Y2 D290

Everywhere I look you're all I see. Just a fading fucking fucking reminder of what I used to be...


That's what I went to bed with in my head last night. Nice huh? That line and tears in my eyes. I couldn't sleep for hours. I went to bed at 11:30 and looked at the clock at 12:15 still wide awake. Still haven't bothered to shave.

Ironically, I have been able to sleep all week since I have worked from home. Today I have to get up early because I have to be on-set to shoot in two hours. I have a shoot from 8-2, then a show at 10. Then back on-set at 8 on Sunday. I have more going on outside the house this weekend than in the last five days. Sad? I have to take the motorcycle the next two days too because I have no gas in the car and can't afford any. I am probably going to freeze my ass off and get sick.

Yesterday I worked about 9 hours for the client. Sat in my little space and cranked away. I got the whole media center xbox thing working on the old laptop pretty solid at least it seems like it. I managed to have 259 NIN tracks in shuffle through the home stereo while I worked. Yeah, that was good for me. I threw some tool in the playlist too just to mix it up. Mostly because I wanted to hear Aenima given the fear of tsunami bullshit that was running rampant. In the end, our tsunami? A one foot swell through the bay. OOOOO! Run for your fucking lives!

When I was done working I watched a movie. Whoa. Didn't help my mood any that's for sure -- A Serbian Film. Wow. Intense. Fucked up. Seriously depressing. I highly recommend it to anyone who has a strong constitution. It is one deep and disturbing movie.

Talked to the kid last night. She got a hair cut and sent me a pic. Man she is turning into an adult. I almost didn't recognize her from the picture. It's amazing. She has a good adult haircut.

What else happened.... oh, I sent an online request in about test driving a new car and have been rewarded with nothing but spam calls from some con company in Florida. Funny how everything that is SHIT is in Florida, huh? Telemarketers, scam artists, evil bitches - all in Florida. Remind me never to go there. Oh wait. No worries.

That's about it, I think. I am still eating fruit mostly because it's the only thing in the house. A banana, an orange, strawberries and tomatoes mixed with balsamic, and an apple. Probably have something very similar tonight. I will be through the fruit tonight. That leaves a couple of days where I don't know what I am going to do about food. I might have to break down and eat some of the two year old canned food that's been sitting around. Maybe if I am lucky I will get botulism...