The kid and I didn't talk about what happened Saturday night. Is that good or bad, I don't know. I think the reality is this job is stressing her out too much to worry about who her father is banging. She worked from 11-8 yesterday and came home exhausted. She had to close by herself for the first time and it really got to her. Could I have done a better job in preparing her for what real work is going to be like? No, probably not. This is one of those things she has to find out on her own. But she has my support.
Hung around the house all day. My friends came over around 5:30 for another DnD session. We played about 3 hours. Was a fun time.
Around 9:30 I got a text from LO2 asking how my back was doing. You see, what I realized when I got into the show yesterday is that those girls left me with quite the souvenir. My back is covered in nail marks. Deep welts running up and down both sides of my body and straight across my back. Plus there are random hickeys on my neck, back, and thighs. When I got into the shower yesterday I screamed because of the stinging. I told her they still itched and she replied that I should be ready to get more. Damn. Damn. Damn...
I had a long talk about this with my friend who brought them over to the bar. She did not judge or chastise me about it, but she did say I need to be smart and realize this is sex and just sex. I told her I knew that but at the same time if I am having regular sex it lets me be smarter about the other relationship choices I make. If I have some outlet for physical contact, then I am less likely to mistake real feelings for feelings of lust. She understood where I was coming from on this. And I get it too. These aren't just words. You know how deep the need in me for physical contact goes. If I have someone who is there to help fill that part, then it allows me to be open to the possibility of someone filling the other empty spaces.
Off to work. Long day ahead of me. 9 hours of training where I am the co-instructor, followed by a meet and greet, followed by a client dinner.
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