Y7 D15

I don't know who I feel worse for this morning. The maids who have to put back together the bed I destroyed in my "sleep" or the neighbors who though there was a bulldozer in the room next door. I slept in total shifts last night. Twenty minutes here, an hour there, a couple of hours on a big one. I can't breathe, my head hurts already, fuck this.

Yesterday was annoying. I was through all the material by 9:15. Class started at 8:30. I am the kind of person who self teaches. But if I am not in a formal classroom environment I will dawdle, procrastinate, etc. I need to be in a formal setting, but I need to go at my own pace. It's a pain. So what I did all day was read a book. Literally. I had my tablet on the desk in front of me much like the kid with a comic book hidden in his schoolbook and I read all day. I finished the books Mort(e). It's a pretty good book. I think the story got away from him a little at the end but overall it's an enjoyable book that makes you think.

I left class at 3 because I was just done. There was probably an hour left, but whatever. I was supposed to meet friends for dinner but I just couldn't. My head was hurting again, I was not in the mood to be sociable at all. I am also very worried about the kid, depressed about things, and just not in a good mood all around. Hence it was better for me to go straight back to the hotel and not be around people.

I got back to the room a little after four and slept until 6. I then went to a burger place behind the hotel and had a semi-decent burger for dinner. Came back, watched Sense8 (huh???), talked to B, then just said fuck it and went to bed.

I am depressed right now. So many reasons, I can't pinpoint it to just one. If the words come to me, I will share them. Otherwise, just know I am not doing well in my head but I will fake it.