Y2 D320

I cried until I passed out last night. No, I didn't cry myself to sleep, I cried until my body was too wracked from exhaustion and I just passed out.

I was having such a good day too. Even without hot water for yet another day. I still have no hot water. I have to go to take a cold shower, no puns intended. That is, I was having a good day until about 8pm. That's when I got the email from my accountant regarding 2010 taxes.

Congratulations world, you win. I fucking lose again. I owe 14,464 to both the state and federal governments. Add to this last year's due and I now owe over 16,000 to the government. I can't catch a fucking break ever can I?

I am out of options.

I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

I am going to start packing things up and throwing things away. I don't want the kid to have to deal with anything more than she needs to deal with when the time comes. I don't know what else to do.

I have never felt so low, so despondent, or so without hope. I will never get out of this hole. It's just not worth it any more.