Y4 D271

I am all out of sorts this morning. I am running on very little sleep. Back in PST, but all confused. Let me see if I can recall everything that happened yesterday as it was a lot. I will add time zones into this just to keep everything straight. I woke up at 12:30am EST with B coming back to the hotel. We talked and hung out until it was time for me to start class at 3am EST. Other than being extremely tired class went fine. It was about 7 persons in Spain, UK, and Germany. The material is straight forward for this class and there were no real surprises. After class was over at 11 EST I checked out of the hotel and me and B went out to get some lunch. We were both feeling a little sad because we knew in a few hours it would be over. This trip at least. We went to white castle for lunch then went into a couple of stores as she needed to find a birthday present for her mother. I loved how the whole time we were together we were accepted. No one ever gave us crap about the age difference. Plus at one store I was indirectly called her husband by a sales person. That made us both smile because we both caught it. Around 2 EST we headed to the airport. I didn't have to go through security until 4:30 EST but driving around the airport makes her nervous and we got there early just because. We found a cafe outside security and sat and relaxed. The tension was starting to build for both of us and she was teary eyed the whole time. When the time was close we got up and headed towards the security line. I pulled my hat off and gave it to her. That was it - the catalyst to let the waterworks flow. She just started crying like mad which made me tear up. It was a moment. It took everything in my power to not stay. OTHER THAN HOTEL COST there was NOTHING stopping me from staying. She told me she had been going through her entire contact list to see if there was some place I could stay because she knew too the only reason I was leaving was because of lodging. I mean seriously, I could have changed my flight in a heartbeat. I could have easily stayed and come home Friday, done the show, and then left for my next flight on Monday. Three more days with her. But it wasn't to be. My flight was delayed and I ended up not getting to Chicago until 7:30ish CST. Some good things that happened while I was waiting - got confirmation of my upgrade on my flight home from Chicago. Score. While we were chatting she asked if I started reading the book she had put in my luggage for me. I had finished my other book and she gave me one to borrow. Inside was a note that said "Hey, I love you" on one side and on the other "I wish you didn't have to leave". ARGH. That made it even harder to sit there. Got on my flight home at 7:45 CST and was on the ground 11pm PST. As you can see if you add all that up, I was up for about 26 hours straight. And it's 5:45am PST and I have had about 4 hours of sleep. In the last 2-3 days, I have had less than 8 hours of sleep. I didn't sleep on the plane because I didn't want to throw myself off when I got home.

One thing that did happen while I was between Detroit and Chicago was on her side. When I landed I had a message waiting. She told her mother. She came out clean, told her everything. Let's see the aftermath of that today. According to her, her mom was calm and relaxed but wary of me and my intentions. That's fair and understandable.

End of the story? I love her. I miss her. I can't wait until she is here. The next time I see her will probably be March 13. A little over three weeks. I don't know if I can make it. I just want to send her a ticket right now but we all know it has to happen right.

Time to teach again. Then maybe I can sleep.