Y3 D153

Yesterday at work really sucked. I felt like punching someone in the face most of the day. Things were not working the way I wanted them to, I woke up tired, the ride was cold, it was just one thing after another. The client is pushing very hard and she walks by the office I am in and every time goes "is it finished yet?". That was funny oh wait, it was never funny. I am stuck on one piece of functionality that is mandatory but not going to work the way the client thinks it should. I have until 11:30 today to try and figure it out. Yeah, right. I am still stuck.

Talked to my bosses and they are going to advance me the money for the IRS. Thank god. I don't know when I will get it, but I know it will be before Friday. That's all that matters. I can now pay rent on Friday. They did put some caveats on it which I am not happy about and they were dicks about it because they know now they own me for a while, but at least the kid will have a roof over her head. It just helped to perpetuate my shit mood and make me want to go into hiding.

Some days I do really think about that; just go away for good. Not die, but see if I could really start over somewhere else. This is why I am considering filing 13. It would give me a chance to start over. Maybe when I turn 50. Just throw it all away and go.

Got home from work around 6 and was just beat up. The kid was too and she ended up going to bed at 8. I made us some pork chops, mac & cheese, and corn muffins for dinner. We watched a couple of Buffy episodes and that was that. I called TGF around 9 and we chatted for a while. She got a new phone over the weekend and is having fun playing with it. It's her first smart phone and she is at the let's download everything phase. She will get over that pretty quick. She did get a nice phone, not going to knock her on that.

Tried to fall asleep around 10 when I realized there was a flea on me. Ended up freaking out, putting meds on the cat, stripping my bed, and being itchy all night.

Today is about as good as yesterday so far.