Y6 D144

Frustration reared its ugly head once again yesterday. I am pleased with myself for really getting to the heart of the issue and realizing I am not depressed or angry but frustrated. It sums up so nicely and applies perfectly to yesterday's situation.

Taught all day until 2. We finished up about an hour early. That class needs some more demos added to it. While I am in Vegas I am going to work with my boss to discuss which classes need some more filler material in order to avoid these early finish times. If it's one or two people in a class it's okay to finish early. If it's 10, then I should be finishing no more than 15 minutes early at best. Regardless, finished up and decided to take a brief nap.

I woke up to B on the phone crying. She has given herself a stress rash over how her grandmother has been behaving regarding the catering money. Ever since B decided we are not going to invite people she doesn't give a shit about her grandmother has been silent on paying. Well it came to a bit of a head yesterday when B posted something on Facebook about eloping and her grandmother snidely commented on it. Waking up to her crying pissed me off. She wanted me to hug her and tell her it would be okay and I refused. I told her she needed to stop getting stressed out about imagined slights and conversations from her head. She needed to pick up the phone call her grandmother and end this once and for all. Find out if the bitch was paying or not. Plain and simple. Well of course B was pissed at me for not 'being supportive' of her. And I said, no I am not. I won't be supportive of you sitting here crying when you have the power to take charge of this situation. I went off in the other room and I could hear the front door open and close. 20 minutes later she came back to tell me she made the phone call, they have a plan to discuss it today in more detail, and that her grandmother is upset because she already told these people they were invited to which B said well that's your fault for jumping the gun, now isn't it? I was extremely impressed and proud of her doing that. THAT is what I wanted her to do instead of sitting there crying. She was still pissed at how I handled it, but she understood. The problem is that while I had time to sit by myself, I got frustrated. Frustrated at the fact that I couldn't just tell her "here, here's $3500 for catering. you don't need to feel beholden to that woman". I should have been able to do that. Therein lies my frustration. I shouldn't be stressed out about taking care of this wedding. But I am.

I ended up going out to the other room to make dinner (pork chops) but then went right back into the office. I stayed in there until I could calmly explain all this to her. Which I did around 10. We stayed up talking and watching TV until about midnight. So yes, once again I am running on less than 5 hours sleep. Yay me.

Two day class starts today. 9 students. Oh joy.