Y3 D139

I had a serious case of the blahs yesterday. Don't know why. Maybe the weather, maybe just the thought of another work week, I really don't know. I wasn't depressed per se, just blah. Nothing was making me happy. I couldn't shake the feeling of malaise I had. The weather was cold and grey and that nasty kind of misty rain where it's not really raining and it's not sunny. That shitty in between sky. That's how I felt - shitty and in between.

Went to work and tried to focus on that. But the mood I was in kept over shadowing everything. Even TGF tried to get me out of my funk. Neither her nor the kid had school yesterday. Holiday. Oh, you haven't heard of it? It's "Celebrate the discovery of a country that already had people" day. Right up there with Zombie Jesus day in my book.

I had lunch with a friend who started working at the same client as me. It's a total coincidence. She is in a completely different building, contracting under a different company, etc. But it was nice to see her. I was telling her about TGF and I could feel myself slightly getting happier.

Came home around 4 and was still in the mood. TGF tried to talk me down some more but I just couldn't. I am not going to be eating at 33 this weekend which also kept my funk on plus Blue Bayou is closed for repairs which added more.

FINALLY around 6 or 7 the funk broke. I ordered Chinese food. I think it was a combination of being home, appreciating all that I have, eating Chinese food and watching Buffy that broke it. I played a little Deathspank and beat it last night. That helped too. Now it's time to buy Rage. I want to play that game pretty bad. Finished up the night by the kid letting me mock her directly. KBF wants to take her camping. Man she REALLY likes this guy. Talked to TGF for a while and we talked about Disneyland which also got me in a better mood. I realized she will be on a very select list of women I have brought with me to Disneyland while dating. She will only be the third in my life. I take Disneyland very seriously. We also talked about how we are going to do on a six hour car ride. She said without prompting - 'we will be fine'. Funny, I remember the first time I took X2 to Disneyland while dating. We had a four hour car ride and it was 'okay'. Not great, not bad, just ok. Interesting how I use that as a point of measure for how I feel about someone and how we can handle being together. Let's read more into shall we? No? Yeah. I agree. It is what it is. It's me wanting to share. It's like they said in Pulp Fiction -- you know you have met someone special when you can just shut the fuck up for a while. Time for me to shut the fuck up and get to work...