Y3 D134

Apparently I couldn't leave well enough alone and had to jinx myself yesterday morning by saying how nice it was to have a short boring post. Sigh. When will I ever learn. I guess never. Things were going okay in the morning. I was supposed to go to a party this Saturday (one of the first in a while with no show) and I decided that I didn't want to yet again spend a rare Saturday off with the cast when I can't bring TGF. I sent the host of the party an email saying I wouldn't be able to make it. Her and I are friends and I gave her the real reason -- because our director's would be there, it meant I couldn't bring TGF hence I was torn between spending time with my girlfriend or with cast. It seems this pissed her off to no end. She likes TGF and is tired of our directors trying to control people's lives. Unbeknownst to me, she calls our director and chews her a new one. Around noon I get a call:

Me: 'Hey X, what's up?'
Friend: 'Um...'
Me: 'Oh shit, what did you do??'
Friend: 'Um... I may have made things bad...'

She basically told our directors that it was wrong we had a double standard where another person on cast only about 6 years younger than me, not only could be dating an 18 year old girl BUT bring her into their house for our upcoming Halloween party. Not to mention them hanging out at shows and the guy not doing his job. This caused our director to freak out because someone was essentially telling her she did something wrong which is like tell Jesus he didn't cure the lepers right. It turned into a big old thing where they were going to send emails and have talks and yadda yadda. Here we are almost 24 hours later and I have yet to hear anything or get any emails. Maybe for once they are going to act like adults and realize that me and TGF for the last three months have been nothing but respectful of them. That we have not done anything to interfere with the show or cast. We shall see. The best part was there were at least three people who agreed to walk off cast in solidarity if I was thrown off for this. The reality is I have done nothing wrong. I have obliged by their wishes and kept TGF away from them and shows; I have been on time and sober at the last month's worth of shows; I have gone to every cast function and left her at home. What more can they ask of me? I am anticipating an email some time day and I know this will cause me to no longer be invited to 'special' get togethers but whatever. I am tired of trying to win someone's affection where clearly it will never be enough. I have to take a stand on this not for TGF but for me. Because unless I let my director hand pick my next mate, no one will ever be good enough for her. Too young, too loud, too slutty -- there will be something wrong. So screw it. Now, if I do get an email today and depending on how it is worded, I plan to play dumb. Why am I getting this? Did I do something wrong? Make them feel stupid for bringing up what is essentially a non-issue. Plus when I am not there on Saturday and the kid is, they can feel even more idiotic.

After all that, did manage to get some work done. Headed home, made fish tacos for dinner, and relaxed. TGF was supposed to have dance but she wasn't feeling well. I think it's because we slept with the window open the other night and the rain and cold weather got to her. I realized last night that I have this habit of dating women who have physical issues like this. X2 was constantly sick although I believe much of hers to be hypochondria. Regardless, TGF was feeling awful and I spent a good amount of last night on the phone with her trying to make her feel better. She needed to sleep but just couldn't fall asleep. I ended up reading to her until she feel asleep. It was cute.

I went to bed shortly thereafter. Let's see how today plays out...