Yesterday was a completely and utterly useless wasted day. The kid had class, TGF had class and dance, and I had nothing. I was alone and bored from 7am until 10pm last night. I didn't leave the house except once to go get food. I did manage to avoid drama thank god. I also learned TGF and I have support from another friend who is also involved with someone older than them. That was an interesting and nice surprise. I already liked this person and have been glad to get to know them better in the last few months, but add this to the mix and it's one of those 'hey cool' moments.
I did manage to line something up for today which is good. Which is why I am up early and out the door in a half hour. But this is only for the one day possibility 1/2 of tomorrow. Tomorrow is a big day for us - we pick up our bird. This is a moment in our relationship. The purchasing of an animal together. You notice I haven't rushed anything in this relationship?
I have been taking it slow. We are at a little over 7 months and she isn't living with me, I haven't proposed, etc. No, we have our own lives, we see each other 3-4 times a week thanks to her current schedule and it's working. I want more, but it's working for now. With all the other shit thrown at us, I want to make sure we don't give ourselves grief in the process.
The kid got home late last night because of the train. She normally gets in around 9:15 but there was a stuck car on the tracks and she was a 1/2 hour late. That's why I was alone as long as I was. TGF went out with friends after dance so I didn't talk to her last night.
We are going to try and do dinner tonight.
I am worried. I am worried that all the pressure from other people, society, etc is starting to weigh on her. I would like to just get through the next few days and relax a bit.
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