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We have less than 100 days left in this particular year of writing. Is it possible that we may need a new url in 98 days? I started thinking about this last night. I started thinking about 'ournewlife' or 'mylifebeginsanew'. Because after yesterday my life is going to do anything but 'continue on' as the name of this current site implies. No, it is finally beginning. Only took four years of pain to come out on the other side. If you're going through hell and all that. It hit us both last night that this is it. That BOTH of our lives are actually starting. We talked a LOT yesterday. About future things, about past things, about everything in between.

Start at the beginning and stop when you reach the end buddy boy...

Got up around 7 for an 8am conference call. I am still talking working here people. This isn't a vacation. Hell I have to teach a class starting at 3am on Monday morning. Yeah 3-11 from the hotel room. Won't that be fun.  The call went well. VERY well as a matter of fact. This was with the potential new client that the sales guys have been trying for over a year and a half to get into. At the end of the call we decided that at the end of March I need to be onsite with them for at least two weeks solid. This will include an over the weekend stay. Hello another year of elite status at Hilton. Seriously it will be a full 14 nights stayed if this contract comes through. Add to that Ohio which was confirmed last night and PA which happens on the 25th, I should have 25 nights in the bag before the end of March. 25 nights a quarter? Yeah, I am hitting Diamond this year.

Got off the call and we went out to get some breakfast. She took me to a place she has been going to since as she put 'was still in the womb'. I had pie for breakfast. Definite Dean Winchester moment. After that we headed off to the mall where there is a Disney store. She needed to return some boots from Christmas still as well. The reason she hadn't returned them yet was because it turns out this mall is not close. Took us a good 45 minutes to get out there. That was with no traffic. But it was all good because we talked. We talked about - god, I don't even remember it was so much. I do remember one thing that was a clear theme yesterday and it's that I am a lousy passenger. Self admitted. I hate being a passenger.

Got to the mall and took care of her boot issue. Found the Disney store and unfortunately no pins. Sad panda. I was hoping to find a "Detroit" pin but no luck. We decided to hit the 'nice mall' as she put it on the way back because they have a Build a Bear. When we got there I realized that this was more my caliber of mall. The first one was okay, but it was too middle class for me to be honest. The second one? Yeah, it had a Neiman. I made her play in my world for a little while. She was frank about the fact that she felt very out of place at this mall in part. It's one of those where it's divided and people call it the normal mall on one side and the rich people mall on the other. I call it normal stores on that side - Restoration Hardware, Free People, Mui Mui, Herve, Neiman, etc. Stores I am used to being around. We sat at the counter at Neiman and had a light afternoon dessert (chocolate cartier for me, carrot cake for her) and I had an afternoon cocktail with my dessert. I could tell she was feeling out of place but I made her stick with it. After the cafe we went down to menswear so she could start to learn my style and vice versa. That was my underlying motive in going shopping too. I want to see what kind of style she has, what she finds wearable, etc. When the salesperson introduced himself and ran off to get us water she looked at me and said 'wait, they give you water just for walking around for free?'. Um yes? It's Neiman? But that told me some things about her.

Afterwards we hit the normal mall where she felt more comfortable. We ended up building a bear for her to have while I am gone. Howie the Bear. Howie from BBT. He even has a little comic book style t-shirt on. We had some soup at this place called Zoup which she swears by. It wasn't bad.

It took us almost an hour to get back because by this point it was 5 and we hit right in the middle of Friday night traffic. We got back to the hotel and she wanted to rest a bit. I had ended up sleeping in the car for 20 minutes and I was fine. I told her to sleep it was not a big deal. I watched an episode of Justified and did some work. Speaking of that, one of my bosses called me and we had about a half hour discussion as a follow up to the morning call. AND we talked about my upcoming trips and how they are screwing up two potential Disneyland weekends. End result, I am getting a company covered Disneyland trip in April. Which I am flying B out for as we both agreed yesterday that she needs to be in Disneyland with me to determine try compatibility.

Around 9:30 we headed out to the 'Rusty Bucket Tavern'. She had never been there. We started driving and at one point I just did 'pubs' on my phone. 19 reviews, all positive. We both agreed. We shared some ribs, she had a couple ciders, I had a couple drinks and around 11ish we headed back to the room. Yes, sex ensued. Damn good sex too. This girl can really move. I am afraid to look at my back this morning. Didn't have quite the same success as the previous night on my end, but it's okay. It's my issue. I will say my body is MUCH more comfortable with B than it ever was with SG and almost as comfortable as with XGF.

Now for the obvious thinkers - Yes, I get it. I see the similarities between B and X2. Young (when we met), naive, middle class lifestyle. No, I won't break another angel. I have my back to remind me of that. But I can open her eyes. NO ONE whomever plays in my world no matter for how long is left undamaged, untouched, unchanged. I also get how even with all that happiness above, the beast lurks below the surface. I still believe I cannot be saved. Nothing has changed in the deep corners of the pit. But at least the pit has retreated. The pit is getting smaller day by day. I can handle this for a decade or two without question.