548 and I am up. I have been up all night. Not drunk though. Just can't sleep but not for a bad reason for once. No strange women in my bed either. All those things you are thinking, nope. Not this time. Instead? Been talking to my daughter. Heart to heart. Father to child. Friend to friend to some extent. Not fully though. She knows there's a line and I won't condone certain things just to be her friend. No, we talked about her making more friends, what she is doing with the ex, how she feels about work, how she feels about her siblings, how she feels about her mother. That was a big long part of it for sure. We got home from my friend's surprise birthday party at around 1130 and talked until she crashed at 4. I have just been up digesting everything she shared. I may have fucked up a lot of decisions and relationships in my life, but this one? Not this one. The one thing I can hold my head up high about. I see friends whose kids don't talk to them or are embarrassed by them and I can be proud. Damn proud. We talked about what she wants out of college. Some of that was new to me. I wasn't surprised or shocked, just nice to hear her clarify some things. We talked about all the things I do that bother her and all the things I do that make HER proud and happy to have me as a dad. Made me feel good.
As to the rest of the day? I got up around 6 i think it was and did some stuff around the house. Then I went grocery shopping and got a birthday card and present for the party we were going to later. I also had a brow appointment and then went to the pet store. Cleaned kitty litter, cleaned the rats, and then did laundry. All the clothes are clean once more. Man that kid has a lot of clothes. I mean seriously I was gone for almost 7 days total and I had less clothes to clean.
But laundry is done. The house is clean. The animals are happy. Bills are paid. I sat through a 2 hour webinar for my company on 2nd quarter results. We made 3.5m. Not too fucking shabby. Out of 35 active Q2 clients I had responsibility for 9 of them. 1/4, right? Roughly? So I felt good that out of that 3.5m I did my share. I pulled my weight. I saw some stuff my coworkers did and part of me was jealous but also part of me was apathetic. They are younger and still eager. I am happy knowing what I know, doing what I do, and learning new stuff as needed. I am not at that stage any more where I am going to spend my free time doing work related stuff. Sorry. It's not a bad thing per se, but what I did get out of this meeting is there are some young hotshots at my company and if I want to keep my rockstar status then in Q3 and Q4 I have to show them they are still pups and I am the alpha dog. I can do it. I know I can. I did get recognized at the meeting for some of the positive feedback I got from clients in Q2. That felt good. I wasn't the only one, but there were only about 5 of us out of 50+ people who got recognized. Cool.
Took a nap after the meeting which is also why I couldn't sleep tonight. I slept for almost three hours. Hell that's like a full night for me. I think I am playing catch up from Texas and my body is adjusting back to normal. Too bad I will fuck it up again in 9 days when I go to PA.
Around 630 we headed out to this birthday party. It was for a friend of ours who is turning 36 on Tuesday, He has never had a birthday party. Can you imagine that? Going your WHOLE life without a real party. Crazy.
Had fun at the party. Stayed in control. And as I said got home around 1130. I think I might go and try and sleep for a couple hours.
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