Y2 D183

Happy thanksgiving my ass. Don't have much other than the kid in the other room to truly be thankful for right now. I started thinking yesterday what the last few years of my life have been like. Want the recap? Here we go...

Nov 2006 -- moved from one of the state to the other, sold a house I loved, gave up friends, neighbors, and a life for work. My ex leaves a job she loves to support me starting the seeds of resentment

Jan 2007 -- X2 starts suffering major physical issues, ends up on an operating room table almost dying, has to have a hysterectomy at 37 years old. No children between and there goes the only chance of having any. She pushes me away as she shuts down emotionally.

May 2007 -- I blow my Achilles. Just as I think there may be hope for my marriage, I am now laid up for six months.

Sep 2007 -- finally out of a cast and can walk, but between both of our jobs, we have become roommates. We are distant and cold to each other.

Feb 2008 -- Things are slowly rebuilding between us when my brother sues (no not the dead one, another one). Six months of fighting and paying lawyer fees sucks our marriage and my sanity dry.

Aug 2008 -- After six months of fighting I lose the lawsuit. I have spent $35,000 in legal fees and still have to give my brother $45,000. Go into major debt to do so. Cash out any savings I have and another huge wedge is shoved between us.

Oct - Dec 2008 -- The only good three months we have as a couple but the strain is still there. We both feel it. Work is starting to slip because everything that has happened has drained me emotionally.

Mar 2009 -- The fighting has reached a peak. She can't stand being in the house. She spends most of her time on the road just to be away. I become paranoid and start to lose it.

Apr 2009 -- She comes home from a business trip and tells me she wants out. April 19.

May 2009 -- We meet with the lawyer on the 3rd, begin the process on the 8th, submit papers to the court on the 21st, I move out on the 25th. I am no longer married.

Oct 2009 -- Lose my job. Find a new one, but suffer a serious pay decrease even though I still have all the debt from the lawsuit and the divorce

Jan 2010 -- Enter collections with American Express

Feb 2010 -- Give up my dog because the new job has me on the road too much

Mar 2010 -- Move right back where I started leaving friends behind once more. All alone with no one to support me.

Oct 2010 -- Lose my place in Hawaii to foreclosure because I am broke

Nov 2010 -- My brother dies.

Fuck you Thanksgiving.