Y3 D43

Why does somebody always come and piss on my parade? I finally start feeling good about myself and wham I end up finishing my night off crying.

I went to work yesterday and was doing okay. I received a lot of birthday well wishes throughout the day from people both online and via phone. I had a SMALL get together last night where I invited a small group of people who I knew would be comfortable at a certain bar. Not because I didn't want people there, but because I knew it was a Thursday and it isn't everyone's kind of place. That's why I am having a second party at a different venue tonight. Much larger, outside area, etc. A place we as a cast typically go where they know how to handle a rowdy group.

There were FIVE of us at the bar and around 8 we decided to go to the club where our friend is a DJ. LAST MINUTE decision. Not pre-planned at all. We grab the kid and another friend and head into the city at 9:30. I am home before midnight, in bed and ready to start today when at 1am I get a text from my director 'oh I guess our invite to XXX got lost in the mail'. WTF??? It wasn't pre-planned, we didn't stay out late, and I really can't picture them driving into the city on a Thursday night. Wow, okay I am not allowed to have a life that doesn't include them? I am not allowed to make last minute plans? Sorry for not inviting you at the last minute so you could say no? I go from feeling happy that I was home safe, that I didn't spend any money, that I had a good time to feeling like shit because I didn't include two people last minute. Thanks, thanks a fucking lot.

I saw they also changed their rsvp for tonight's event to no. Fuck them. I will do their show on Saturday but it's going to be real cold.