I just sent an email to my tech crew. I admitted publicly that I am an alcoholic. And that I will no longer be drinking before or during shows. I can't keep pretending that I don't have a problem with it. I fucked up the show on Saturday because I was drunk and that's no longer just hurting me, it's hurting other people. I always have said, it's one thing to self destruct, it's another when you bring in and hurt innocent people.
Didn't do much of anything yesterday. Spend most of the morning in bed with TGF having sex and just enjoying each other's company. She went home around 3 and the kid and I hung out. She played video games while I read and did stuff here on the computer. Around six we went over to our director's house for a brain storming meeting on how we can improve our numbers. Some really good ideas came out of the meeting. I was impressed by the fact that the largest representation at the meeting was tech crew. We came out in force. It showed our directors that we are not in this for ourselves and we truly believe this is a family worth fighting for.
My friend drove and I ended up forgetting my keys at the house. We had to wait for someone else to head back over our way to bring me the keys. We ended up having pie while we waited. This meant we didn't get home and in bed until almost midnight. Made for a long day.
Today is technically a holiday, but I am working. I want to get at least five or six hours in today. Off to grind.
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