the advanced class. That's all I am saying. If you can't figure out how to work your own damn browser then what the hell are you doing trying to create advanced analytical reports?? Got through class without killing anyone, went for a walk when B got home, made dinner, watched some TV, and played my crusader. She got hooked watching one her shows and I went to bed who knows how much earlier than she did. I was in bed around 10:30 and I think she came in around midnight. We've all been there - start watching a show and it becomes 'just one more' and next thing you know it's Tuesday.

As you can tell I am back on my normal time. Yay! This means I will be done by 3. I have a very small class today. It's the 'expert' level class. No nice guy today. If you're in the class you should know the basic shit without even trying. I also should be able to finish early. Double yay. A little nap after class is sounding good.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Y5 D305

Another class down. Three more to go for the week. Days blending together again. Need to get out of the house and on the road. I have 4 more weeks until I actually go anywhere unfortunately. Tulsa at the end of April so still a month away. Although next week I have three days at a client here and this time I am staying at a hotel one night and a friend's house the next night to minimize my driving. That might relieve some of the at home frustration I am feeling right now.

After class I ran to the store to grab some cash to put money on our laundry card. The plan was to do laundry last night but unfortunately the card reader died and I have to wait until some time today for a replacement. That put a damper on things.

B brought taco bell home last night which meant no cooking or cleaning so I am happy for that. We watched some BBT then she took a bath and went in the other room to read. I played D3 for a while and went to bed.

As you can read, a very boring Tuesday. Tuesdays typically aren't a hot bed of excitement and I am not stressing. Tonight though I should be able to do laundry so woo?

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Y5 D304

There are days when the difference in age shows between me and B. And it's not so much an age difference as an experience difference. She could be 10 years older and still not have the same experience I have in some respects. She is very frustrated at her job right now. Her boss is a severe micro-manager who causes B to have major anxiety and flat out panic attacks. B knows how to do her job. If she didn't they wouldn't have promoted her. But her boss is constantly sending her emails or standing over her shoulder not because she doesn't trust B, but that's just who she is. That's not something B is used to at work. But then again, this is a different kind of job than she has had in the past.

Point of all this? While I was teaching yesterday I got a text from B saying she wants to move now because then she can quit. Sigh. If you want to quit, quit. Same thing I dealt with when the kid was working at Starbucks. I talked to the kid yesterday. She is doing well. Getting ready to finish up at one school and then head off to University. I did mention she got accepted right? She will be transferring in as a Junior with an AA already in her pocket. I am so damn proud of her and how she handled everything. She did it right.

Me? Oh don't worry about me. I taught all day. Can't stand this later start time. Really throws me off. Confused the hell out of me most of the day. Wasn't sure what time it was at any point. 11 students this week which I complained about a little to the powers that be. Yesterday and today is the beginner class. I want a size cap on these classes because they are beginner classes and someone will need hand holding. In this group's case, three of them needed hand holding. Which slowed down the rest of the group. I dislike it. In the advanced and expert classes, load me up. These people know what they are doing and I can go at a faster pace. With the intro classes not so much.

Got through class without any major issues at least. After class I looked up Diablo 3 and how the update was happening. Turns out it was going to be released at midnight EST or 9pm PST. Fine, I will buy it and be done with it. A million points to Blizzard. It would appear they preloaded most of the code into recent patches as it took me less than 5 minutes to have it downloaded and playing. At 9:20 I was launching my Crusader and off to fight evil. I only played for about 45 minutes but got to level 6. Why so little? Because of B. She was off all night even so much as looking at SnagaJob while we watched TV. We decided to restart all of Big Bang Theory from the start. Man that is a funny show. I dislike most comedies but that one just works. For example I have been trying to watch Parks and Rec because everyone says it's hilarious but.. Meh. I don't find it funny. It's just flat. Now BBT? We got through like 7 or 8 episodes and I was dying the whole time. Just such snappy dialog and wit. Love it.

Anyway, she was sighing and unhappy while we watched and went to bed at 10. I went to bed around 10:30 because I didn't want an issue even though she was already asleep.

More training today. Class in two hours. God that's too long.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Y5 D303

First and foremost, your inability to sleep does not give you the right to fuck with my ability to sleep. Plain and simple. I am sorry if you took too long of a nap at 3 in the afternoon. I need to be up to teach therefore if you can't sleep, go in the other fucking room. I do not want to cuddle, I do not want to talk. I want to sleep. Hence why I am in bed. And guess what? If you keep poking me and bugging me while I am sleeping, I am going to snap. As I did last night.

This put a damper on an otherwise great weekend. I mean seriously, we had a wonderful weekend including morning sex yesterday so to have it end like it did kind of sucked. We got up yesterday and decided to not get up and instead had fun. After we showered, got ready, and went over to a friend's house for brunch. He supplied the place and mimosas, we supplied the french toast, eggs, bacon, and cinnamon roll waffles. We hung out there until about 2, headed home, and that's when she decided a nap was in order. I agreed, but slept for an hour as compared to her 3.5. I ordered pizza for dinner and I could tell all night she was off and things were going to be a problem. I went in the other room around 8:30 and played some video games while she worked on our website and some general stuff. Around 10:30 I headed off to bed. She followed shortly after but wasn't ready for bed. Which she took out on me until finally she went into the other room. I don't know what time she came back to bed but she was there when I woke up.

You might notice today's post is later than normal even though I am teaching all week. It's because I am actually taking over 3 classes from a coworker. She can't start her classes until 8:30 and it was too late to change the start time for this week. I have 3 days at 8:30 - 4:30 and two days at 7-3:30. Going to make for a confusing fucked up week.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Y5 D302

And a happy Sunday morn to you. It's gray and overcast and well not too pretty out, but I am doing well.

We went to a book release party for one of our friends last night. Yes, that sounds pretentious as hell doesn't it? That was the joke last night. B posted on Instagram we were off to a book release party and it made us pause. Do her friends back in MI sit there and go 'what? a book release party? Disneyland, book release parties, theater rehearsals - damn who is this woman living the high life??'. They probably don't because they are just too dumb and content in their own little worlds.

Anyhoo, it wasn't as pretentious as it sounds. Anything but. Our friend just had her third book published and since it is set in the 60s she had a 60s release party. Everyone dressed in time apropos garments and makeup and it was fun. There were probably 25-30 people there total. We got there a little after 8 and left around 11.

Prior to that? Well B worked from 8-5 and I cleaned the house, especially the patio. I started getting rid of things in anticipation of a move. I got rid of a bunch of boxes and just stuff that was sitting around like old lawn chairs. I don't even have a fucking lawn. Ugh.

Did that until about 1 and then played some Diablo. Cleaned out some of my other characters and went back to my barbarian. Got two levels on her. Trying to see if I can get one more to 60 before Crusader time. The new drop system is wonderful. Just playing for a little while I at a minimum tripled all my stats with nothing but drops.

Made honey ginger pork chops for dinner. Got ready and headed out to the book party.

Been up for a while, but that has to wait until tomorrow. Right now we are off to a tiki brunch.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Y5 D301

Hello hello!. Happy Saturday morning. How are you all this morning? I am doing well thanks. Slept in until about 815 which is forever in my world. Granted we didn't go to bed until 1. I know, right? Wild people. Technically we got home around 11ish from a 'rehearsal' but by the time we got to bed it was almost 1. 

Let's see, taught all day, took a nap, made garlic chicken in noodles for dinner, then headed out to our director's house. It was scheduled as a rehearsal but by 9 it had devolved into a party. I watched myself very carefully and enjoyed myself without going overboard or even getting to 'tipsy'. I just had fun. B had fun mostly too. She was in a bit of a mood on the way home. Not sure why. But it was on of those moods that when we got home she felt the need to clean. I was okay with that because most of it was her mess and I wasn't looking forward to having to do it today. Seeing as she had the day off yesterday and could have done it any time, I wasn't going to complain that it was getting done. This morning she was still in a mood, again, unsure why, but hopefully she will let me know tonight. Today while she is at work I will be cleaning and going to the grocery store. Afterwards, some Diablo. I am almost there to having a second level 60 character. If you can't tell, I am excited again about Diablo. They really made some excellent changes that are making me happy. I can't wait for the Crusader next week. Made my decision on that - I will start the download Friday so I can play next Saturday. I can wait one more week. Doing it mostly because I don't want to spend money needlessly. Being smart about things.

That's about it. Mentally I am ok. Physically I am feeling a little meh, but nothing I can't handle. Time to enjoy my weekend. Tomorrow we are doing brunch with friends at 11 which should be fun.

Friday, March 21, 2014

Y5 D300

Three hundred days down. Sixty five to go. Is it time to stop writing? Maybe. Five years of entries is a long time. 1800+ posts. More writing than most people do in a lifetime. Less than some. I don't know. Let's see how the next two months go.

Taught all day. Why is the concept of MUTE so tough for some people to comprehend? Seriously. If you log into a meeting and it says PLEASE MUTE how tough is that to get? I don't need to hear you breathing into a fucking microphone. Ugh.

Got through class, took a little nap, waited for B to get home. When she got home we went and ran some errands. Nothing exciting. She needed some stuff at Target, got a new pair of shoes and some socks, and we had Rubio's for dinner.

Got back home and she worked on our wedding page. I don't know the URL off hand but I don't think she published it yet. It's on the Knot if anyone wants to go find it. You're supposed to fill out all these sections of 'about the bride' and 'about the groom' and she was struggling because she knows I dislike having any personal information about me out on the internet. Hers has all this great prose and then mine is like 'he is alive'. I'm good with that. Of course she didn't like how unbalanced it is. Whatever.

Went to bed around 11. Hey today is Friday. I am so off this week. All next week I am teaching so it should feel like a normal week compared to this one. Nothing planned for the weekend which is nice.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Y5 D299

Woke up this morning in pain. Lower back. Still hasn't quite gone away. Nothing worse than waking up 30 minutes before your alarm and not being able to move. Especially when you have to spend the rest of the day sitting in a chair. Today is one of those days I wish I was doing a live class. But I'm not. Today and tomorrow are system administration classes. Long, boring, dry material. I will do my best to keep it fun but this class is a challenge.

Had a decent day yesterday. Slept in. Ran some errands, did some documentation work. Got into a small argument with B when she got home. But it was for stupid reasons. Her grandparents have decided to pay for the catering for the wedding (yay!) which is good news. They have some connection through some place and they want to help. Not going to turn it down as it is about $1200 worth of catering. That was the positive news. The argument started because we needed to pick out the different options. I told her straight up that she can pick them out because we have different taste in food and she knows better what her family will eat. I mean let's be honest, 80% of the guests at this thing will be her friends and family, not mine. She was like 'I want you to look any way, I want your opinion'. Fine. Three seconds into the first choice, she didn't like my selection. That was my point. Don't ask me to select something we both know you're not going to like. Don't do me lip service and act like you want my opinion. It just frustrated me. I know she wants me 'involved' but there's no point.

Ugh. Got through that and I made us dinner. Chicken with veggies. Still trying to eat healthier than we have been. I feel fat and gross which isn't helping my back. Take 20 pounds off and my back won't hurt any more.

Watched some TV, played some Diablo, went to bed. The Diablo part went well. I am glad I decided to reset one of my characters. I finally managed to get a character to level 60. I had always expected it to be a different one but none the less, I now have a level 60 character. I am going to keep going with that one until I have the expansion then I will start over with a Crusader. I figure by the time the expansion is out and I have downloaded it, I will have this character ready for Act V. So I can either jump right in with current or begin at level 1 with a Crusader. My choice.

God I am a nerd. Oh well.

Okay, need to fix my back before class starts.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Y5 D298

It's Wednesday, right? This has been a weird week to me so far. Not like weird in anything happened weird, just what freaking day is it? Yesterday I went to an all day thing in the city. It was the IBM Analytics Summit. So 8 hours of keynotes, breakout sessions, free food, and playing nice.

I headed out early around 6 and hit public transportation. I was trying to make a 6:30 train and ended up making a 6:15. While normally this would be good, it got me to my destination earlier than I would have liked because registration wasn't open yet. I ended up sitting in the hotel lobby until 7:30 and was like the first person registered. Got my free food and found a place for the keynote. I wasn't paying attention to people around me intentionally as I was there for my own purposes not to mingle and when the keynote started I looked up and realized one of my bosses was at my table along with a client. Dammit. Time to smile and play nice.

The day was interesting and boring at the same time. I sat through 5 breakout sessions and 3 of them were worth my time. The other two were yawn. There ended up being like 10 different people there who knew me or at least knew my voice from training and 'just had to meet me in person'. Yeah yeah okay. I got out of there around 2 and head home. Made it home before 3 and took a nice nap.

B got home around 5 and wanted burritos. We took a walk to the Mexican place and brought food back. That was nice. Just getting out and walking. After dinner we didn't do much of anything. B got really tired and so I ended up baking these cheese biscuit things she showed me online. She was like "I want you to make these some time". Okay. Now? Now is good.

After that I played Diablo for a little while. One week until the expansion! I ended up resetting one of my characters to see if it made a difference with the new drop system and boy howdy did it. I will probably need to reset the others if I want to play with them as well. I am debating. I figure I can keep going for a week with my current one and then start a Crusader when the expansion drops. I do love a game that gives you YEARS of replay options.

Went to bed around 10:30 and slept in this morning. My only day to do that so I took advantage of it.

Now to run some errands and write some reports.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Y5 D297

Yesterday was a better day than I could have ever expected or anticipated. While I got up early because I needed to take B to work, it was still a really good day. To start, I got up early and took B to work. That was fun. Whee.

No the real fun started later in the day. Guess where we are going in August? NIN! In row J. Bam! I got a pre-sale ticket email on Saturday about the upcoming show. Tickets went on sale at noon exactly. I was there refreshing the screen from 11:58 on. Right at noon I clicked. I still ended up with Row J but that's pretty damn close. Closer technically than when I last saw NIN and sat in a box. Not complaining. I was a little bummed that tickets were $100 each but this is one of those shows where I want to go bad enough that I sucked it up and paid the $200. Granted the show is 4 months away and I am going to go nuts waiting, but there it is. NIN + Soundgarden. Long live the 90s. I was happy about getting seats that close and that just put me in a great mood.

Took care of some work and then picked B up at 12:30. She had a 1:30 doctor appointment which is why I drove her to work in the morning. She wanted me to drive her to her doctor appointment in case they drew blood and she was too woozy to drive home. Since she finally got her own insurance she decided to take advantage and have a full physical done. Why not as it didn't cost her anything out of pocket. She also ended up getting her tetanus shot updated as the doctor recommended it since she works with animals. It did take a while and we didn't get back home until 3:30. I had started dinner at 8am in the slow cooker which meant no issues with worrying about that. She ended up taking a nap until 5 when I presented her with a feast of food.

While cleaning up from dinner, I took the garbage out and grabbed the mail. In the mail was a check for $150 from a settlement on my mortgage. You may recall a year ago I got a letter saying me and X2 were entitled to $300 and I sent it back because it was a worthless check without her signature. I guess they were able to process it finally and sent me my half. Basically it paid for 3/4s of the NIN tickets I bought. Score.

Since neither of us felt like sitting in the house, we went over to our friends to help with a rehearsal and audition. We didn't stay late, but it was nice getting out of the house. We got back home around 10:30 and hit bed.

A good day. Today I have to be in the city for a presentation from IBM from 7-3 which is going to make for a long boring day, but I am really interested in the topic which I hope reduces the boredom. There is an after cocktail party, but I am going to bow out of that.

Let this day begin.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Y5 D296

Yesterday turned out to be a very productive day. We spent the day in the potential new area with friends and looked at a bunch of places. We found one we really like that will save us between $800 and $850 a month depending on which floor plan is available. That's huge. That in one month is one pair of tickets back to MI. That's two of my credit card debts. In two months that's what I have left on my motorcycle. Get the picture?

What I have learned over these last five years is I have to give up some of lifestyle appearances I so desperately hung on to for way too long. I should have done this in year one but I was in too much denial. I kept living like I had the salary and resources from the past. Instead of admitting things weren't the same and never would be, I dug my hole deeper. Time to fill the hole. Live and learn.

We headed out about 10 and arrived in 56 minutes. If moving 56 minutes away will help change our lives and put us back on track then so be it. It's not 9 hours away, it's not even four hours away. 1 hour. I can handle that. We picked up our friends, went to lunch, then drove all over town checking things out. We checked out the places, the mall, the grocery store, the surrounding areas, etc. We wanted to make damn sure there was nothing we need on a regular basis that wasn't go to be available to us. I did this once before with X1. I moved to a new area in the name of saving and ended up divorced and drunk all the time. I won't let this happen again. Granted, X1 was also a cheating whore, so the game is a little different this time around. Also the last time I moved like this it was for a job. That makes a huge difference. This is about work - it's about lifestyle. Makes things easier if you will. Not starting somewhere new, not having to give up all our friends, not having to be isolated. All the things that were wrong when I did this before.

We ended up back at their house around 3 and watched Dallas Buyers Club. Good movie, but I couldn't really get into it. I was processing everything we had seen that day and working through things in my head. On our way home we stopped at another friend's house who lives 20 minutes from where we are looking. Again, having people we know and are close to already in the area makes this more exciting than worrisome.

Had a light dinner with him and got home around 8:30. Fed the cat, B showered, we talked over a lot of stuff, and went off to bed.

Things are happening. 5 years, but things are happening. I always said I would have my shit together within 5 years. I am right on target.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Y5 D295

Finally had a good day. Took all week but finally.

Had enough 'me' time, enough B time, and enough general time. It felt like a good balanced day.

Got up at 5 and did a shit ton of errands - bank, grocery store, car wash, found a chair for B, made B breakfast, showered, etc all by 9am. The chair was easy; one of our neighbors is moving and they posted a furniture sale in the laundry room. Managed to get a nice desk chair for her for $20. She has needed a chair since she has moved in and it only took 8 months.

While she was at work, I looked places for today up, made phone calls, and took a nice nap. When she got home we had dinner and a friend came over to hang out. The three of us went and got froyo and then played scrabble. He left around 10 but it was nice to socialize outside the show without having to get drunk or stupid. Froyo and scrabble. It doesn't get any simpler than that people.

So a good day. I needed it.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Y5 D294

Yes, it's 5am and I am up already. On a Saturday. Why? Because I have shit to do this morning and I want it all done by 9am so I can go back to bed. I know my logic makes no sense but that's okay.

Finished up day 3 of my training yesterday. I am liking these improved classes because I have been learning a few things myself. I actually learned a couple of little things these last few days that I didn't realize were in the new version of the product. Of course during class I have to act like they were there the whole time which is always fun. B had the day off yesterday and unlike me on her day off she sleeps in. She got up somewhere around 9 and spent the day doing nothing.

After class we went to Target to get some small items we needed. Nothing exciting - razors, toilet paper, etc. Household necessities. Came back and made fish tacos for dinner. We watched some TV. Our night was disrupted unfortunately by her mother. Her mother is a very irrational person who is not handling her divorce well. Gee, reminds me of a certain X I once had. Who I realized I haven't had to speak to in like six months. 30 years of knowing someone and then poof, gone. Joy. Anyway, her mother is causing trouble and ended up making B get all upset which in turn ruined any chance of us having a good night.

We ended up going to bed around 10 and while we weren't mad at each other for anything, there was a pallor of frustration on her part. I don't blame her. I would have been frustrated too.

But that was my day and even though I am up early this morning, I am going to enjoy my day off.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Y5 D293

Yesterday was a little better. My mood is starting to lift. Still not feeling completely out of my funk but I am getting there.

Happy PI day.

Yesterday's class went okay. It was a lot of material to get through and there were some bumps with some of the students but we got through the day. One more to go.

Had a good talk with B last night about some of the things bothering me. Specifically that we have to move and that we need to focus on some lower cost options than she might like. We sat down together and went over some of the places I already found. In the end we narrowed our list for Sunday down a little bit. I think if we like one place in particular we can save between 800 and 900 a month. That's almost 10,000 in one year. Do you realize how much of a burden that will lift off my shoulders? It would really give us some breathing room.

Made dinner including this cheese dip she wanted. She has the day off today and her plans include eating cheese dip and having a TV marathon. You enjoy that woman. I will be working thank you very much.

Went to bed and talked some more. It felt good to have someone who actually listens to why I am in a mood instead of having to keep it bottled up.

Let's get through this day.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Y5 D292

So damn tired. Just want to sleep. Tired of talking. Tired of getting up early. Just tired all around. Tired of worrying about this wedding. Moving. Work. Money. Tired. Done. Don't want to deal with anyone or anything. But no, I don't get a break. Not ever. I have to keep talking for two more days. Have to deal with emails at 8pm from stupid people. Have to smile and act like I care. The mask of sanity. Have to keep it on for everyone to see. Just want to crawl in a hole and be left alone for an entire day.

Taught. Did laundry. Ate food. Answered emails. Went to bed. Same shit. Blah blah blah.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Y5 D291

As expected yesterday didn't hold any real surprises or turn out to be very exciting. Sorry for any disappointment this may have caused. No, it was a run of the mill kind of day. I taught, I finished teaching, B came home, I made dinner, we went for a nice walk after dinner, we built Legos when we got back, we went to bed.

My nice simple boring life. I am complaining aren't I? I don't mean to. I am just a little tired right now. I am hitting my threshold of how long I can work from home without losing it. I haven't been anywhere in almost a month. Haven't really left the house. I am barely drinking any more. With the exception of random nights out, it's the same view every day.

I do have a trip to Tulsa OK upcoming. I booked the flight yesterday. But that isn't until the end of April. I am hoping for something before then. April is light in comparison to this month - 19 out of 21 days with something on the calendar. I think I have maybe 10 for April so far. I do have some onsite at the end of this month, but it's more a punishment than something I am looking forward to doing.

Meh. It's all good. I will get through it like I do.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Y5 D290

75 more days to go and another year will be over. This has been a year of changes hasn't it? And next year promises to be even more exciting. A year of growth as well. Only took five years to get my shit together. Even then I am still not quite where I want to be. I think in the end it will take ten years for me to be back in a position where I feel solid. But I am on the road to recovery as it were and every journey worth taking has bumps and bruises.

Yesterday was uneventful. Taught all day, killed time until B got home. I am almost 100% caught up on the Doctor! I only have two episodes to go. I don't have either one and they aren't on Netflix so I have to figure out how to watch them, but I am close. As soon as series 8 starts officially I will be in real time for once. I can't believe that I have managed to watch seven years of the show in under a year.

B got home and we went to the grocery store. Picked up some little things like lunch meat and cheese and side dishes. We have plenty of main dishes in the house but not so much on sides. Took care of that. Came back, made chicken with rice pilaf and veggies for dinner. Watched some TV and we both were exhausted. We climbed into bed and sat in bed discussing wedding plans. It looks like we have settled on a venue - Greenmead Historical Park - and now we just need to figure out the details. We also decided since it will be early summer/late spring we are going to do picnic style food. The Chicken Shack will do everything for $350 for 75 people. Not bad. But that means we have to figure out drinks, silverware, tables, etc. We are thinking of using Oriental Trading Company for stuff.

Fell asleep around 10. Still off from the time change but doing better. I expect today to be more of the same.

Monday, March 10, 2014

Y5 D289

Weird day yesterday. The time change threw things off and on top of it the weather was very odd. It was that weird sort of muggy where it wasn't quite raining but you could smell it was on its way. I woke up around 8 and did my normal morning stuff. B got up around 10. I made us bacon pancakes for breakfast. That's exactly what it sounds like - pancakes with a strip of bacon in the center. I spent most of the morning updating social media with pictures from Saturday night while B got ready for work. Yesterday was a non-normal day for her. As management now, she got the pleasure of helping the owner clean out the attic at their facility. Lucky her, right?

While she was gone I looked up something that may alter our plans. On Saturday we mentioned to one group of friends that we are looking to move to OR. When we explained why they suggested another area I hadn't considered before. I did some research and well, it might just work. It's not the most ideal area to live but it would keep us in 'the area' generically speaking while still achieving the goal of saving us a ton of money. It's about 90 minutes away from where we are right now but it's better than 9 hours away from here.

When B got home I showed her what I found and we both agree that next weekend we will take a ride out there and see if in fact we could live out there. If it works, then we stay on cast but since we would be so far out we could reduce our involvement. It would allow us to keep our circle of friends, save money, and taper off how much we do with cast. Even if we try it for a year, it would help things. Ironically because of where it's located, we would actually be about 45 minutes closer to Disneyland. Go figure.

B decided she wanted to treat for dinner and we went off and had BJ's for dinner. I had a nice kale and brussel sprout salad and she had a burger. Got back home around 7 and we did some wedding planning. We sent emails to a couple of people on my list to see who could realistically travel to MI if they were invited. We also decided we are going to do a picnic style meal since the ceremony is going to be outside in a park type historical place. We decided on Chicken Shack. Yep. Fried chicken for a wedding. Why not. For 75 guests they charge $300. Totally down with that. All in all we figure we can keep the whole wedding to about $3000. Not too shabby if you ask me.

Around 8 B crashed hard. She fell asleep. I stayed up and played Diablo. I am getting excited for the expansion in two weeks and wanted to update everything so my machine is ready. They have completely overhauled things. I was a little thrown off when I loaded it and I may need to go back and revamp a couple of my characters as a result of the changes. But the drop system is MUCH better since they decided to eliminate the real money auction house. I picked up more in 2 hours of playing than in months. I will probably play again tonight to see how things are working. Start a new character and see how it looks.

Teaching all week. Two one day classes and one three day new class. Busy week with no break.

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Y5 D288

For the first time in over 2 months I am waking up with a slight headache. I am now at 9 drinks in 64 days, 4 of them last night. I almost had more in one night than in the 63 days prior. But it was over 4 hours and I never got out of control. I can still count on both hands the amount of booze I have consumed this year and that is a positive thing. So I will enjoy my little headache and not complain.

Why the little headache and drinking? Because last night was B's belated surprise birthday party! She mad the mistake of telling one of our friends a while back that she has never had a real birthday party as an adult (her last one was when she was like 7) and that she had never had a surprise party. Well wipe that off your list sweetheart. I knew about it all week and kept my mouth sealed. All day while she was at work yesterday I was fielding texts from people wanting to know time, what they should bring, etc. Here's how the whole day went:

Got up and B went off to work around 8:30. I got cleaned up and took a nice ride over to the pet store. With the recent rain my bike has been sitting and I wanted to get it out on the road. Not a long ride, but it was enjoyable. Picked up some hamster stuff and headed back. When I got back home I cleaned not only the hamsters but the whole house. Cleaning achievement unlocked. I was all done by around 11 and watched some Doctor. Since we were going out later I took a little nap. Then played Lego video game until B got home. In between I ironed a shirt and got ready. See, the ruse for last night was we were going on a date night with another couple. Hence why I dressed nice because I knew if I dressed down she would too and then she would have felt bad about it later.

We both got ready and then opened the new Lego set I got. We put together about 25% of it. I will wait until she gets home from work today to finish it (yes she has to work on a Sunday which sucks. She won't have a day off again until Friday).  We left the house around 7 and showed up at the location around 7:30. SURPRISE. She really was surprised and teared up a bit. We had cheesecake and food and karaoke. She got more presents from this group than she did from her 'friends' back in MI. We both received an engagement present from one set of friends that is a Mickey picture frame and inside of it was 40 in euros. That is currently about $55 US and is for us to put in our honeymoon fund. Hopefully the exchange rate will be better before we go, but it is a wonderful gift.

Left the party around 11 and got home about 11:30. Put everything away and hit bed at 1. Why so long? Because I reset all the clocks before going to bed. Daylight saving time can kiss my ass. It should only be 7:30 right now but no, an outdated farming rule still controls our lives. Sigh. Stupid.

Today she works but not until 12:30 and I am not going to be the one who wakes her. She actually drank a little last night and is tired. Sleep she shall. She deserves it. Me? Morning stuff and then some Doctor. I am almost caught up. Only 3 more episodes to go!

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Y5 D287

Before we begin a couple of personal messages:

- You aren't alone. You don't need to kragle anything. I got your back. Just say the word.

- I am glad you had some alone time. Sounds like you needed it. Now go get some chocolate.

Okay done. Now as for yesterday... Finished a document that was hanging over my head. One more to do on the 17th and then I will be complete with updating all of our material to the latest version. That was pretty much how I spent my whole day. Other than in the morning taking B to an eye exam. That actually made her frustrated because the doctor said she has perfect 20/20 vision. She feels like she doesn't see well enough. Apparently she sees just fine. I have 20/40 when I have my contacts in which I think throws her off because I can read things she can't. But it's because my vision is being corrected not normal. Hell I can barely see the words I am typing a foot away on this 27" monitor without my contacts in. Came home, I worked while she had a TV marathon. That pissed me off a little bit. It's like all this week I have been doing more around here. Yes, she works hard, but so do I. Just because I don't always leave the house doesn't mean I am not working. Plus this week I did leave the house, yet I am the one who cooked dinner all week, took out trash, cleaned cat litter, did dishes, etc. It's like wow, you're really going to sit and watch seven hours of TV? Okay. Whatever.

She went to bed around 9:30 while I stayed up and finished the puzzle. Went to bed around 10:30. Cleaning the house today and then going out tonight. There is something planned that B doesn't know about. She thinks we are going out on a double date with another couple. Is she in for a surprise...

Friday, March 7, 2014

Y5 D286

Better day yesterday. Still not feeling 100% cheery but I am doing better. Taught all day yesterday, then took a little nap. B got home and I made her dinner because she was starving. I wasn't hungry yet which kind of sucked making dinner twice but whatever. Worked on the puzzle, which I am almost finished with thank goodness. We watched a little tv and then we went to bed. All in all a boring day. The nice part is for the first time all week, our conversations didn't revolve around wedding stuff. I am still stressed about it, but I think she finally realized that talking about it 24 hours a day isn't doing me any favors. There's nothing that can be done right now so talking about it isn't helping anyone. I know that's a shitty attitude but it's the truth. I can't afford to put down payments on anything, I can't be in MI to look at anything so going over 400 different options is wasting time. I have been keeping most of those thoughts to myself and just smiling and nodding. I think this is part of why I am have been so cranky this week.

This morning I am taking her for an eye doctor appointment then coming back to work on documentation. I need to get at least one more training converted to our new format today no matter how long it takes. I ended up losing one of the few days I had this month due to schedule changes. Now I am booked solid except for the 17th and 19th this month. That's a lot of talking, a lot of being 'on' and it is going to wear me down before the end of the month. I can already feel it.

Oh well. Comes with the job.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Y5 D285

I am in a pissy mood again. I think the stress of everything is making me cranky and annoyed with the whole world. The cat, the house, money, the wedding, everything is just pissing me off. I want to have zero contact with people otherwise I am going to be an ass towards. Too bad I still have more training to do this week. Although as of right now my servers seem to be down. Big problem. If the servers aren't up in 2 hours I have no class.

Taught yesterday onsite yesterday which made for another long day. B had the day off so needless to say when I walked through the door I was flooded with her talking about wedding stuff, this and that, and just way too much energy for me. Slow down. Back off. Let me breathe.

Talked to my sister last night. She sent over the nicest email about wanting to help us with the wedding. Totally appreciate it and will definitely use her help. It also touched B because no one on her side has offered ANY help financial or just physical in any way.

While she did a bunch of stuff on the computer, I worked on my puzzle. Got a major section completed. I won't start on the Lego kit until the puzzle is finished. Go from one puzzle to another basically. I ended up going to bed around 10:30 before her because she was making these cards to mail out to her maid of honor and bridesmaids.

It's 15+ months away. Breathe already. This whole two state wedding thing is getting on my nerves. I am about ready to tell her to just move back for six months so he has a better support group than me. I am useless in these things. I don't care what colors things are, I don't care about the cake to be honest (I don't really like most cakes), and frankly I don't know the venues enough to tell you if they suck or not. I am not a good person to be asking question of about these things.

Whatever. Time to teach. Where's my fucking server?

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Y5 D284

Moving slow this morning. I slept decent but still a little groggy. Just a long day yesterday and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by life right now. I got up around the same time yesterday - 4:30ish - and headed out about 6:20 to go to the client. Only 6 more days of them left for the year based on the contracts they signed. Today, then three in a couple weeks, and finally two more in May. After that our obligation to them is done. Odds are they will sign a new contract but at least this current one will be over and they will be out of my life for a while. Arrived onsite at about 7:40, yes it takes that long to get to them via public transportation. Taught until 4 and headed home. Got home around 5:40. B was already home and she did make me feel good by greeting me at the door with a smile and a hug. I just am feeling under a sea of bills, wedding plans, and the thought of a honeymoon. It's the latter one that's hard. We just don't have the money to go ANYWHERE. Her family are the kind of people who give $10 as a wedding gift. Nor have any of them offered to help do anything for the wedding. Which means it all comes down to me. Pay the regular bills, pay for the wedding, pay for a honeymoon. Sure. Let me go to my money tree. Oh wait, it's dead. See? Just A lot going on in my head. I tried to push it down and be happy but it was hard. She feels bad because her family is a bunch of poor idiots and I feel bad because I can't give her a good wedding. Just a lot of anxiety. Frankly if it wasn't for a couple of her family members we wouldn't be having to deal with this at all. She has a couple of people who are too elderly to travel which is why we have to have a MI wedding. If they were gone then we could do just one. But no, we have to deal with doing this remotely. Breathe man, breathe.

Okay, enough. Off to teach again.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Y5 D283

Up early again. Onsite trainings today and tomorrow. Luckily I can take public transportation instead of driving. That may not seem like an upside but it is. I get to sit for 45-50 minutes while someone else drives and don't have to deal with traffic or any of that insanity. Yes, it is another one of those were my '8 hour' day becomes 12 hours, but it's a lot less stressful than driving.

Enjoyed myself yesterday. Went to the grocery store, work on documents, worked on my puzzle, bought some new Legos from the Lego Movie. I promised myself I wouldn't start the Lego set until the puzzle was done. I needed some motivation to get it finished.

B got home around 5, made dinner, watched some TV, and went to bed. We spent a good deal of the night looking at wedding venues. Talked to her mother about some of them and we both agree her mother is an idiot. She was suggesting things like their garage. Um no. This may be my third wedding (jesus) but it's B's first and hopefully only so I want it to be nice. She doesn't have elaborate or outlandish requests, but I still want it to be nice. Seriously, if she has another one it will be because I am dead, not divorced. I refuse to be thrice divorced.

That's about it. Time to go get ready.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Y5 D282

Yesterday was a much better day. I think this was due in part to a number of factors:

1. Saturday ended up being a bad day I think because I created a self-fulfilling prophecy - a Bateman paradox if you will. That moment when you *expect* something to be awful and horrible and no matter of logic will convince you otherwise so you walk into the situation expecting it to be bad and you allow it to be bad without giving it a chance. I don't know if that makes sense in writing but it does in my head. I went into the show expecting it to be a pain in my ass and annoying and allowed it to become so as that's where I was already at mentally.

2. I didn't have to answer or deal with anyone outside of B yesterday. That's a big one. No clients, no work, no cast shit. Just her and me dealing with each other and being isolated. That always reduces the stress off of things.

3. We had the sex. Don't discount this one. It's been a while thanks to travel and work and just general shit and I was feeling tense and stressed. There's a lot to be said to the physical contact of another human being to raise your happy level.

Point being, I enjoyed yesterday. I got up at about 8:30 and did some light cleaning while B slept. She got up around 11. Made some food, played some video games, and then around 2 we went and took care of her car. Since it was Sunday, the store was empty. We were in and out with a new battery in less than 10 minutes. Had it installed in even less and voila, her car started right up. I knew the battery was a major culprit in the issues she was having. While I don't think it was the only thing wrong with her car, I knew we had to eliminate that variable.

With that all done, we relaxed. We went over some wedding stuff, and then we started discussing honeymoon ideas. Ideally we would like to go to either Disneyland Paris or Disneyland Tokyo. The only problem is they are both going to cost us an arm and a leg. We estimate that with airfare and hotel we are looking at 5000-7000. That also gives us spending money. It's the airfare and hotel that are the killers. For either destination airfare alone is $3500+. We then spent some time trying to come up with places neither of us have been that we both have an interest in seeing. In the end we decided on Ireland. Thanks to their weak economy, we can rent a house in the country for $200 a WEEK. Not a night, a week. Plus the airfare is about 50% cheaper than other destinations. While B took a nap, I looked at the surrounding areas for about 15 different rentals she found. In the end I narrowed it down to about 6 locations. The criteria was there had to be something else to do within walking distance - pubs, food, shopping, etc. I told her I am not spending a week in the Irish countryside staring at cows. The ones I liked the most were in or near Galway. If by some miracle we can do Disneyland Tokyo we will, otherwise we are going to Ireland.

When she got up we went over all the different areas and then I made dinner. Beef patties with corn and beans. Then we had the sex. Woo! We then laid around watching the Oscar results online. We kept refreshing the website to see who won what. Went to bed around 10:30 and bam. Much. Better. Day.

Today is an admin and document day for me. I have two days onsite with a client starting tomorrow so I am going to enjoy this time of freedom.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Y5 D281

I had a rotten lousy day yesterday. And it was made worse by the show last night. 5 more months. In 5 months no more shows. No more Rocky. No more made up bullshit drama and getting yelled at for things I didn't do wrong.

Start in the morning - B went off to work and I went out and worked on getting the battery out of her car. Banged and scarped knuckles ensued. That just set my mood for the rest of the day. I managed to get past that but just had this chip on my shoulder for the rest of the day. B got home around 5 and I made us dinner. I made a pork roast with veggies. Dinner was fine, B is fine, everything was fine. Not great mind you, just fine.

I am feeling very overwhelmed right now. Wedding plans. Work. Moving. Cast stuff. Just too much and it's starting to take its toll on me mentally. I'd say I need to get out of town but I already did that, twice. I don't know what I need at this point but I need something to shake this mood and doing shows isn't one of them.

I knew we were going to be light on staff before even leaving for the show. This soured me even further. We got there and I got into this nasty argument with my director about people being useful, people showing up, people checking in, and she in turn attacked me personally. Telling me how people need second chances and she doesn't want any cliques on cast. I have no fucking idea how any of that is relevant to my having competent people doing their fucking jobs, but okay. Needless to say I was not in a mood where I wanted to be there last night. The minute the show was done and the truck was loaded we left. Didn't even bother saying goodbye to anyone. Just left. I am sure I will hear about that today. If anything comes of it, then fuck it. I am done.

I think I need to check out of the next show. Take a break. Have a weekend all to ourselves where we don't leave the house. Maybe start packing and get the fuck out of here early. I can always break my lease and go. Expensive, but cheaper than my mental state breaking first.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Y5 D280

IT'S SATURDAY! WHOO! And I have very little to do until about 10pm. Then I have a show but that's like 15 hours away dammit.

Yesterday I taught all day. It was actually fun for once. It was a brand new class with new material even for me. I have to admit I learned a couple of new tricks. Made the day enjoyable. Went right up to the mark. After class I tried jump starting B's car and yeah, that's not a battery, it's a brick. A large lump o nothing. Today I have to take it out of her car so she can get a new one. After that we had a date night!

We went out around 4 and saw the Lego Movie. LOVED IT. Oh man that was one fun movie. The only part I didn't like was the real person part. I won't say more because I don't want to spoil it for anyone but that was just the dumb part in my and B's opinion. After the movie we went out for Italian. Dinner out on a Friday at 7pm? OH MY! Yep. We were out like normal people downtown on a Friday night having fun.

We needed it for sure. It was a good time. Got home around 9 and relaxed. I played some video games while B read. We still went to bed early because she had to be up for work this morning but overall it was a fun night.

Off to do today stuff now.