Kind of blue this morning. Not depressed, just kind of blue. Which ties into something one of my friends told me on Saturday. We were talking on the phone and she said that since I have been going out with TGF she has seem me handle things much more like a normal person. There are still frustrating and depressing things in my life like money issues, work issues, etc but she sees me handling them better. Which is why I say, I am just kind of blue. A little melancholy this morning if you will. I think I know why, but not 100% sure.
Yesterday was a bit annoying. Had to drive to the new client which is a pain in the ass. They are as far as I am concerned in the middle of fucking nowhere. I am not a fan of this client or the drive. I have worked there before and made the same complaints but no one listens. It doesn't matter. Regardless, I dealt with the day and came home. Before I left work though I started getting texts from my director. She was having a Walking Dead marathon last night and wanted folks to come over. I had rsvp'd as tentative before because I knew I would be tired. Her texts though made it sound like no one was coming over and I felt bad for her. People only see one side of her. She is a sweet person who is lonely like us all sometimes and I felt the need to support her. So I made the shlep over the hill to watch TV.
TGF is having that wonderful time of the month and was in no position to leave the house let alone be sociable and she didn't mind I went. But that's where I was feeling blue. I was sitting over there last night and just felt awkward. I felt weird that I have to keep TGF a secret from them. We have used the L word people. We are in a real relationship yet I can't say anything and it eats me alive.
Just not in the mood to type this morning. Need to ride to work.
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