Y2 D83

So tired right now. Tried taking a sleeping pill last night but it didn't work. Just made me wound up and now I am floopy as it is still trying to work. Too little too late. Story of my life.

Today's my brother's surgery. Hopefully everything will be ok. I wish I could be there, but it's not realistic. There's nothing for me to do and I refuse to be one of those people just standing around when there is work to be done. Started my new client fast and furious yesterday. But I went in super early and found myself home and bored at 4pm. That was kind of weird. I had nothing going on last night so here it is 4pm and it's a long way until morning.

Didn't go out or do anything dumb though. Took a bath, watched bad TV, tried to sleep.

Good things. "right" things. Almost time for the big show in Reno. I am looking forward to the weekend. See how well I do with this group of people. Speaking of that I had a Tyler moment last night. I was thinking of how I joined all those meetup groups to try and meet people and expand my social circle as well as try to cure my insomnia. We all saw how well that turned out. The shitty part is the one group I liked the most seems to have fallen apart. The organizer and founder has started dating one of the other folks in the group. Ever since that happened they have both fallen off the face of the earth. No new meetings scheduled, no emails or texts from either of them, just silence. I hate when people do that. No matter whom I have been dating, I always remember I still need to have my friends too. Whatever. Point is, that I had that flash where Marla and Tyler meet on the street and she says he hasn't been to group lately. He of course asks her how she knows to which she admits to cheating. But the point is he responds with the fact that he found something new. That's how I feel about joining this cast. Something new. Something not for everyone. Something different.

Mighty high expectations to place on this group, I know. But if I make just one new friend, friend and nothing more, then it's worth it. I have three Saturdays in a row devoted to this group. Let's see if they can deliver what I need.