Y2 D314

52 days to go until we start a new year. Wow. A little over a month and a half. Amazing.

I have never cried while watching television until last night. I was watching the premier of a new show on A&E called Relapse and about halfway through I realized I was crying. I don't really know why but for some reason these people and their stories hit me hard. The premise is simple -- two stories about a junkie or drunk and the life coach who works with them for a week to try and get them clean. That's it. These are people who have been in treatment before in the case of one guy many times, and can't get it. I think it was the guy's story that hit me. The girl was your random oh she was so pretty and successful until meth ruined her life that it didn't really do anything for me. But the guy -- firefighter with two kids and a wife. He was losing his house, his credit cards were in collections, not because of his drinking just because of cutbacks and regular day to day issues. So he drank. A lot. The problem was he also got angry when he drank. Never touched the kids, but would punch walls and his truck. His sober coach as they are called, is an ex heroin addict. But not a preachy jesus guy either. He looked this guy in the face and told him what about you do you hate so fucking much that you escape into that fucking bottle? It was raw, real, and frankly a little scary. He made him look at himself. He told him - the problem isn't your drinking, the problem is YOU. At one point the guy ended up breaking into a vacant house and getting drunk in the basement to not have to be around his wife and seeing her cry. They found him the next morning on the floor passed out. It was just so real and wow. In the end, they got him into a 90 day program where he could finally be sober. As of the airing of the show, he had been sober for 7 months and was back on the fire department. I highly recommend this show.

During the day I worked finally. Had two different clients to deal with on issues. And thanks to about 3 hours of meetings yesterday I now have stuff to do today. Should keep me for a good 8 hours today.

I did run out for one errand. I feel a little stupid about it, but what the hell. We played this card game Sunday morning while waiting for the flea market to open called Fluxx. I decided to get out of the house and ride the bike yesterday around 5 because it was just beautiful out. As I was riding there is a game store near me and I decided to see how much Fluxx was. It's not expensive and didn't cause me any significant financial issue, that's not why I feel stupid for buying it. No it's that I bought a card game for 2-8 persons and well, the cat has no thumbs and the rabbits get bored to easy. You know what I am saying. Felt kind of dumb buying a game that requires other people when I have no other people.

Oh here's a miracle -- I sent out my regular monthly checkin to J to see if I am ever getting my $2400. Lo and behold she actually responded with a long message instead of one of her usual 'no' messages. Turns out she had her car repo'd for the second time, but she thinks things are getting better. Um, ok. Good luck with that. I won't forgive her debt, but it was the detail of the message that made me happy.

Went to bed around 10 after some Lego Star Wars (62% complete thank you very much). Another exciting day in the life of me...