Y2 D133

Started thinking about something scary yesterday. How long would it take before anyone noticed if I were dead? I mean seriously. I live alone.  I have no girlfriend. Think about it. A week like this where I am not assigned on any projects, or on a weekend, who would check? If I died today, Wednesday, how long before someone decided to check on me? Sure the first couple of days there would be emails and phone calls, but then what? Let's day I died on a Friday afternoon. Work would be done for the week so I could get away without answering any emails until Monday which means no one from work would think about it. If I didn't have a show then no one from cast would think twice. So realistically, if I died on a Friday afternoon, no one would even think to start looking for a body until Monday. That means they probably wouldn't find me until Tuesday or Wednesday. Five days I would be dead before anyone would check. Pretty scary, huh? You think the cat would start eating me by then? The bunnies would probably be going insane from no food, but since they can't get out, they wouldn't be able to eat my body. The cat on the other hand would be going nuts. Although she always has dry food. I might be okay for five days before she started nibbling on me...

Sat at home AGAIN yesterday. I realized I haven't left the house except a couple of times in almost two weeks. Good? Bad? Not sure. Lonely, that's for sure. 

Talked to my boss yesterday. He started going on about how I make more than 70% of the country blah blah blah. And I told him that it doesn't matter if I don't have enough to pay my bills, now does it? He also said that he would be glad to give me more hours if I am willing to work at some menial labor job. I said, fine, prove it. You have said that before, but it hasn't happened. This is why I am looking at these options. Plus I still don't have enough to survive MONTHLY. The quarterly bonuses don't help me if I can't make it monthly. I don't know how many different ways I can say that to him. I did warn him that if my check on the 15th is insufficient that I will be asking for a cash advance to pay my car registration as without that, I am useless to the company. He said he understood. Let's see what happens on the 15th. As of right now, I am sitting right on the cusp of being overdrawn. If I am *VERY* good for the next 10 days, I might make it. Of course this means I won't be leaving the house again.

I am supposed to have some hours tomorrow. Let's see if that happens. So far this quarter is not starting out well for me.