Y4 D261

A little over 100 days in this year's writings. Will we need a year 5? Probably. Because life isn't a fairy tale and while I have high hopes for next week I also have learned that my hopes usually get destroyed by something.

Taught my last class for the week yesterday. It went right up to the mark. Good class from my perspective. Another long ass day, but worth it. I really do enjoy teaching this particular class. After class I really had nothing to do. Technology was pissing me off in one form or another. I tried watching some episodes of Batman but it kept burping on the stream. I think today I may hardwire a couple of things just to shut them up.

Little bit of drama last night but I tried to stay out of it. Last Saturday at the show there was an incident with one of the new members and our lighting guy. He is something of a grumpy curmudgeon and not really liked by folks because of his surly attitude. He can be very off putting especially when you get into his little world. We had a newer cast member bring more new cast members with them which is a good thing. However no one bothered to tell me in advance that there would be new cast members and then I got surprised with 'they will be helping to shadow spotlight'. That is something that continues to frustrate me; if I am a department head, how about letting me know before hand that there will be new people AND that they will be working with my team? Logic, pretty flower that smells bad. Also the person who brought the new cast members was being a bit of an arrogant jerk himself in the sense that 'hey I brought new people you should all be listening to me'. I don't have anything really against this guy, but I also don't like being TOLD what to do when I am in the middle of 900 other things. I have a co-head who vanishes all the time to get stoned and refuses to do things. He leaves early and I get stuck picking up the pieces. To add to this right before show time that you want someone to shadow spotlight without giving me advance warning so I can warn the spot guy?? Not good. So the newish guy sends a nastygram via email to me and the directors last night saying how the spot guy's behavior was unacceptable, rude, etc. He's right. I can't argue with him on that. That of course led to a flurry of phone calls and texts from all parties that I was in no mood to deal with after the long week I had. I essentially got chewed out by the spot guy because I wasn't addressing the issue. The issue? The issue is you're a grump. Can't fix that. Now our director is calling him today and who knows how that will play out. Frankly I want out of it because I have no authority anyway. I show up, I do my job, I leave. All I can do in this case.

B and I talked our usual many hours. Don't think the infatuation has stopped. It's actually just becoming part of the norm and there's not a whole lot to say on it. She is becoming integrated into my life. In five days we will see how integrated...