Y2 D86

I have been feeling kind of isolated lately (not alone or lonely, different thing). I have been feeling like I pissed some people off without realizing it or without them communicating what I have done to upset them. I do wish people were more open and direct about things like this. Of course part of it is my own ridiculous paranoia, the other part is that regardless of what I think and wish, I am not that important to people. Regardless of what they might say.

Anyway, went to work yesterday and finished up my portion of the current project. Got confirmation that next week I will be bouncing around in Louisiana for a few days. I need to get ahold of my boss today and get the company credit card number from him to book the flights. I was looking up flights last night and much to my advantage it's cheaper if I come back on Sunday which means I might turn this into a bit of a vacation. I haven't had one for a while and it would be nice to just relax and do nothing. This client is a resort/casino which means my room would be comp'd and I can just relax by the pool all day.

Speaking of that, I found a new little boutique hotel in Vegas that just opened recently. They look really cool and the rooms are only $129 a night for a king two room suite. I may in October take a weekend and go check them out. Nothing fancy, but again, just a little get away.

And now the big question, let's go check the bank balance and see if I got paid...please hold...yes I did. Life is ok for now. I can pay child support, car payment, and my directTV bill today. Everyone will be happy. Now, I just have to be cool again. It's hard, but I am learning. It will be easy if I am gone Tues-Sun next week. Someone else will be picking up my meals, hotel, etc which means I can take a *little* bit to gamble in the casino. And I do mean a *little* bit. If I limit myself to $20 a night in the slot machines, I will have some fun without being stupid. My food and booze are all comp'd at this client so I can actually get by on $20 a night and still be able to go out. Being good, it's what I am trying to be all about this time.

Tomorrow I head up to Reno for the show. Leaving in 21 hours. Need to rest today to make sure I am ok for the show.

Completely different train of thought - I have been seeing X2's face in my dreams lately and I know why. On Sunday, I will explain more.