For once words fail me at how proud I am for what we accomplished last night. We put on one of the best shows I have ever seen. I mock our cast for not being 'real' theater because we basically lip-synch Rocky, but last night's performance of Spaceballs was amazing. The audience was fantastic, the costumes were beautiful, sound, lights, everyone came together and kicked ass. It was an incredible night. Especially since it was a Friday.
Taught all day. Large class and some deep material. We went right up to the wire. I had to skip over some demos but got all the concepts out there and made sure everyone was doing good. Since I knew we were going to be up crazy late (and we were), we ALL took a nap.
The big news though is while I was teaching B had an interview with a local cat hotel. She knocked it out of the park and was offered a job ON THE SPOT. After a 20-30 minute interview where they basically showed her around, they asked 'so um, hey you want the job?'. BAM that's my baby. For her it's the most money she has ever made and she is ecstatic. She starts Tuesday which means she even gets to enjoy her holiday weekend. Honestly what more can you ask for?
After we got up around 5:30 I made pasta with chicken in a nice vodka sauce for dinner. We then all started getting ready since we all had roles in the show. The kid was a Dink and a Guard, B was the organist, and I dear readers was the Minister. With costumes secured and ready we headed up to the theater. The energy level was crazy sick when we got there.
The show started about 12:30 by the time we got through everything. By the time we finished loading, taking pictures, hugging, etc it was 3:00. Got home around 3:30 and everybody collapsed.
Now we get to do it again tonight. Lord help me.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Friday, August 30, 2013
Y5 D97
Oh sweet mother of jesus I am not awake and yet I have to be. I just want to sleep for another 2-3 hours. Is that so much to ask? I am a mess. Mostly because I didn't end up falling asleep until 11:30 and then I was shocked awake by the kid and KBF coming home at 3fucking am. I was expecting them 'today' not TODAY at that time. Especially not when I am naked and half awake. Hold on, I will explain in a minute.
Taught my 9th day straight yesterday. I could tell I was losing it about halfway through the class. My voice is shot, my concentration is gone, and I was just out of it. My tongue was all tied. I made it through the day and took a quick little nap on the couch. Like 45 minutes. I was feeling better but still drained. I went to cook us dinner only to find the shrimp I was going to use had perished. Deceased. Defunct. No more! Fuck me.
We headed out for Taco Bell because I didn't want to think about it. Got back home, relaxed together, and made cookies for tonight's show. We made dog biscuit shaped cookies as they are a prop for one of the actors. That was fun to do together. We then decided to clean the kid's room. Now I have never been one of those parents who uses 'cleaning' as an excuse to pry. No, this was hanging up the big pile of clothes, throwing out trash, making the bed, etc. When we were done we were so happy. While we were doing all this B got a phone call for an interview. YAY! She is interviewing today at a local cat hotel. Yep. A cat hotel. She will work primarily with animals instead of humans which is perfect for her. She goes in today at 1:30. I am so excited for her.
As you can see, other than being tired and frustrated due to dead shrimp, it was pretty good. I got into bed around 10:30 and started to fall asleep. Around 10:45 someone gets a little frisky. Fine woman, if we must have the sex, I will do my duty. I said duty. Fell back to sleep after and thought that was that. At 2:45 B wakes me up with 'Babe someone is trying to break in!!'. I think she is being nuts so I walk out into the living room butt naked and WHAM run into KBF. I had a mini heart attack. One from being naked and two from them being home. Holy fucking shit. You could have texted or something!! Any I go back to bed and B is shaking. I freaked out which freaked her out. We then spend a half hour calming her down. Finally at 3:30 I fall back to sleep and now I am up.
One last day of teaching and then a show tonight. Spaceballs!! Then Rocky tomorrow. Almost through this insanity. Almost through.
Taught my 9th day straight yesterday. I could tell I was losing it about halfway through the class. My voice is shot, my concentration is gone, and I was just out of it. My tongue was all tied. I made it through the day and took a quick little nap on the couch. Like 45 minutes. I was feeling better but still drained. I went to cook us dinner only to find the shrimp I was going to use had perished. Deceased. Defunct. No more! Fuck me.
We headed out for Taco Bell because I didn't want to think about it. Got back home, relaxed together, and made cookies for tonight's show. We made dog biscuit shaped cookies as they are a prop for one of the actors. That was fun to do together. We then decided to clean the kid's room. Now I have never been one of those parents who uses 'cleaning' as an excuse to pry. No, this was hanging up the big pile of clothes, throwing out trash, making the bed, etc. When we were done we were so happy. While we were doing all this B got a phone call for an interview. YAY! She is interviewing today at a local cat hotel. Yep. A cat hotel. She will work primarily with animals instead of humans which is perfect for her. She goes in today at 1:30. I am so excited for her.
As you can see, other than being tired and frustrated due to dead shrimp, it was pretty good. I got into bed around 10:30 and started to fall asleep. Around 10:45 someone gets a little frisky. Fine woman, if we must have the sex, I will do my duty. I said duty. Fell back to sleep after and thought that was that. At 2:45 B wakes me up with 'Babe someone is trying to break in!!'. I think she is being nuts so I walk out into the living room butt naked and WHAM run into KBF. I had a mini heart attack. One from being naked and two from them being home. Holy fucking shit. You could have texted or something!! Any I go back to bed and B is shaking. I freaked out which freaked her out. We then spend a half hour calming her down. Finally at 3:30 I fall back to sleep and now I am up.
One last day of teaching and then a show tonight. Spaceballs!! Then Rocky tomorrow. Almost through this insanity. Almost through.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Y5 D96
Better day yesterday. Had a smaller class which made things easier. That was my 8th straight day teaching and I am getting exhausted Two more days of it and then two shows. I can't wait for Sunday and Monday is a holiday. I tried explaining to B last night why I am just so non-talkative at night the last couple of nights. I explained that after being up at 5am and having to talk all day the last thing I want to do is keep talking. She mostly understood.
On a plus side, she has leads on a couple of jobs. Hopefully she will get the resolved soon as she is starting to stress. She hates feeling like a free-loader. She keeps worrying I am going to say she isn't worth the trouble and tell her to go back. She knows it's a silly fear but it's her fear and no amount of logic will change it. All I can do is reassure her that she isn't a burden to me and that I know she is doing her best.
Speaking of that, we are once again having issues with who is going to drive our stupid prop truck to shows this weekend. I just can't do it given my schedule and the simple fact I have no where to park the damn thing. I want that truck out of our lives. Hopefully after October we can kiss it goodbye. We need a much smaller option. Sigh.
We did have a nice night. We cleaned the kitchen together, had dinner, relaxed on the couch, and played a game of scrabble. Very close game too. We also took care of my hair. It was looking a little beat up and gray.
The stupid fridge is making too much noise right now. Thank god I live in an apartment because if that fridge goes out, I will have them bring a new one so fast it will people's head spin. Part of me hopes it does burn out because these people haven't done shit for me in my mind. Not enough to justify the increases in rent I have had. I need to look up the laws and see what they should and shouldn't have done for me given that October marks 3.5 years since I moved in.
Went to bed around 10 and once more B had a restless night. I don't know what to do about that if anything. She needs to stop her brain at night, but whatever. Nothing I can do if she can't help herself.
Another small class today followed by a big one tomorrow. I will get through this. I may not have a voice left and I may be dead tired, but I will survive. I always do somehow.
On a plus side, she has leads on a couple of jobs. Hopefully she will get the resolved soon as she is starting to stress. She hates feeling like a free-loader. She keeps worrying I am going to say she isn't worth the trouble and tell her to go back. She knows it's a silly fear but it's her fear and no amount of logic will change it. All I can do is reassure her that she isn't a burden to me and that I know she is doing her best.
Speaking of that, we are once again having issues with who is going to drive our stupid prop truck to shows this weekend. I just can't do it given my schedule and the simple fact I have no where to park the damn thing. I want that truck out of our lives. Hopefully after October we can kiss it goodbye. We need a much smaller option. Sigh.
We did have a nice night. We cleaned the kitchen together, had dinner, relaxed on the couch, and played a game of scrabble. Very close game too. We also took care of my hair. It was looking a little beat up and gray.
The stupid fridge is making too much noise right now. Thank god I live in an apartment because if that fridge goes out, I will have them bring a new one so fast it will people's head spin. Part of me hopes it does burn out because these people haven't done shit for me in my mind. Not enough to justify the increases in rent I have had. I need to look up the laws and see what they should and shouldn't have done for me given that October marks 3.5 years since I moved in.
Went to bed around 10 and once more B had a restless night. I don't know what to do about that if anything. She needs to stop her brain at night, but whatever. Nothing I can do if she can't help herself.
Another small class today followed by a big one tomorrow. I will get through this. I may not have a voice left and I may be dead tired, but I will survive. I always do somehow.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Y5 D95
Yesterday was a fucked up shitty day. My class pushed me to the edge of frustration. Some of the people on there shouldn't even be allowed near a fucking computer let alone been in my class. Their incompetence put me in a shitty lousy mood because on the outside I had to appear patient and act like I was nice but inside I was ready to yell. This caused me to be in a shit mood towards B and everyone else I came in contact with after class. I tried, I really did, but it was hard to be in a good mood when all you want to do is scream.
After class we went to target and then to BJs for dinner. Things were fine, but I knew I was in a snippy mood and I was just distant from B because I didn't want to lash out. That made her feel like I was pissed off at her which I wasn't. The tension rose from there. She went to bed thinking I was mad at her and I was just so wound up I couldn't express adequately enough that I was just 'mad' in general. She ended up getting out of bed when I came in and going in the other room because I guess there wasn't enough sincerity in my voice. I fell asleep around 10:30 but woke up at midnight to see the light on in the front room. I fell back to sleep but felt her come in a little while later. Let's see how today plays out.
On top of it, I just found out my friend has been in the fucking hospital which makes me feel like the worse friend on the face of the earth. I had no idea she had been in the hospital. I hope she is doing better and feeling alright. Some time today I need to send her and her husband a message letting them know I am thinking of them and that I hope everything is going okay.
I am just a lousy human being.
After class we went to target and then to BJs for dinner. Things were fine, but I knew I was in a snippy mood and I was just distant from B because I didn't want to lash out. That made her feel like I was pissed off at her which I wasn't. The tension rose from there. She went to bed thinking I was mad at her and I was just so wound up I couldn't express adequately enough that I was just 'mad' in general. She ended up getting out of bed when I came in and going in the other room because I guess there wasn't enough sincerity in my voice. I fell asleep around 10:30 but woke up at midnight to see the light on in the front room. I fell back to sleep but felt her come in a little while later. Let's see how today plays out.
On top of it, I just found out my friend has been in the fucking hospital which makes me feel like the worse friend on the face of the earth. I had no idea she had been in the hospital. I hope she is doing better and feeling alright. Some time today I need to send her and her husband a message letting them know I am thinking of them and that I hope everything is going okay.
I am just a lousy human being.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Y5 D94
I am tired this morning. Really fucking tired. I need to sleep for like an entire day and catch back up. I am feeling like I am sleep deprived again. Up at 5 every day is killing me. Especially when it seeps into my weekends. I don't feel like I have been able to sleep in days. It's not that I am not getting enough, it just FEELS like not enough. I went to bed at a decent time last night, but by the time I fell asleep it was after 11pm. If I didn't have these 5am times every day I wouldn't be feeling so bad.
Typical Monday yesterday. Taught all day; nothing exciting there. Have 8 people in this class which means there's at least one who is an idiot. In this case there's three. I swear people do not listen when I am talking. The one downside of remote classes. I can't see them and because no one seems to understand muting, I am forced to mute everyone which means I can't hear them either. I ask a question and then wait while they try and type. I am teaching beginner classes for the most part this week which also makes it frustrating. I am happy people want to learn but fuck people learn how your browser works.
Some times I miss the old days when people who used computers actually knew what the fuck they were doing. Sigh.
After class I had one of my local clients ask if I could come over and assist them with a problem. Sure. I went over and spent almost 2 hours with them and managed to fix one of their two issues. The other one I would need more time on and told them I couldn't be back until next week.
Got back home, made meatloaf for dinner, watched some TV, and just hung out with B. She got some 'bad' news last night. There is a concert coming up and the person who was supposed to go had to bail on her. She is sad about that. We are trying to find someone else to go with her, but it's tough. That led to a discussion of how she misses everyone and then she started worrying about Christmas and not being able to see everyone etc. Such a weird concept. Actually wanting to be around people. Meh. I will stay happily in my cave thank you.
Four more days then our special show, a regular show, and then two days of bliss. I can do this.
Typical Monday yesterday. Taught all day; nothing exciting there. Have 8 people in this class which means there's at least one who is an idiot. In this case there's three. I swear people do not listen when I am talking. The one downside of remote classes. I can't see them and because no one seems to understand muting, I am forced to mute everyone which means I can't hear them either. I ask a question and then wait while they try and type. I am teaching beginner classes for the most part this week which also makes it frustrating. I am happy people want to learn but fuck people learn how your browser works.
Some times I miss the old days when people who used computers actually knew what the fuck they were doing. Sigh.
After class I had one of my local clients ask if I could come over and assist them with a problem. Sure. I went over and spent almost 2 hours with them and managed to fix one of their two issues. The other one I would need more time on and told them I couldn't be back until next week.
Got back home, made meatloaf for dinner, watched some TV, and just hung out with B. She got some 'bad' news last night. There is a concert coming up and the person who was supposed to go had to bail on her. She is sad about that. We are trying to find someone else to go with her, but it's tough. That led to a discussion of how she misses everyone and then she started worrying about Christmas and not being able to see everyone etc. Such a weird concept. Actually wanting to be around people. Meh. I will stay happily in my cave thank you.
Four more days then our special show, a regular show, and then two days of bliss. I can do this.
Monday, August 26, 2013
Y5 D93
Yesterday was one for the books. It was one of the best weekend days I have had in a long time. Got up, made french toast for my woman, got ready to go out, and had a blast. We met up with two other couples at around noon at the movie theater. First off, we felt good being invited to this outing because it is rare for one of the couples to go out during the day as it is. They don't usually do stuff on weekends and especially not during the day. We got our movie tickets and headed to the pub next door to the theater. Since we were seeing World's End, we all felt it appropriate to start drinking before the movie. We got a nice buzz going and hit the theater. The movie was great. I haven't laughed at a comedy like that in a while. We had candy and popcorn and laughed our butts off. Two thumbs up for that one. After the movie we went back to the pub for more drinks and pizza. Got home around 4 and relaxed for a while. Played Sims, straightened up the house, and just chilled. Went to bed around 9 and had the wonderful sex. Oh yeah. A perfect end to a great day. It just all felt good. Like all the pieces were together.
Today is training followed by a quick onsite visit to a client. I have five days of training this week which will kill my voice and then two back to back shows on Friday and Saturday. It won't be until next Sunday that I get a break but it should be a good week regardless.
Today is training followed by a quick onsite visit to a client. I have five days of training this week which will kill my voice and then two back to back shows on Friday and Saturday. It won't be until next Sunday that I get a break but it should be a good week regardless.
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Y5 D92
What's that sound? Nothing!! The sound of an empty place...
I was freaking out yesterday morning. The kid who was supposed to be home at 2:30 wasn't home at 5:40 when I got up. No response to texts. Still nothing at 6:30. I finally called her work and she was there. She had told them she needed to be out of there by a certain time but she felt they half believed her and it actually helped for me to call. They got embarrassed that they had kept her so late and let her go right away. She thanked me for calling. B and I talked about that later; she thought it was great that the kid and I have such a good relationship that I could call her work and it ends up being a positive thing. If her mother had done that, it would have been for some bullshit stuff and B would have been upset. I guess the catch is, I wouldn't abuse that. I only did it as a last resort because I was worried.
Two of our cast mates came over at 6:45 to get a ride to the theater with us. All five of us piled into the car about 7:10 and headed into the city. Rehearsal officially started around nine by the time we got the truck unloaded, props inside, and everyone in costume. This was our final rehearsal before the show next Friday night.
With the exception of one person being annoying as hell, we did a great job. Compared to what we looked like two months ago, this was an out of park home run. We are going to be awesome. Even B had her costume ready, she had her props, everyone did a great job. It's her first time doing any kind of theater so while she finds parts of it frustrating, she also is getting excited about being part of everything.
After rehearsal we stayed in the city for some lunch. Had vietnamese food. I had a great sandwich and she had a rice bowl. The kid and KBF walked down there with us, but they got theirs to go as they needed to get prepared for Burning Man.
We got home around 1:30 and crashed. I slept for an hour. When I got up I saw the kid's door closed so they must have came in sometime while I was sleeping. B slept for 3 hours as did kid and KBF. They took off to get last minute supplies, came back, fed the snake, and loaded the car. We all hugged goodbye and waved them off to the desert. One week of quiet. Holy moley.
Made steaks for dinner then B and I played Infinity. We both were exhausted still and went to bed around 11. Yeah, we're old. I slept like a log. Almost 10 hours of sleep. Awesome.
Today we are meeting friends at noon to see a movie and hang out. This hopefully will be fun.
I was freaking out yesterday morning. The kid who was supposed to be home at 2:30 wasn't home at 5:40 when I got up. No response to texts. Still nothing at 6:30. I finally called her work and she was there. She had told them she needed to be out of there by a certain time but she felt they half believed her and it actually helped for me to call. They got embarrassed that they had kept her so late and let her go right away. She thanked me for calling. B and I talked about that later; she thought it was great that the kid and I have such a good relationship that I could call her work and it ends up being a positive thing. If her mother had done that, it would have been for some bullshit stuff and B would have been upset. I guess the catch is, I wouldn't abuse that. I only did it as a last resort because I was worried.
Two of our cast mates came over at 6:45 to get a ride to the theater with us. All five of us piled into the car about 7:10 and headed into the city. Rehearsal officially started around nine by the time we got the truck unloaded, props inside, and everyone in costume. This was our final rehearsal before the show next Friday night.
With the exception of one person being annoying as hell, we did a great job. Compared to what we looked like two months ago, this was an out of park home run. We are going to be awesome. Even B had her costume ready, she had her props, everyone did a great job. It's her first time doing any kind of theater so while she finds parts of it frustrating, she also is getting excited about being part of everything.
After rehearsal we stayed in the city for some lunch. Had vietnamese food. I had a great sandwich and she had a rice bowl. The kid and KBF walked down there with us, but they got theirs to go as they needed to get prepared for Burning Man.
We got home around 1:30 and crashed. I slept for an hour. When I got up I saw the kid's door closed so they must have came in sometime while I was sleeping. B slept for 3 hours as did kid and KBF. They took off to get last minute supplies, came back, fed the snake, and loaded the car. We all hugged goodbye and waved them off to the desert. One week of quiet. Holy moley.
Made steaks for dinner then B and I played Infinity. We both were exhausted still and went to bed around 11. Yeah, we're old. I slept like a log. Almost 10 hours of sleep. Awesome.
Today we are meeting friends at noon to see a movie and hang out. This hopefully will be fun.
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Y5 D91
It's 5:38am on a Saturday and I am up. This is wrong. What's even worse is the kid is not home from work yet. I am a little worried. She went to work at 9pm and was supposed to be off at 2:30. Why is she not home yet?
We are all supposed to be up and in the city at 8 for a final rehearsal. I'll be damned if I am letting the kid go to that. She is going to bed. She is not going to spend her morning doing some stupid shit after working all night. Hell, I am already pissed off about this - I am up 2.5 hours early, have to drive for 30 minutes to a rehearsal where I have 8 minutes of screen time and 20 minutes of prop moving. Fuck you. This is my one damn day of rest before I have to teach again or do house things. Not happy this morning.
Taught yesterday and dealt with a shit ton of technical errors. I don't know if something went wrong with the server or if something has changed on the instance, but things wouldn't publish, the analyzer wouldn't work, etc. I faked my way through it and only ended class a half hour early.
After class me and B went to pick up some last minute things for the show. While we were out I got a new toothbrush and we got the Villains pack for Infinity. We stopped at Chili's for dinner because it's actually one of B's favorite places. This led to a discussion about the differences between her and me. About how she is very small town sometimes. This got even deeper when her and a friend back home got into a discussion about how someone they both knew just got engaged. For her and where she lives, this is how the women measure success. They get some kind of college degree, anything even an AA, get married, and have a baby. Win! Yeah, no. She was feeling down on herself. I had to point out that most of those people will end up divorced, unhappy, and hate themselves before 30. I also pointed out that in two months she has traveled over 2500 miles, been to Disneyland twice, and met a more diverse group of people than she would have met in 10 years back home. Perspective babe.
We went to bed around 10 since we had to be up early this morning. Her sleep pattern is slowly getting better, but it's still off.
Okay, it's 5:48 and the kid still isn't home. I am freaking out.
We are all supposed to be up and in the city at 8 for a final rehearsal. I'll be damned if I am letting the kid go to that. She is going to bed. She is not going to spend her morning doing some stupid shit after working all night. Hell, I am already pissed off about this - I am up 2.5 hours early, have to drive for 30 minutes to a rehearsal where I have 8 minutes of screen time and 20 minutes of prop moving. Fuck you. This is my one damn day of rest before I have to teach again or do house things. Not happy this morning.
Taught yesterday and dealt with a shit ton of technical errors. I don't know if something went wrong with the server or if something has changed on the instance, but things wouldn't publish, the analyzer wouldn't work, etc. I faked my way through it and only ended class a half hour early.
After class me and B went to pick up some last minute things for the show. While we were out I got a new toothbrush and we got the Villains pack for Infinity. We stopped at Chili's for dinner because it's actually one of B's favorite places. This led to a discussion about the differences between her and me. About how she is very small town sometimes. This got even deeper when her and a friend back home got into a discussion about how someone they both knew just got engaged. For her and where she lives, this is how the women measure success. They get some kind of college degree, anything even an AA, get married, and have a baby. Win! Yeah, no. She was feeling down on herself. I had to point out that most of those people will end up divorced, unhappy, and hate themselves before 30. I also pointed out that in two months she has traveled over 2500 miles, been to Disneyland twice, and met a more diverse group of people than she would have met in 10 years back home. Perspective babe.
We went to bed around 10 since we had to be up early this morning. Her sleep pattern is slowly getting better, but it's still off.
Okay, it's 5:48 and the kid still isn't home. I am freaking out.
Friday, August 23, 2013
Y5 D90
Oh thank the heavens it's Friday. As cliche as that might sound, I don't care. I am happy for this week to be over. I have another packed week next week of training, but at least I get some small break tomorrow. I do have to be up at 5 tomorrow for a rehearsal but at least the rest of the day will be mine. Today is part two of the class started yesterday. My group is small, five students, and boring as hell. All Indian with names I can't pronounce. They ask no questions, don't laugh at my jokes, and are otherwise annoying. The upside? We are making it through the material much faster than we would normally. I may be able to call this a 3/4 day today. THAT would be nice.
After class we went to the store to get groceries. Fucking groceries. Can't you people just starve? Greedy bastards wanting to eat. B and I got into it a little bit because she still needs a job and she had hoped I would have been able to help her find one by now through my contacts. Not my fault no one is lending a hand. We are going to work together on this situation next week.
Speaking of next week, we also learned that the kid is leaving on Sunday for Burning Man and won't be back until Monday of the following week. An entire week to ourselves. Oh thank goodness. One the food I just bought will last longer, and two we will have some space. It's going to be nice. AND I didn't even realize it, but next Monday is a holiday. Things look good for the next few days. I probably just jinxed it, but fuck it.
Played DI and went to bed. B stayed up playing Sims while I slept. She is starting to feel homesick and one of her friends back there is having some issues with which she wishes she could help out. If I had the $500 I would send her back in a heartbeat, but it's not to be.
It's weird sometimes having her here. She is so 'traditional' in some ways - her love of her family, her ideas of a household, etc - I am more used to the independent free thinkers of my area. It's a bit of a culture shock sometimes. Especially the empathy part since I have none. Fine, I have some, but not that much.
Is today over yet?
After class we went to the store to get groceries. Fucking groceries. Can't you people just starve? Greedy bastards wanting to eat. B and I got into it a little bit because she still needs a job and she had hoped I would have been able to help her find one by now through my contacts. Not my fault no one is lending a hand. We are going to work together on this situation next week.
Speaking of next week, we also learned that the kid is leaving on Sunday for Burning Man and won't be back until Monday of the following week. An entire week to ourselves. Oh thank goodness. One the food I just bought will last longer, and two we will have some space. It's going to be nice. AND I didn't even realize it, but next Monday is a holiday. Things look good for the next few days. I probably just jinxed it, but fuck it.
Played DI and went to bed. B stayed up playing Sims while I slept. She is starting to feel homesick and one of her friends back there is having some issues with which she wishes she could help out. If I had the $500 I would send her back in a heartbeat, but it's not to be.
It's weird sometimes having her here. She is so 'traditional' in some ways - her love of her family, her ideas of a household, etc - I am more used to the independent free thinkers of my area. It's a bit of a culture shock sometimes. Especially the empathy part since I have none. Fine, I have some, but not that much.
Is today over yet?
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Y5 D89
What day is it? I am very confused this week. Too much training. I have been up at 5 every day. And there's still two more days of it. At least today and tomorrow are from home. I don't have to leave the house. I guess I will put on pants.
Taught onsite all day yesterday. Brought the class donuts which always gets them excited. Honestly, I don't mind the onsite stuff. Especially when it is local. I have five days of that next month already planned and am looking forward to it. But this month I am on day 4 of ten straight of training. It's draining on a guy. I am looking forward to 9/2 when I will have a small break in the action. Of course I don't want to get chewed out so I have plenty of stuff lined up to keep me busy. Which is total bullshit, but that's a story for another day.
Got home around 6. Brought home leftovers again. This time burrito boxes from Rubio's. Didn't have to worry about cooking. I need to explain something to B though. She is doing the same thing to me that X1 would do. When I get home from something like this I need to decompress. To engage immediately in conversation is hard. I don't want to talk or be cheery. I want to just veg out for a while and she on the other hand has been home all day talking to no one. Thank god at least for the internet and video games. It could be worse. A lot worse.
The kid was home and we all had some decent conversation while we ate. After dinner I did some reading while B played Sims and the kid was in her room doing the same. I was extremely tired and passed out around 9:30. I woke up at 12 and found B still up. I woke up again at 2 and found her on the couch. I decided to leave her be and just sent her to bed when I got up at 5. I don't know why she couldn't sleep but how much you want to bet she napped yesterday? I need her to get on a better sleep cycle. She is repeating her behavior when she was home and would stay up until 3 then sleep until 11. That just doesn't work for me. Not for any real reason other than guilt. Also I still have issues from when Psycho Bitch would stay up all night while I slept. That experience has made me wary of someone who is up while I am not. Trust issues? No, I am good I have plenty, thanks!
Taught onsite all day yesterday. Brought the class donuts which always gets them excited. Honestly, I don't mind the onsite stuff. Especially when it is local. I have five days of that next month already planned and am looking forward to it. But this month I am on day 4 of ten straight of training. It's draining on a guy. I am looking forward to 9/2 when I will have a small break in the action. Of course I don't want to get chewed out so I have plenty of stuff lined up to keep me busy. Which is total bullshit, but that's a story for another day.
Got home around 6. Brought home leftovers again. This time burrito boxes from Rubio's. Didn't have to worry about cooking. I need to explain something to B though. She is doing the same thing to me that X1 would do. When I get home from something like this I need to decompress. To engage immediately in conversation is hard. I don't want to talk or be cheery. I want to just veg out for a while and she on the other hand has been home all day talking to no one. Thank god at least for the internet and video games. It could be worse. A lot worse.
The kid was home and we all had some decent conversation while we ate. After dinner I did some reading while B played Sims and the kid was in her room doing the same. I was extremely tired and passed out around 9:30. I woke up at 12 and found B still up. I woke up again at 2 and found her on the couch. I decided to leave her be and just sent her to bed when I got up at 5. I don't know why she couldn't sleep but how much you want to bet she napped yesterday? I need her to get on a better sleep cycle. She is repeating her behavior when she was home and would stay up until 3 then sleep until 11. That just doesn't work for me. Not for any real reason other than guilt. Also I still have issues from when Psycho Bitch would stay up all night while I slept. That experience has made me wary of someone who is up while I am not. Trust issues? No, I am good I have plenty, thanks!
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Y5 D88
Slept like a rock last night. So nice and solid.
Yesterday was a packed day. I arrived at the client and started setting up around 8. We started class at 8:40. Non-stop until 4:40. It was a good class, 12 people total, but long and lots of information. We are way behind where I wanted us to be for this morning. This is a very custom class and I wish we had made it farther but it is what it is. Everyone in the room seems happy with the knowledge they are getting and at the end of the day that's all that matters. Whether we get through the material is less relevant to me than if they fully understand everything we go over.
They brought in lunch for us and there were a ton of leftovers. I brought all of that home and had sandwiches and chips for dinner. Today is supposed to be Rubio's but I doubt there will be leftovers to bring home.
Got home around 6 thanks to bad traffic. Relaxed, play some more Disney Infinity. B had a headache and went to bed around 8:30. I stayed up until about 10. Fell right asleep. Good dreams but I can't remember them. I just know there was nothing bad going on which is nice.
Time to do it again.
Yesterday was a packed day. I arrived at the client and started setting up around 8. We started class at 8:40. Non-stop until 4:40. It was a good class, 12 people total, but long and lots of information. We are way behind where I wanted us to be for this morning. This is a very custom class and I wish we had made it farther but it is what it is. Everyone in the room seems happy with the knowledge they are getting and at the end of the day that's all that matters. Whether we get through the material is less relevant to me than if they fully understand everything we go over.
They brought in lunch for us and there were a ton of leftovers. I brought all of that home and had sandwiches and chips for dinner. Today is supposed to be Rubio's but I doubt there will be leftovers to bring home.
Got home around 6 thanks to bad traffic. Relaxed, play some more Disney Infinity. B had a headache and went to bed around 8:30. I stayed up until about 10. Fell right asleep. Good dreams but I can't remember them. I just know there was nothing bad going on which is nice.
Time to do it again.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Y5 D87
Why do I keep writing in here? Is it for me or for the readers? I don't even know if I have any readers any more to be honest. If you're out there and still reading this, hey thanks. I think this still does help me in some sense. It forces me to keep myself honest. Reflection and all that crap. It just seems that lately there's not much to write about. I shouldn't be complaining about that. I guess there are still the random day where something interesting happens, but overall the days are just the days. I don't wake up in a pool of my own vomit on the floor anymore. Maybe that's why people still read. To see if I will fall from the semi-precarious ledge I have managed to crawl my way back on to over the last 4 years. I don't know. We all like to watch the car crashes...
Yesterday I went onsite to a client. It was supposed to be a quick review before we start teaching today and tomorrow. Turned into 9 hours onsite, a 220 slide customized training with 28 demos, and a long day. It was weird being somewhere all day sitting in a cube. I haven't had to do that for a while. I get there and meet with my contact. He proceeds to tell me their requirements for the class. Um, I have one day kind sir to put that all together. Which I did. But man that was rough. I hope the material presents as well as I managed to make it look on paper. We will find out today.
Got home around six and B had made us pizza for dinner. She also had spent a good portion of the day looking for jobs which was cool. I am hoping that situation will be resolved before the end of the month. After eating we played Infinity for a while. We loaded the Incredibles. Not as much fun to me as Monsters University. Tonight we will load Pirates and see how much fun that is. We did find a new section called the 'Hall of Heroes' which has platforms for all the characters you can unlock. There are dozens of platforms. I look forward to some of the other characters being released. There's going to be Nightmare, Phineas and Ferb, Frozen, Toy Story, etc. Come on developers, hurry up. I know what Christmas around here is going to look like.
Went off to bed around 10 and had the sex. Wasn't planning on having the sex, but not complaining either. I originally resisted as I got real tired real quick when we got into bed, but she convinced me. Yeah, took a whole lot of persuading. Passed out right after. Sorry, no cuddling, too tired.
I have been sleeping much better thanks to the new bed. Man I love the new bed. Should have done this a year ago.
The kid got home before we went to bed and we talked briefly. She is going to drop one of her night classes. It's too much for her going 12 hours a day. Plus she did some research and one of the apartments they were looking at is still available and she priced out how much to commute and it won't be any more expensive. I am crossing my fingers that her and KBF will be out before the end of next month. That will be interesting.
Off to the client.
Yesterday I went onsite to a client. It was supposed to be a quick review before we start teaching today and tomorrow. Turned into 9 hours onsite, a 220 slide customized training with 28 demos, and a long day. It was weird being somewhere all day sitting in a cube. I haven't had to do that for a while. I get there and meet with my contact. He proceeds to tell me their requirements for the class. Um, I have one day kind sir to put that all together. Which I did. But man that was rough. I hope the material presents as well as I managed to make it look on paper. We will find out today.
Got home around six and B had made us pizza for dinner. She also had spent a good portion of the day looking for jobs which was cool. I am hoping that situation will be resolved before the end of the month. After eating we played Infinity for a while. We loaded the Incredibles. Not as much fun to me as Monsters University. Tonight we will load Pirates and see how much fun that is. We did find a new section called the 'Hall of Heroes' which has platforms for all the characters you can unlock. There are dozens of platforms. I look forward to some of the other characters being released. There's going to be Nightmare, Phineas and Ferb, Frozen, Toy Story, etc. Come on developers, hurry up. I know what Christmas around here is going to look like.
Went off to bed around 10 and had the sex. Wasn't planning on having the sex, but not complaining either. I originally resisted as I got real tired real quick when we got into bed, but she convinced me. Yeah, took a whole lot of persuading. Passed out right after. Sorry, no cuddling, too tired.
I have been sleeping much better thanks to the new bed. Man I love the new bed. Should have done this a year ago.
The kid got home before we went to bed and we talked briefly. She is going to drop one of her night classes. It's too much for her going 12 hours a day. Plus she did some research and one of the apartments they were looking at is still available and she priced out how much to commute and it won't be any more expensive. I am crossing my fingers that her and KBF will be out before the end of next month. That will be interesting.
Off to the client.
Monday, August 19, 2013
Y5 D86
Disney Infinity is the coolest fucking video game ever. No the concept is nothing new, it's Skylanders with Disney figures, but it's still fucking cool. End of discussion. Hey guess what we did for 7 hours yesterday? I first learned about DI about a year ago. Then saw the E3 trailers and play demos. I knew I wanted it. The release date got changed a few times, but finally it was released yesterday. Which in of itself is weird because normally they don't do releases on a Sunday.
We got up, I made breakfast for everyone (yes, everyone as KBF and the kid were here), and then me and B went out. She needed to pick up fabric for her costume still. We went to the nice thrift store that's around and found two sheets and a canopy that will work perfect. A third of the price of buying comparable fabric at Jo-Anns. We know because that was our second stop of the day. Seriously, one of the fabrics is $10 a yard and she has at least 4 yards of it. Is the stuff from Jo-Anns a better quality? Probably but seeing as she needs this for 5 minutes of screentime, neither of us wanted to shell out serious money. We did get some paint and a couple other little things there though. In total her costume cost about $25. Perfect amount for what it is. Mine for the show I had someone else make and it was a lot more.
After the fabric store we hit Best Buy. We also had to stop next door at Petsmart where are friend works. B forgot her sweatshirt at the party Saturday night and our friend was kind enough to grab it. I wanted to see if DI was out or if the Sunday release date on Amazon was an Amazon thing only. I am used to things coming out on Tuesdays not Sundays. But there it was. B had no idea what it was and was looking at me like I was nuts about to spend $100 on a video game system. The only saving grace was it is Disney.
We got it home, plugged in, and she was hooked. We only did Monsters University. We got the main game, the three included figures, and the 'Sidekicks' add on pack. That gives us Sully, Mike W, Jack Sparrow, Barbosa, and both the Incredibles. There are still a dozen more if we want them all. We played for 3.5 hours.
Headed out for some food. The kid was being a bitch again. I'm sorry you need to work and we are going out for dinner. I ended up bringing her home a burger which she ate when she got home, but I really felt like it was unappreciated. This is life kid, work, school, and all that goes with it. Welcome to adulthood. Don't blame me for it. We ended up playing more when we got back from dinner. But first I did some work and B started in on her costume. I had to do timesheets and status reports for people. Another 3 hours of playing followed though. It's easy to get lost in it - hey it's not called 'Infinity' for nothing.
Went to bed. It was hot as fuck here yesterday and we didn't want to even touch the bed let alone each other.
I am onsite the next three days for a client, followed by two at home which is why I am up so early. Luckily they are VERY local. This will keep me off the radar for a while thank god.
We got up, I made breakfast for everyone (yes, everyone as KBF and the kid were here), and then me and B went out. She needed to pick up fabric for her costume still. We went to the nice thrift store that's around and found two sheets and a canopy that will work perfect. A third of the price of buying comparable fabric at Jo-Anns. We know because that was our second stop of the day. Seriously, one of the fabrics is $10 a yard and she has at least 4 yards of it. Is the stuff from Jo-Anns a better quality? Probably but seeing as she needs this for 5 minutes of screentime, neither of us wanted to shell out serious money. We did get some paint and a couple other little things there though. In total her costume cost about $25. Perfect amount for what it is. Mine for the show I had someone else make and it was a lot more.
After the fabric store we hit Best Buy. We also had to stop next door at Petsmart where are friend works. B forgot her sweatshirt at the party Saturday night and our friend was kind enough to grab it. I wanted to see if DI was out or if the Sunday release date on Amazon was an Amazon thing only. I am used to things coming out on Tuesdays not Sundays. But there it was. B had no idea what it was and was looking at me like I was nuts about to spend $100 on a video game system. The only saving grace was it is Disney.
We got it home, plugged in, and she was hooked. We only did Monsters University. We got the main game, the three included figures, and the 'Sidekicks' add on pack. That gives us Sully, Mike W, Jack Sparrow, Barbosa, and both the Incredibles. There are still a dozen more if we want them all. We played for 3.5 hours.
Headed out for some food. The kid was being a bitch again. I'm sorry you need to work and we are going out for dinner. I ended up bringing her home a burger which she ate when she got home, but I really felt like it was unappreciated. This is life kid, work, school, and all that goes with it. Welcome to adulthood. Don't blame me for it. We ended up playing more when we got back from dinner. But first I did some work and B started in on her costume. I had to do timesheets and status reports for people. Another 3 hours of playing followed though. It's easy to get lost in it - hey it's not called 'Infinity' for nothing.
Went to bed. It was hot as fuck here yesterday and we didn't want to even touch the bed let alone each other.
I am onsite the next three days for a client, followed by two at home which is why I am up so early. Luckily they are VERY local. This will keep me off the radar for a while thank god.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Y5 D85
Pretty decent day yesterday. Not a stellar day, but you know, they all can't be wonderful otherwise how would we know the difference?
Trying to remember everything I did yesterday. Not much in the morning time. We got up, jeez what the hell did we do?? I'm serious, I am like totally blank. We hung around the house, played some Sims, B did her nails, did a little cleaning, and not much else that I can recall. I made deviled eggs for later in the night.
We went to our director's house for a rehearsal. Left around 5 and stopped for Jack in the box on the way. It was a full dress rehearsal. That actually went better than I expected. You can see this show coming together. Some of the costumes are great. I had someone make mine and wow. She did an excellent job on it. It's nice having seamstresses and theater majors on cast sometimes. I guess that's really all we did yesterday. It did start getting too drizzly on us while we were performing and we had to put all the props away. We were doing this in her front yard I should add. We have been doing a combination of yard and theater rehearsals. After rehearsal we all went inside to eat but there were too many people, too much noise, and it was just too late in the day.
We left about 10:30 and I was in a grumpy mood from too many people. We got home and realized we were both exhausted. We collapsed in bed.
Nothing bad really happened yesterday but it also was a pretty dull day.
Trying to remember everything I did yesterday. Not much in the morning time. We got up, jeez what the hell did we do?? I'm serious, I am like totally blank. We hung around the house, played some Sims, B did her nails, did a little cleaning, and not much else that I can recall. I made deviled eggs for later in the night.
We went to our director's house for a rehearsal. Left around 5 and stopped for Jack in the box on the way. It was a full dress rehearsal. That actually went better than I expected. You can see this show coming together. Some of the costumes are great. I had someone make mine and wow. She did an excellent job on it. It's nice having seamstresses and theater majors on cast sometimes. I guess that's really all we did yesterday. It did start getting too drizzly on us while we were performing and we had to put all the props away. We were doing this in her front yard I should add. We have been doing a combination of yard and theater rehearsals. After rehearsal we all went inside to eat but there were too many people, too much noise, and it was just too late in the day.
We left about 10:30 and I was in a grumpy mood from too many people. We got home and realized we were both exhausted. We collapsed in bed.
Nothing bad really happened yesterday but it also was a pretty dull day.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Y5 D84
Two advil kind of morning. Yay ibuprofen. Savior of my white peoples. I had one of those "I didn't realize I was drunk until I realized I was drunk" kind of nights. Nothing bad, just enough that I am feeling it this morning. Also when you have people over you don't realize just how much cleaning apparently needs to be done. Unless you have a girlfriend to tell you. Or a wife. Either way, they are more than happy to help you out on this.
Woke up, taught. At the lunch break we started all the laundry as there was a lot to do. Managed to get through the wash cycle and get it into the dryer before I had to go back on class. B took care of getting it out of the dryer when it was done. This was cute to watch/listen to. The bag was almost as big as her and hearing her try to drag it up the stairs was amusing. She ended up using my skateboard to get it from the laundry to the stairs and then bump bump bump all the way up.
After class we put all the laundry away and then cleaned. Our friends were scheduled to be over around 7:30. Now, the big deal here is that this was one of our friends and he was bringing over his new girlfriend. They have been going out about a month and we are the first ones from our social group to meet her. Hence why it was so important for us to make a good impression - at least B thought it was. I said "I have to wear pants?!?".
We went to the store and got some things for the evening. Nothing fancy, just some chips, tequila, and margarita mix. I also got some stuff for today to bring to rehearsal. I plan on making deviled eggs.
Got back and did some cleaning. I ended up falling asleep on the couch for 25 minutes. Guess I was tired. At 7 I ordered pizza. At 7:40 the pizza arrived and 7:45 our guests arrived. We mostly approve of our friend's new girl. She is nice. A little bit nervous meeting us and it showed. We played CAH and talked. It was fun.
The kid came home around 10 and joined us. She had another long day.
All in all things were good. They left around midnight, we cleaned up, and as we were cleaning I had my realization moment as described above. Didn't think about it though and we went off to bed.
Today is rehearsal. Joy.
Woke up, taught. At the lunch break we started all the laundry as there was a lot to do. Managed to get through the wash cycle and get it into the dryer before I had to go back on class. B took care of getting it out of the dryer when it was done. This was cute to watch/listen to. The bag was almost as big as her and hearing her try to drag it up the stairs was amusing. She ended up using my skateboard to get it from the laundry to the stairs and then bump bump bump all the way up.
After class we put all the laundry away and then cleaned. Our friends were scheduled to be over around 7:30. Now, the big deal here is that this was one of our friends and he was bringing over his new girlfriend. They have been going out about a month and we are the first ones from our social group to meet her. Hence why it was so important for us to make a good impression - at least B thought it was. I said "I have to wear pants?!?".
We went to the store and got some things for the evening. Nothing fancy, just some chips, tequila, and margarita mix. I also got some stuff for today to bring to rehearsal. I plan on making deviled eggs.
Got back and did some cleaning. I ended up falling asleep on the couch for 25 minutes. Guess I was tired. At 7 I ordered pizza. At 7:40 the pizza arrived and 7:45 our guests arrived. We mostly approve of our friend's new girl. She is nice. A little bit nervous meeting us and it showed. We played CAH and talked. It was fun.
The kid came home around 10 and joined us. She had another long day.
All in all things were good. They left around midnight, we cleaned up, and as we were cleaning I had my realization moment as described above. Didn't think about it though and we went off to bed.
Today is rehearsal. Joy.
Friday, August 16, 2013
Y5 D83
I had the shittiest fucking day yesterday. So bad that I am going to be updating my resume this weekend. The day was awful. I trained yesterday and the class itself went fine. It was the phone call I got at lunch which threw me off, pissed me off all day, and caused me to not even want the sex last night. Yeah, that bad. I got an ass chewing from my boss for being 'available not assigned' for a couple of days last week. I felt like I was a 12 year old being dragged to the principal's office. I did everything in my power to fill my time but I still had some down time. This is NOT MY FAULT. I give them advance warning, things fell through, and shit didn't line up. What am I supposed to do, make up work? Apparently that's better than being 'unassigned'. Well fuck you. Here's the kicker - I found out later that it doesn't MATTER if I am not assigned. More on that in a minute. The call basically consisted of him throwing in my face everything the company has done for me, how they pay me a good salary, etc. It's the personal shit being thrown back at me that really pisses me off. I see the two as mutually exclusive since I am paying the company back. As for my salary? I can easily get 10-15% more for my skills on the open market. Not to mention that I haven't received a raise or a tangible bonus in almost 2 years. Do not throw at me how much I make. The worst part was at the end of the call once he was done yelling he had the nerve to try and ask about my personal life and make regular conversation. Fuck. You. From here on out I refuse to attend any of his company events or play nice. You fucked up buddy.
That was my lunchtime pep talk if you will. Which screwed my whole mood and I could hear the bitterness creeping in during the afternoon session. Just soured my whole day. I sent the guy who is actually in charge of putting me on projects an email saying that I don't need this and if they want I will just quit. He was just as surprised as I was with the phone call and apologized for it. He told me not to do anything rash and he would call me at 5:30. Fine.
Class finished at 3, we went to the dollar store because B wanted some folders, and then I came home and waited. At 5:30 exactly I got the call. Turns out that this guy, our director of training, had back in May been told that the training business has to burden the cost of my salary before he is allowed to take his salary. Meaning he has to book enough training to cover my costs and then he gets commission off the remaining. For the most part this has worked fine. He has made enough. An example is the class I am teaching right now - two days of training with 5 students covers 1/2 of my salary. I have TEN STRAIGHT DAYS booked before the end of the month. Six - eight days a month covers me. I am typically booked 10-12 a month. In his mind during those other periods I can sit and masturbate all day for all he cares. There's no issue with me having down time. None. So why did I get that phone call? We both think that something is fucked up on the consulting side of the house and they didn't book as much as they wanted. Hence go after the training division which is showing a profit. The two of us are bringing in a decent amount of money for the company with little to no overhead. At all. At the end of the conversation I felt a little better because there is another partner company down in his area that has been trying to woo him. If he could offer a package of an entire training business PLUS instructor, it sweetens the deal. My life would change zero; I would do the same thing, the same way, just for another parent company. But make more money and not have to justify my existence every few weeks. I told him that I am not against entertaining this idea.
After the call I made enchiladas for dinner. The kid got home around 7. She was having another stress day because of school and work. One crisis at a time please. I played a little Sims and went to bed around 9. B tried to get me going, but the truth was I was just so frustrated still that nothing was happening. Which made her sad because she feels like she failed. Sigh.
I am hoping today goes better. I am also hoping that no one talks to me for the next two weeks. Just leave me the fuck alone. I have a busy weekend - friends coming over tonight, rehearsal tomorrow, projects around the house scheduled for Sunday. Let's see if I make it.
That was my lunchtime pep talk if you will. Which screwed my whole mood and I could hear the bitterness creeping in during the afternoon session. Just soured my whole day. I sent the guy who is actually in charge of putting me on projects an email saying that I don't need this and if they want I will just quit. He was just as surprised as I was with the phone call and apologized for it. He told me not to do anything rash and he would call me at 5:30. Fine.
Class finished at 3, we went to the dollar store because B wanted some folders, and then I came home and waited. At 5:30 exactly I got the call. Turns out that this guy, our director of training, had back in May been told that the training business has to burden the cost of my salary before he is allowed to take his salary. Meaning he has to book enough training to cover my costs and then he gets commission off the remaining. For the most part this has worked fine. He has made enough. An example is the class I am teaching right now - two days of training with 5 students covers 1/2 of my salary. I have TEN STRAIGHT DAYS booked before the end of the month. Six - eight days a month covers me. I am typically booked 10-12 a month. In his mind during those other periods I can sit and masturbate all day for all he cares. There's no issue with me having down time. None. So why did I get that phone call? We both think that something is fucked up on the consulting side of the house and they didn't book as much as they wanted. Hence go after the training division which is showing a profit. The two of us are bringing in a decent amount of money for the company with little to no overhead. At all. At the end of the conversation I felt a little better because there is another partner company down in his area that has been trying to woo him. If he could offer a package of an entire training business PLUS instructor, it sweetens the deal. My life would change zero; I would do the same thing, the same way, just for another parent company. But make more money and not have to justify my existence every few weeks. I told him that I am not against entertaining this idea.
After the call I made enchiladas for dinner. The kid got home around 7. She was having another stress day because of school and work. One crisis at a time please. I played a little Sims and went to bed around 9. B tried to get me going, but the truth was I was just so frustrated still that nothing was happening. Which made her sad because she feels like she failed. Sigh.
I am hoping today goes better. I am also hoping that no one talks to me for the next two weeks. Just leave me the fuck alone. I have a busy weekend - friends coming over tonight, rehearsal tomorrow, projects around the house scheduled for Sunday. Let's see if I make it.
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Y5 D82
I slept very well last night. The new bed is paying for itself right away. Just the fact that I am waking up at 5am rested instead of a night of tossing and turning makes it all worth it. Not to say I am not sleepy this morning. It turned out to be a heck of a day yesterday. Didn't play tech support at least, but I did sit around waiting for people which is kind of worse. I took the kid to the train station in the morning as she had her first day of school yesterday. Left around 7:30 and then headed to a client. The client didn't confirm they would be able to meet with me when I sent them an email on Friday, but they are close to the house and figured I would take a chance. Bad move. Traffic to and from the train station sucked immensely and I arrived at the client at 8:50. I then sat there until 9:40 waiting for someone to come down to the lobby. No one ever did. Whatever. Headed home after making a couple of quick stops. Got home and passed out for 45 minutes because I was already tired. Got back up and got confirmation from a friend that he and his new girlfriend would be able to come over on Friday for a game night. This of course sent B into a cleaning frenzy. Apparently our place needed to be sterilized. Or at least that's how it felt. I had some documents to read over, prep for today's class, and watch a project management video. All while helping her clean. That was fun. I do agree with her that the house needed cleaning, it was more the timing of it. Regardless, I got through all of it. House cleaning and work tasks. For dinner we did taco bell because it's one of her favorite places. We need to change that. I need to expand her palette more. Working on it. After taco bell we came back and both of us were too full to do anything but sit on the couch. I left around 9 to pick up the kid. She shows up at the train in tears. Her class schedule got fucked over because of low enrollment at her school since the news got out about them losing accreditation in 2014. I calmed her down and when we got home we put together a plan of action for her. Used all those wonderful project management tips I learned in the videos. I got her calmed down and by the time I got into bed it was almost 11. Went right to sleep luckily. Had a great dream. Dreamt I was in a place where this guy had a 'pin tree'. Yes, Disney pins grow on trees in my dreams. Neat. There was also a baby goat head butting a mountain lion, but that was a side part of the dream. Don't even know what that was supposed to mean.
Started listening to Night Vale. Wow. Weird ass shit. Best description? Stephen King and Neil Gaiman started a Sim Town and just it left it running. Forever. I am six episodes into it.
Training all day today and tomorrow. Let's go Thursday.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Y5 D81
Today is our six month anniversary. I would have to go back and read last year to see the day we started actually talking, but this is the official day of when I got on a plane and flew to MI to meet a woman from the internet. Here we are six months later and she is living with me and I have a brand new life. Amazing how much can change in six short months. Kind of crazy isn't it?
Yesterday was my sister's birthday. We called and sang to her. Her and I talked later. She was a bit of a grumpy cat in the morning, but we talked again later in the day and she got through that. I am glad she ended up having a good day. There is a chance in the future she might be moving closer to us which is fantastic because I would love to be able to spend time with her.
Spent the whole day playing tech support for clients. Fixing a production issue java error for one and helping resolve connectivity issues for another. Annoying but at least I had a full billable day. Today I am going into a client to play project manager which means I should be onsite for no more than an hour at most but it too could be all day. Tomorrow and Friday are training thank goodness. Something I know how to do well.
I baked a bunch yesterday too. Made snickerdoodles and also made "Kabrownies". Chocolate chip cookies with a peanut butter cup center and a brownie base. Made baked chicken with rice and veggies for dinner. The kid had another long day - noon to almost 8. She is grumpy about it, but I think next week when she sees her check she will be a lot less grumpy.
Not a very exciting day all in all, but it was a day. I made it through. I am loving the new bed. In part thanks to B, I have a life back. One step at a time. I have someone to talk to, to give me love and intimacy (all the intimacy last night), she is pushing me to eat, to change things like the bed - moving me forward again. The apathy and lethargy are dissolving. I actually give a shit about being again.
Best six months I could have ever hoped for.
Yesterday was my sister's birthday. We called and sang to her. Her and I talked later. She was a bit of a grumpy cat in the morning, but we talked again later in the day and she got through that. I am glad she ended up having a good day. There is a chance in the future she might be moving closer to us which is fantastic because I would love to be able to spend time with her.
Spent the whole day playing tech support for clients. Fixing a production issue java error for one and helping resolve connectivity issues for another. Annoying but at least I had a full billable day. Today I am going into a client to play project manager which means I should be onsite for no more than an hour at most but it too could be all day. Tomorrow and Friday are training thank goodness. Something I know how to do well.
I baked a bunch yesterday too. Made snickerdoodles and also made "Kabrownies". Chocolate chip cookies with a peanut butter cup center and a brownie base. Made baked chicken with rice and veggies for dinner. The kid had another long day - noon to almost 8. She is grumpy about it, but I think next week when she sees her check she will be a lot less grumpy.
Not a very exciting day all in all, but it was a day. I made it through. I am loving the new bed. In part thanks to B, I have a life back. One step at a time. I have someone to talk to, to give me love and intimacy (all the intimacy last night), she is pushing me to eat, to change things like the bed - moving me forward again. The apathy and lethargy are dissolving. I actually give a shit about being again.
Best six months I could have ever hoped for.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Y5 D80
The difference a bed makes. Holy smokes. I slept so soundly last night it's not even funny. So much so that I overslept. We went to bed late which didn't help either. I need her to understand that just because I am at home, it doesn't mean I don't have obligations. I woke up to a bunch of emails this morning which luckily I handled in the last 1/2 hour. It looks like my day started at 9 (which it did) but that I have been up for a while (which I have not).
We got up and the bed people called right at 11:30, be there in 20 minutes. They showed up a half hour later which wasn't bad. They were in and out in 10. We then went to the DMV to try and get B a new ID card. She doesn't want to change her license just yet because she still has insurance in her home state. She needs to see what she is going to do with her car before she does that. Unfortunately after 40 minutes of waiting we were told that she needed an original of her birth certificate, not a copy. Dammit. Oh well. She called her mother and she is sending one. Yeah. Okay, let's see how long that takes. I am half tempted to called their department of records myself and order one to see which ones gets here faster.
Afterwards we came home, I worked for a while, she napped on the new bed - also part of the problem - she napped later in the day. No more of that. No naps after 2. We then went and had BBQ for dinner. I wanted BBQ AND I didn't want to be around the kid and KBF yet another night. I wanted some alone time.
After dinner we headed to the mall just to walk around. That was nice. Came home, hung about, talked for a while about everything and nothing. We were both in a silly mood last night and cuddled and just enjoyed each other's company. No sex actually. Neither of us wanted sex, just intimacy.
Fell asleep around 1am. Woke up totally refreshed at 5:30. I should have just gotten up but...
Today will be more of the same. I was officially made Project Manager for a client so I have to go over there tomorrow to check in, run a Budget report, write a status update, etc. Nothing horrible, but not stuff I can do in five minutes either.
I like this time of day. Alone time.
We got up and the bed people called right at 11:30, be there in 20 minutes. They showed up a half hour later which wasn't bad. They were in and out in 10. We then went to the DMV to try and get B a new ID card. She doesn't want to change her license just yet because she still has insurance in her home state. She needs to see what she is going to do with her car before she does that. Unfortunately after 40 minutes of waiting we were told that she needed an original of her birth certificate, not a copy. Dammit. Oh well. She called her mother and she is sending one. Yeah. Okay, let's see how long that takes. I am half tempted to called their department of records myself and order one to see which ones gets here faster.
Afterwards we came home, I worked for a while, she napped on the new bed - also part of the problem - she napped later in the day. No more of that. No naps after 2. We then went and had BBQ for dinner. I wanted BBQ AND I didn't want to be around the kid and KBF yet another night. I wanted some alone time.
After dinner we headed to the mall just to walk around. That was nice. Came home, hung about, talked for a while about everything and nothing. We were both in a silly mood last night and cuddled and just enjoyed each other's company. No sex actually. Neither of us wanted sex, just intimacy.
Fell asleep around 1am. Woke up totally refreshed at 5:30. I should have just gotten up but...
Today will be more of the same. I was officially made Project Manager for a client so I have to go over there tomorrow to check in, run a Budget report, write a status update, etc. Nothing horrible, but not stuff I can do in five minutes either.
I like this time of day. Alone time.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Y5 D79
What started out as a calm day turned into us sleeping on the floor in the living room. I have been needing a new mattress for a while. That one I bought just wasn't cutting it. There were too many nights when I enjoyed sleeping on the couch instead of my own bed. That's a bad sign. But I could handle it. B however could not handle it. We decided to go look at new mattresses. We both had our heart set on the same bed we get when we are at the Hilton in Anaheim. Which I looked up and found is a Serta. A very pricey Serta. It's about a $1600 bed. Out of my range unfortunately. We did however find the bed used by Starwood - the Heavenly Bed. That was only $900 because it was on sale. Done and done. They have a 1 year no interest plan. $100 a month and we have a new bed and pillow. I did also get the guy to throw in a day bed frame for the kid's room. She has been on the same bed since she was 8. Seriously time for an upgrade.
Now here's where things get screwy. This is around 11am. The salesguy tells us "no problem same day. They may be as late as 9 or 10 but same day. They will call you.". Alright buddy we shall see. They also told me they needed a couple hours to disassemble the daybed frame since the one we got was the floor model. No problem. We go and get a sandwich for lunch and then go out and wash the car. We head back to the shop and get the daybed frame with no problem. The large part won't fit in my car which we expected and I ended up walking home with it on my head. It was only a mile away, not a big deal. But I had not heard back on anything yet about delivery and I mentioned that to the guy. He said not to worry.
You get where this is headed, right?
We setup everything, get our room prepped, and then we sit. I post that a mattress is available for free. One of my friends comes over to check it out. Unfortunately she didn't have a way to haul it and neither do I. It is now six pm and I have heard nothing. So I call the warehouse who proceeds to tell me that they have no order for us. It shows we picked up at store because of the daybed. I go ballistic and drive to the store. After 10 minutes of back and forth, salesguy gets them to update the system and promise it out here today. Doesn't help. I make salesguy throw in another $150 pillow for more wasted time.
We moved the mattress into the living to make it easier for people to takeaway (either the delivery guys or a friend). And that is where we ended up sleeping. Sleep didn't come until much later. No, there's still more things to discuss...
We got home, I made dinner. Pork chops, red potatoes, and green beans. After we were done eating I was poking around looking at due dates and bills and I found my lease. My lease which has the address wrong on it. Turns out they used one of my current creditors for my lease and I can manage it through the same account. Great, except it has the wrong address. Which explains why I haven't received anything on it yet. Idiots. I need to call them this morning and resolve. It is just pure luck I found that.
Around 9:30 KBF came over but the kid was still at work. Turns out they were planning on watching the meteor shower. She got home around 10 and they invited us to join them. We headed up into the hills a bit and watched to show for about an hour. I saw a good four or five. Neat. We got home around midnight and collapsed on our floor pile. That was annoying. Every noise, every light, every scratch bugged us both. I slept like pure shit last night.
That bed better be here soon.
Now here's where things get screwy. This is around 11am. The salesguy tells us "no problem same day. They may be as late as 9 or 10 but same day. They will call you.". Alright buddy we shall see. They also told me they needed a couple hours to disassemble the daybed frame since the one we got was the floor model. No problem. We go and get a sandwich for lunch and then go out and wash the car. We head back to the shop and get the daybed frame with no problem. The large part won't fit in my car which we expected and I ended up walking home with it on my head. It was only a mile away, not a big deal. But I had not heard back on anything yet about delivery and I mentioned that to the guy. He said not to worry.
You get where this is headed, right?
We setup everything, get our room prepped, and then we sit. I post that a mattress is available for free. One of my friends comes over to check it out. Unfortunately she didn't have a way to haul it and neither do I. It is now six pm and I have heard nothing. So I call the warehouse who proceeds to tell me that they have no order for us. It shows we picked up at store because of the daybed. I go ballistic and drive to the store. After 10 minutes of back and forth, salesguy gets them to update the system and promise it out here today. Doesn't help. I make salesguy throw in another $150 pillow for more wasted time.
We moved the mattress into the living to make it easier for people to takeaway (either the delivery guys or a friend). And that is where we ended up sleeping. Sleep didn't come until much later. No, there's still more things to discuss...
We got home, I made dinner. Pork chops, red potatoes, and green beans. After we were done eating I was poking around looking at due dates and bills and I found my lease. My lease which has the address wrong on it. Turns out they used one of my current creditors for my lease and I can manage it through the same account. Great, except it has the wrong address. Which explains why I haven't received anything on it yet. Idiots. I need to call them this morning and resolve. It is just pure luck I found that.
Around 9:30 KBF came over but the kid was still at work. Turns out they were planning on watching the meteor shower. She got home around 10 and they invited us to join them. We headed up into the hills a bit and watched to show for about an hour. I saw a good four or five. Neat. We got home around midnight and collapsed on our floor pile. That was annoying. Every noise, every light, every scratch bugged us both. I slept like pure shit last night.
That bed better be here soon.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Y5 D78
HALLELUJAH BOYS AND GIRLS IT IS A GLORIOUS DAY! Why you ask? Because the bunnies are GONE. No waking up to thump thump hump hump thump thump hump scratch scratch. They are out of here. See you later, don't write, don't call, goodbye. G-O-N-E! Ahhhhh.
So yeah, the bunnies are gone. Got up around 11 yesterday I think it was? Maybe 10. Don't remember. No it was 10 because the kid got up around 10:30 and informed me her aunt would be coming by to pick up bunnies sometime around 2. Unfortunately she was going to be at work. They have been really pushing her hard. She went from 2 hours a week to like 30 and she is not used to it. The shit part is that it is weird times. It's not like she has a solid 9-5 kind of thing. Yesterday for example was 2-9:30. Today is 4-10. It's all over the place. She went off to work around 1 and we waited for her aunt to arrive. As promised she showed up at 2 and by 2:30 the bunnies were gone. B and I knew the kid was going to be stressed and tired when she got home and to be nice we cleaned up the aftermath of the bunnies for her. Plus we wanted it clean.
After we went grocery shopping. We did REALLY well shopping. Earlier in the day we went on to Safeway's Just for U site and did all the coupons and added value stuff. We went in like fucking coupon commandos. But you know why I love Safeway? It's all fucking digital. None of this coupon clipping crap. I go to a website, I click, I am done. We had a full shopping cart. Meals for two weeks. Total? $300. After coupons and savings? $198. BAM. $102 savings. Even the checkout guy was impressed. Not a single paper coupon. Imagine how much more I could have saved with paper ones too. But seriously 34% savings for 30 minutes of my time on a website? Done and done.
We got home and put everything away and for dinner had meatloaf with loaded potatoes and sweet corn. It was a good dinner and a relaxing time. My hat for Spaceballs came while we were out. We had fun taking some pictures of me as a pope. We watched Avengers because B loves the movie. I will watch it over and over again too. After the movie B was tired but she wanted the sex. Oh fine, if I have to...
Afterwards she collapsed and fell asleep. Such a guy. Me, I went in the other room and played Sims. Everything was going fine until a FUCKING METEOR landed on me. Seriously. A meteor. By the way, if it seems like I am playing more Sims, it's true. I have all the expansion packs now (well a number of them) and the game is just more interesting. There is a new one in a few months coming which will make it even more fun.
During that time, the kid came home. She was beat. I made her happy when she saw there was a plate of food waiting for her. THEN she went into her room and was almost in tears when she saw we cleaned for her. That's how I like things. Everyone happy, everyone satisfied, my work is done.
That's about it. A good day overall. I did get into a bit of back and forth via email with my dad. He is a fucking idiot. I don't want to dwell on it, but the bottom line is his religious and political views make him sound like a moron with no independent thought at all. He tries to be righteous about it, but comes across sounding even more ignorant and intolerant. I can't handle people like that in my life. Maybe some day he will listen to his own words and realize how crazy he sounds.
Speaking of crazy, before I forget. B texts me last night after going to bed asking me to come into the bedroom. She then proceeds to ask me if I hear a ticking sound. Um, no. Turns out she was hearing one of my watches. There is no way I would have heard that. She is nuts. But boy do I love her.
So yeah, the bunnies are gone. Got up around 11 yesterday I think it was? Maybe 10. Don't remember. No it was 10 because the kid got up around 10:30 and informed me her aunt would be coming by to pick up bunnies sometime around 2. Unfortunately she was going to be at work. They have been really pushing her hard. She went from 2 hours a week to like 30 and she is not used to it. The shit part is that it is weird times. It's not like she has a solid 9-5 kind of thing. Yesterday for example was 2-9:30. Today is 4-10. It's all over the place. She went off to work around 1 and we waited for her aunt to arrive. As promised she showed up at 2 and by 2:30 the bunnies were gone. B and I knew the kid was going to be stressed and tired when she got home and to be nice we cleaned up the aftermath of the bunnies for her. Plus we wanted it clean.
After we went grocery shopping. We did REALLY well shopping. Earlier in the day we went on to Safeway's Just for U site and did all the coupons and added value stuff. We went in like fucking coupon commandos. But you know why I love Safeway? It's all fucking digital. None of this coupon clipping crap. I go to a website, I click, I am done. We had a full shopping cart. Meals for two weeks. Total? $300. After coupons and savings? $198. BAM. $102 savings. Even the checkout guy was impressed. Not a single paper coupon. Imagine how much more I could have saved with paper ones too. But seriously 34% savings for 30 minutes of my time on a website? Done and done.
We got home and put everything away and for dinner had meatloaf with loaded potatoes and sweet corn. It was a good dinner and a relaxing time. My hat for Spaceballs came while we were out. We had fun taking some pictures of me as a pope. We watched Avengers because B loves the movie. I will watch it over and over again too. After the movie B was tired but she wanted the sex. Oh fine, if I have to...
Afterwards she collapsed and fell asleep. Such a guy. Me, I went in the other room and played Sims. Everything was going fine until a FUCKING METEOR landed on me. Seriously. A meteor. By the way, if it seems like I am playing more Sims, it's true. I have all the expansion packs now (well a number of them) and the game is just more interesting. There is a new one in a few months coming which will make it even more fun.
During that time, the kid came home. She was beat. I made her happy when she saw there was a plate of food waiting for her. THEN she went into her room and was almost in tears when she saw we cleaned for her. That's how I like things. Everyone happy, everyone satisfied, my work is done.
That's about it. A good day overall. I did get into a bit of back and forth via email with my dad. He is a fucking idiot. I don't want to dwell on it, but the bottom line is his religious and political views make him sound like a moron with no independent thought at all. He tries to be righteous about it, but comes across sounding even more ignorant and intolerant. I can't handle people like that in my life. Maybe some day he will listen to his own words and realize how crazy he sounds.
Speaking of crazy, before I forget. B texts me last night after going to bed asking me to come into the bedroom. She then proceeds to ask me if I hear a ticking sound. Um, no. Turns out she was hearing one of my watches. There is no way I would have heard that. She is nuts. But boy do I love her.
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Y5 D77
Didn't got to bed until 4am so that is why you're getting today's post late. We had a rehearsal last night and it went pretty late.
Not a bad day. Was up at 5 to train. Trained all day, did some paperwork for work, then hung out. We went to Sephora to pick up a couple of things and then grabbed a sandwich for later. I had a nice pulled pork with coleslaw, pickles and BBQ sauce. Came back and I napped for a while since I knew we would be up late.
Left for the theater around 10:30. This was our first full dress and prop rehearsal. It went pretty well I think. Our director thought it was a mess, but we all thought we did a good job. I think it will be there in three weeks when we do the show. We have three more rehearsals with full props before then.
Took us a while to load the truck back up but we did it. On the way home we grabbed Jack in the Box. Got home, ate, and collapsed.
I finally heard back from my dad. I replied to him in a nice way. Okay, not so nice. Basically I told him I would talk to him as long as he is not a conservative, homophobic, racist asshole still. Let's see what he says.
The important part of today? B and I have THE WHOLE WEEKEND TO OURSELVES. No shows, no nothing. We can relax and do whatever we want. Thank fucking god.
BTW - I know I am a horrible friend sometimes so to all of you who read - Hi. I hope you are doing well. I care about you, I miss you, and I wish you the best.
Not a bad day. Was up at 5 to train. Trained all day, did some paperwork for work, then hung out. We went to Sephora to pick up a couple of things and then grabbed a sandwich for later. I had a nice pulled pork with coleslaw, pickles and BBQ sauce. Came back and I napped for a while since I knew we would be up late.
Left for the theater around 10:30. This was our first full dress and prop rehearsal. It went pretty well I think. Our director thought it was a mess, but we all thought we did a good job. I think it will be there in three weeks when we do the show. We have three more rehearsals with full props before then.
Took us a while to load the truck back up but we did it. On the way home we grabbed Jack in the Box. Got home, ate, and collapsed.
I finally heard back from my dad. I replied to him in a nice way. Okay, not so nice. Basically I told him I would talk to him as long as he is not a conservative, homophobic, racist asshole still. Let's see what he says.
The important part of today? B and I have THE WHOLE WEEKEND TO OURSELVES. No shows, no nothing. We can relax and do whatever we want. Thank fucking god.
BTW - I know I am a horrible friend sometimes so to all of you who read - Hi. I hope you are doing well. I care about you, I miss you, and I wish you the best.
Friday, August 9, 2013
Y5 D76
FUCK. I knew I forgot to do something this morning. Hey, I am here. Not dead.
Trained yesterday. Sent my dad a happy birthday email with no response. After training went to the grocery store. Picked up fixings for chicken tacos. B made me do shit after class which kind of frustrated me, but I survived. We cleaned out and cleaned the fridge and the pantry. Threw out like three garbage bags of stuff. Made tacos, made dinner for kid and KBF. GOD I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO GO. Or at least give us some space. It was different when it was just me. I could hide at a bar or in my room but now not so much.
We all played flux together but their constant pda and crap drove me nuts and I couldn't take it anymore. I went off to the computer, B went to bed. She felt bad that I was upset because she couldn't fix it. Sorry babe.
That's all. It's too late in the day to recap today. Wait until tomorrow.
Trained yesterday. Sent my dad a happy birthday email with no response. After training went to the grocery store. Picked up fixings for chicken tacos. B made me do shit after class which kind of frustrated me, but I survived. We cleaned out and cleaned the fridge and the pantry. Threw out like three garbage bags of stuff. Made tacos, made dinner for kid and KBF. GOD I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO GO. Or at least give us some space. It was different when it was just me. I could hide at a bar or in my room but now not so much.
We all played flux together but their constant pda and crap drove me nuts and I couldn't take it anymore. I went off to the computer, B went to bed. She felt bad that I was upset because she couldn't fix it. Sorry babe.
That's all. It's too late in the day to recap today. Wait until tomorrow.
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Y5 D75
Finally did something useful yesterday. Did a bunch of useful things actually. Actually went to a client yesterday as planned. Reviewed a list of 7 primary reports and three secondary reports that need to be developed over the next 4-5 weeks. I will be acting as the PM on this project which means I only need to pop in occasionally to check up on the report developer. In addition I will be acting as the mentor for the client to help plan out and develop the next generation of their dashboards which will hit in September or October. Besides that, I was confirmed for another six days of onsite training at a client in September. Right now I have two and a half solid weeks of training this month and then 10 out of 21 days in September already booked. Good. I can stay invisible for a while.
Reminder - I think today is my dad's birthday. I need my sister to confirm. I know hers is the 13th and my buddy's is the 24th. I just can't remember for sure if my dad's is today. Please confirm this if you are reading sis.
In other news, the kid is in a better mood because she got her Burning Man ticket yesterday. They had 1000 last minute tickets on sale and she managed to snag one. In about 10 days she is off to the desert to light things on fire. You go knucklehead.
After meeting with the client I went and ran some errands. Picked up my insurance cards for the car, hit Target, and had lunch with a friend. We owed each other lunch for our respective birthdays so we paid for each other's check. Silly but fun. We went to Cheesecake Factory. Not because the food is great but because it was close. I paid for that later in the day for sure. Got home and B needed to run some errands too. Back out I went.
I had one of those days yesterday where I felt like I was running all over town. Back and forth. Which I hate. I survived it. We got home and I did some more work while B went and laid down. She had a migraine coming on and needed to rest. I had a conference call and afterwards my stomach started bugging me. I went and laid down and ended up passing out for two hours. Not cool. When she got up she wanted a burrito which I got for her. I was not hungry and later had leftover pizza. Mistake number two for my stomach.
I tried playing Sims later and had a corrupted file which just pissed me off. I ended up having to restart a new Sim. Got frustrated and went to bed around 10. She came in a little later but was up until 12:30 or 1 because she slept during the day and was feeling rumbly from her burrito.
All in all a mediocre day at best. Here's hoping today is better.
Reminder - I think today is my dad's birthday. I need my sister to confirm. I know hers is the 13th and my buddy's is the 24th. I just can't remember for sure if my dad's is today. Please confirm this if you are reading sis.
In other news, the kid is in a better mood because she got her Burning Man ticket yesterday. They had 1000 last minute tickets on sale and she managed to snag one. In about 10 days she is off to the desert to light things on fire. You go knucklehead.
After meeting with the client I went and ran some errands. Picked up my insurance cards for the car, hit Target, and had lunch with a friend. We owed each other lunch for our respective birthdays so we paid for each other's check. Silly but fun. We went to Cheesecake Factory. Not because the food is great but because it was close. I paid for that later in the day for sure. Got home and B needed to run some errands too. Back out I went.
I had one of those days yesterday where I felt like I was running all over town. Back and forth. Which I hate. I survived it. We got home and I did some more work while B went and laid down. She had a migraine coming on and needed to rest. I had a conference call and afterwards my stomach started bugging me. I went and laid down and ended up passing out for two hours. Not cool. When she got up she wanted a burrito which I got for her. I was not hungry and later had leftover pizza. Mistake number two for my stomach.
I tried playing Sims later and had a corrupted file which just pissed me off. I ended up having to restart a new Sim. Got frustrated and went to bed around 10. She came in a little later but was up until 12:30 or 1 because she slept during the day and was feeling rumbly from her burrito.
All in all a mediocre day at best. Here's hoping today is better.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Y5 D74
Had a frustrating day again yesterday. I was supposed to be at a client but it fell through so I ended up at home all day with both B and the kid. The tension between all the people in the house kind of came to a mini head yesterday. The morning was fine; we all got up and juts hung out. I was catching up on some reading for work, they were off in the bedrooms playing Sims. Thank god I have enough computers around here for everyone. I decided to go to the store around 11 to pick up some groceries and lunch for everyone. That's where things started going downhill. Some of it is definitely my fault, but not intentional. I am trying to learn everything B will and will not eat. She has a much different palette than me or the kid. Mostly because she hasn't been introduced to things. She doesn't know if she likes certain things because she has never been exposed to them. I brought home sushi for lunch. I keep thinking she has the same likes and tastes as we do. She mentioned the other day she feels like a bit of a third wheel because the kid and I have such a close relationship and we have all these inside jokes, like the same music, etc. Yesterday was an example of that. The kid loved the sushi where as B just kind of picked around things. I wrote that off and moved on. Around 3 I suggested we all go get tea. Now it was the kid's turn to feel like a third wheel. We came home and I put on a roast while they all went off and hid. I said fuck it and went out for a walk. I am having a hard time trying to please everyone all the time.
Add to all this that I was at the same time trying to help a fellow cast member. She has been receiving some unwanted advances from another cast member and no one in power has been taking her seriously. I helped her put together all the screenshots of the texts he has sent and got our cast advisor involved. I am hoping now that I have helped get them talking my role will be done at least for a while.
Back to the house drama. KBF came over and started showing the kid pictures of the apartment he went and looked at. Now I started feeling bad because I should be feeling sad she is discussing moving out but I am only feeling elation. I felt like a horrible person because I was like "and you can take the dresser and your desk!". I made dinner for everyone (roast, smashed potatoes, and vegetables in a cheese sauce) and we watched Dr Horrible together. Yet one more thing B didn't understand because kid and KBF had been watching for a few minutes when we started eating. I have seen it countless times and knew what was going on, but B was lost which frustrated her. Then after dinner, once more everyone went away leaving me with all the dishes, all the cleanup, and all the anger. I cleaned the kitchen and then just went outside to breathe. B knew something was wrong but couldn't figure it out. She made me go into the bedroom with her and wouldn't let me leave until I explained everything. Which I did. I told her how much of a failure I felt all day because I couldn't make everyone happy. Because I didn't feel bad about the kid leaving. Because I haven't figured out how to make her food. All of it.
She comforted me in a way I have been missing in my life. I would have before just gone out to drink my troubles away. This time I got to talk them through and feel better. Amazing what another person in your life will do for you. We ended up sitting in the bedroom talking for almost 2 hours. After we came out to the living room and played Bananagrams followed by Flux. We went off to bed around 11 and she told me to sleep since I had to be up early today, but instead it led to some damn good sex. Not complaining. On that front my life is really doing well. REALLY well.
I fell asleep around midnight. I know she was up for a while because her twitter posts show her up later than me. No big deal. She had massive caffeine in her tea on top of a Mtn Dew during the day. It all caught up to her. I have a feeling she will sleep pretty late this morning.
Today I am FINALLY meeting with the client. Let's see if this is an hour long session or an 8 hour session. It's all in flux depending on how much access he has been able to get us.
Add to all this that I was at the same time trying to help a fellow cast member. She has been receiving some unwanted advances from another cast member and no one in power has been taking her seriously. I helped her put together all the screenshots of the texts he has sent and got our cast advisor involved. I am hoping now that I have helped get them talking my role will be done at least for a while.
Back to the house drama. KBF came over and started showing the kid pictures of the apartment he went and looked at. Now I started feeling bad because I should be feeling sad she is discussing moving out but I am only feeling elation. I felt like a horrible person because I was like "and you can take the dresser and your desk!". I made dinner for everyone (roast, smashed potatoes, and vegetables in a cheese sauce) and we watched Dr Horrible together. Yet one more thing B didn't understand because kid and KBF had been watching for a few minutes when we started eating. I have seen it countless times and knew what was going on, but B was lost which frustrated her. Then after dinner, once more everyone went away leaving me with all the dishes, all the cleanup, and all the anger. I cleaned the kitchen and then just went outside to breathe. B knew something was wrong but couldn't figure it out. She made me go into the bedroom with her and wouldn't let me leave until I explained everything. Which I did. I told her how much of a failure I felt all day because I couldn't make everyone happy. Because I didn't feel bad about the kid leaving. Because I haven't figured out how to make her food. All of it.
She comforted me in a way I have been missing in my life. I would have before just gone out to drink my troubles away. This time I got to talk them through and feel better. Amazing what another person in your life will do for you. We ended up sitting in the bedroom talking for almost 2 hours. After we came out to the living room and played Bananagrams followed by Flux. We went off to bed around 11 and she told me to sleep since I had to be up early today, but instead it led to some damn good sex. Not complaining. On that front my life is really doing well. REALLY well.
I fell asleep around midnight. I know she was up for a while because her twitter posts show her up later than me. No big deal. She had massive caffeine in her tea on top of a Mtn Dew during the day. It all caught up to her. I have a feeling she will sleep pretty late this morning.
Today I am FINALLY meeting with the client. Let's see if this is an hour long session or an 8 hour session. It's all in flux depending on how much access he has been able to get us.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Y5 D73
Yesterday turned out to be extremely boring. For me at least. I was supposed to work but that got pushed last minute. I was all dressed up and nowhere to go. I hate this shit. I hate being in between things. Makes me feel very useless and puts me under the microscope. I just want to stay hidden thank you very much. I don't want anyone even thinking about me. Just leave me be.
Sigh, alas this was not to be yesterday. I answered some emails while 'justifying my existence'. I fucking hate it. In between that I played some Sims. The kid had one of our mutual friends come over around 5:30 to cut her hair. I ordered a large pizza for everyone and the kid, B, and our friend sat around talking while cutting her hair. After they decided to go get froyo. When they got back B got a call from her mom which ended poorly. Her mom told her sisters that their Dad has a new girlfriend and she went on a date. She handled it really poorly in my opinion but it's none of my business. All I could do was hold my girlfriend and tell her it's not her responsibility to be mother to her sisters.
We went to bed shortly thereafter.
Today is another fucking day. Go day go.
Sigh, alas this was not to be yesterday. I answered some emails while 'justifying my existence'. I fucking hate it. In between that I played some Sims. The kid had one of our mutual friends come over around 5:30 to cut her hair. I ordered a large pizza for everyone and the kid, B, and our friend sat around talking while cutting her hair. After they decided to go get froyo. When they got back B got a call from her mom which ended poorly. Her mom told her sisters that their Dad has a new girlfriend and she went on a date. She handled it really poorly in my opinion but it's none of my business. All I could do was hold my girlfriend and tell her it's not her responsibility to be mother to her sisters.
We went to bed shortly thereafter.
Today is another fucking day. Go day go.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Y5 D72
Awful day yesterday. Not because of anything I or B did but because of other people. It was too much in one weekend and it hit us both all at once. We both just got very tired and annoyed at being around people. The day itself wasn't bad but the night just stunk. I got up around 10:30 yesterday, B around 11. We had a nice breakfast together, relaxed, had the sex, and enjoyed our morning. If it had ended there, things would have been fine. But no, we had a fucking rehearsal. It was cold, misty, and nasty at our director's house which is part of why things were so lousy.
We headed over to their house around 3. We stopped first at the store to get some salads to bring for food. We got there about 4 and helped build props. Things were going fine. About 7 we took a break to eat. During all this my director kept pushing for us to stay after to play a drinking game. I kept politely telling her that B doesn't drink. That while technically is a bit of an exaggeration is not too far off. She doesn't like the taste of alcohol and hasn't found that combination of cocktail which works for her. Plain and simple. We are all people who can pound vodka and other booze without blinking, but that's not B. She doesn't just drink to drink like most of us in our circle do. This is not a bad thing, nor am I chastising her for it. But my director wouldn't let it go. She wasn't listening. Then she started assigning cues to people without talking to them firs.t Next thing you know we are being handed very difficult to read cue sheets and expected to be ready to go.
We got through the rehearsal with a minimum of issues. The show itself is starting to come together, but it was painful. There was yelling, there were tempers flaring up, etc. Some people DID NOT need to be there and were frankly in the way. Others who should have been there have yet to come to even a single rehearsal which is annoying as fuck for the rest of us. For those of us actually trying to get through this it makes things challenging for the same three or four people to consistently not show up. By the time rehearsal was over at 10, we were just exhausted, wet, and wanted to go home. But then she started in again with us staying to drink. I think I offended slightly by saying I had a headache and wanted to go. It was true but it still didn't make her happy. Fine. Whatever. It's a sunday night and I had been gong for three days straight. We got home and collapsed.
Before we went to bed though, B and the kid had a moment. After her work yesterday the kid stopped and bought B a present. She bought her a little stuffed Ariel and left it on the desk with a note thanking B for letting her use her car. That made her cry. It was just too much at the end of a long day and it broke her down. In a good way. That was a nice way to end the night.
I slept pretty well last night. Had a weird fucking dream. We woke up and there were people in our house. It seems we had gone to a party but neither of us could remember it. Apparently it was the party of the century and we kept it going at our place. There were chips and pizza in the kitchen and like a dozen people crashed out. Every one kept telling us how much fun they had, how awesome we were but neither one of us could remember anything. There were no drunk texts, phone calls, etc on our phones, neither of us had a hangover, but we were both black. Weird.
Today is some work stuff, pick up insurance cards, and clean house. Let the week begin.
We headed over to their house around 3. We stopped first at the store to get some salads to bring for food. We got there about 4 and helped build props. Things were going fine. About 7 we took a break to eat. During all this my director kept pushing for us to stay after to play a drinking game. I kept politely telling her that B doesn't drink. That while technically is a bit of an exaggeration is not too far off. She doesn't like the taste of alcohol and hasn't found that combination of cocktail which works for her. Plain and simple. We are all people who can pound vodka and other booze without blinking, but that's not B. She doesn't just drink to drink like most of us in our circle do. This is not a bad thing, nor am I chastising her for it. But my director wouldn't let it go. She wasn't listening. Then she started assigning cues to people without talking to them firs.t Next thing you know we are being handed very difficult to read cue sheets and expected to be ready to go.
We got through the rehearsal with a minimum of issues. The show itself is starting to come together, but it was painful. There was yelling, there were tempers flaring up, etc. Some people DID NOT need to be there and were frankly in the way. Others who should have been there have yet to come to even a single rehearsal which is annoying as fuck for the rest of us. For those of us actually trying to get through this it makes things challenging for the same three or four people to consistently not show up. By the time rehearsal was over at 10, we were just exhausted, wet, and wanted to go home. But then she started in again with us staying to drink. I think I offended slightly by saying I had a headache and wanted to go. It was true but it still didn't make her happy. Fine. Whatever. It's a sunday night and I had been gong for three days straight. We got home and collapsed.
Before we went to bed though, B and the kid had a moment. After her work yesterday the kid stopped and bought B a present. She bought her a little stuffed Ariel and left it on the desk with a note thanking B for letting her use her car. That made her cry. It was just too much at the end of a long day and it broke her down. In a good way. That was a nice way to end the night.
I slept pretty well last night. Had a weird fucking dream. We woke up and there were people in our house. It seems we had gone to a party but neither of us could remember it. Apparently it was the party of the century and we kept it going at our place. There were chips and pizza in the kitchen and like a dozen people crashed out. Every one kept telling us how much fun they had, how awesome we were but neither one of us could remember anything. There were no drunk texts, phone calls, etc on our phones, neither of us had a hangover, but we were both black. Weird.
Today is some work stuff, pick up insurance cards, and clean house. Let the week begin.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Y5 D71
I'm awake leave me alone. Ugh. Do not want to be up. Didn't go to bed again until 4. I am not made for these kinds of weekends any more. And frankly neither is B. She is just beat up right now. It's not over unfortunately. We have to be at our director's house in 5 hours. Notice I said 'our'? She turned in her paperwork yesterday and is officially part of cast. Yay!! Sucker, I mean, good for her.
The day was pretty good. We got up around 11, I ran some errands - car wash, target, etc - while she relaxed. She was already tired and a little hungover from our adventure Friday night and wanted to be at top form for her first official show as a cast member. Made steaks for dinner. We left for the show around 10:30.
On one hand it was a good show because it was packed, but on the other kind of frustrating. Our director took the night off from performing. When she does that it can go one of two ways; either she will be drunk and having a good time or she will be scrutinizing every move the cast makes. This was one of the latter this time. After the show we had the whole talking to about bringing our A game and this and that. We all were already tired from a late start (not our fault, the theater had a move running late) and it was kind of a bitch to end the night on a low note that way.
We got home around 3 and I needed to vent to B. Since I was feeling down I sent my crew an email letting them know they did a good job regardless of how the night ended. One already responded thanking me for the positive reinforcement. That makes me feel good too.
Today is a prop day and rehearsal. Let's power through...
The day was pretty good. We got up around 11, I ran some errands - car wash, target, etc - while she relaxed. She was already tired and a little hungover from our adventure Friday night and wanted to be at top form for her first official show as a cast member. Made steaks for dinner. We left for the show around 10:30.
On one hand it was a good show because it was packed, but on the other kind of frustrating. Our director took the night off from performing. When she does that it can go one of two ways; either she will be drunk and having a good time or she will be scrutinizing every move the cast makes. This was one of the latter this time. After the show we had the whole talking to about bringing our A game and this and that. We all were already tired from a late start (not our fault, the theater had a move running late) and it was kind of a bitch to end the night on a low note that way.
We got home around 3 and I needed to vent to B. Since I was feeling down I sent my crew an email letting them know they did a good job regardless of how the night ended. One already responded thanking me for the positive reinforcement. That makes me feel good too.
Today is a prop day and rehearsal. Let's power through...
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Y5 D70
Had a pretty good day yesterday. Got up around 8 which wasn't bad given that I went to bed at 3. I did some paperwork and got ready for a model review session with a client at 11. That was pretty good. I got to be the bad guy who told them everything that was 'wrong' with their model and the best way of going about fixing the issues for better performance. Sorry got distracted for quite a while there. Needed to take care of some things for B.
Anyway, after the model review I got a call from my boss regarding a co-worker. We were hoping for a different outcome on an issue, but it is what it is. I don't have to like it, but I support it because it's what is best for that person. Just made for a frustrating afternoon. We were planning on going out with friends but there were some email exchanges late in the day which started eating into our time to get ready.
Me, B, and our friend and his wife all went to a drag club last night. It was B's first time at a venue like that and we were all a little nervous how she would handle it. The place we went is more a bar with pool tables, dance floor/stage, bar, and outdoor patio. We had a BLAST. Even though we were about a 1/2 hour late, everyone had fun and we met some new friends. All in all a good time.
We got back to their house around 1. On the way home from the club we had placed an order for a pizza and it was supposed to be delivered at 1:30. At 1:30 we were all sitting around going hmmm no pizza. Our friend called and chewed them out a new one when they said it would be another 1/2 hour. We left and headed home. We grabbed taco bell on the way home. B went to bed around 2:30 and I got into bed around 3 after cleaning up. I did snore all night because it was a drinking and smoking night. B is a little tired this morning because of it. Cest la vie. Life goes on.
Rocky tonight. VERY late start time. Not sure what to do about music, but I will figure it out. Until then? Nada zip zilch. Car wash, cat food, sims. Whee!
Anyway, after the model review I got a call from my boss regarding a co-worker. We were hoping for a different outcome on an issue, but it is what it is. I don't have to like it, but I support it because it's what is best for that person. Just made for a frustrating afternoon. We were planning on going out with friends but there were some email exchanges late in the day which started eating into our time to get ready.
Me, B, and our friend and his wife all went to a drag club last night. It was B's first time at a venue like that and we were all a little nervous how she would handle it. The place we went is more a bar with pool tables, dance floor/stage, bar, and outdoor patio. We had a BLAST. Even though we were about a 1/2 hour late, everyone had fun and we met some new friends. All in all a good time.
We got back to their house around 1. On the way home from the club we had placed an order for a pizza and it was supposed to be delivered at 1:30. At 1:30 we were all sitting around going hmmm no pizza. Our friend called and chewed them out a new one when they said it would be another 1/2 hour. We left and headed home. We grabbed taco bell on the way home. B went to bed around 2:30 and I got into bed around 3 after cleaning up. I did snore all night because it was a drinking and smoking night. B is a little tired this morning because of it. Cest la vie. Life goes on.
Rocky tonight. VERY late start time. Not sure what to do about music, but I will figure it out. Until then? Nada zip zilch. Car wash, cat food, sims. Whee!
Friday, August 2, 2013
Y5 D69
I had shitty internet yesterday morning because I was in a cheap ass hotel. My friend's plans got changed after we had already decided to go to Disneyland. Which meant we got a cheap hotel room instead of our usual quality. It's okay though - the new car got 41.01 mpg on the trip so what I would have normally spent on gas covered the room. Other than that and critter breakfast we didn't spend much. It was just a nice time out of town. Too many fucking people EVERYWHERE but otherwise a nice time.
We left Wednesday after my meetings. We were on the road by 10 and while I didn't expect traffic to be non-existent, I certainly wasn't expecting what we hit. Took us 8 hours to get there. Annoying. We checked into the hotel around 4:30 and headed over to the park. The parks were packed but we managed to enjoy ourselves anyhow. We had fun going on some rides and walking around. We were all tired and left the park by 10.
Yesterday we got up around 7:30 and headed over to the Grand Californian for breakfast. Some day I would like to stay there. Even with my discount rooms range from $250-$400 a night. Out of my league. I wish I could stay at one of the park hotels but man oh man. Too rich for my blood. It was beautiful though. First time I had ever been really inside and walked around. Breakfast was great; we saw both bears from Brother Bear, Chip n Dale, and Meeko from Pocahontas. After breakfast we headed over and saw the new stage show Mickey's Magic Map. Wow. Just wow. It was one of the best shows I have seen in years. It was incredible. I was blown away by it.
After that we did a couple of rides, hung out, ate lunch, then headed to DCA. We ended up seeing the Aladdin show because B has never seen it and the kid loves it. I should mention it was the three of us on this trip. It was a good trip for them to bond and for me to see where they don't mesh. Because boy are there places where they don't mesh. B said something to me last night and I have to process it before I talk more about it in regards to me and the kid.
We left the park about 8 and fuck me the traffic was awful. Fucking construction in so many places. Took us 7 hours to get home. Not happy.
Sorry got distracted while typing...
Anyway, got home around 3, unpacked mostly and went to bed. I am a little out of sorts this morning due to lack of sleep but mostly okay. Let's see how today shapes up. We are supposed to go out with some friends tonight.
We left Wednesday after my meetings. We were on the road by 10 and while I didn't expect traffic to be non-existent, I certainly wasn't expecting what we hit. Took us 8 hours to get there. Annoying. We checked into the hotel around 4:30 and headed over to the park. The parks were packed but we managed to enjoy ourselves anyhow. We had fun going on some rides and walking around. We were all tired and left the park by 10.
Yesterday we got up around 7:30 and headed over to the Grand Californian for breakfast. Some day I would like to stay there. Even with my discount rooms range from $250-$400 a night. Out of my league. I wish I could stay at one of the park hotels but man oh man. Too rich for my blood. It was beautiful though. First time I had ever been really inside and walked around. Breakfast was great; we saw both bears from Brother Bear, Chip n Dale, and Meeko from Pocahontas. After breakfast we headed over and saw the new stage show Mickey's Magic Map. Wow. Just wow. It was one of the best shows I have seen in years. It was incredible. I was blown away by it.
After that we did a couple of rides, hung out, ate lunch, then headed to DCA. We ended up seeing the Aladdin show because B has never seen it and the kid loves it. I should mention it was the three of us on this trip. It was a good trip for them to bond and for me to see where they don't mesh. Because boy are there places where they don't mesh. B said something to me last night and I have to process it before I talk more about it in regards to me and the kid.
We left the park about 8 and fuck me the traffic was awful. Fucking construction in so many places. Took us 7 hours to get home. Not happy.
Sorry got distracted while typing...
Anyway, got home around 3, unpacked mostly and went to bed. I am a little out of sorts this morning due to lack of sleep but mostly okay. Let's see how today shapes up. We are supposed to go out with some friends tonight.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Y5 D68
Short post, shitty internet. Will explain more tomorrow. On the road last minute. Not a bad thing.
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