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I want to marry this bed and live with it forever. Seriously. It makes me want to go home and burn my mattress.

Yesterday was a tough day for my class. We started the second topic (this is a two subject matter class and we made it through the first one Mon and Tues). I warned them that starting Wednesday the material would be getting more challenging and they found that out by the lunch break. When we finished up at 5, they were beat up. I could see it in their faces. I know this is tough stuff. These are two of the most challenging pieces of software to learn. But they got through the day. Let's see how much they retained.

After class even I was pretty beat and just needed to sit and relax. I went around the corner to the same place as Tuesday night, had a sandwich for dinner and a couple of drinks. Didn't stay out too late. Went out to dinner around 6:30 and was back in the hotel by 9. Just sat staring at the olympics while eating. Didn't get into any trouble.

I did get into 'trouble' with that other client. This time though they are taking part of the blame. It seems something I did a while back broke in production yesterday. Um, not my fault? You signed off on it during development. You should have tested this one scenario. Sorry you missed a use case and signed off? I will get to it when I get to it.

However. In the virtual world? I was all sorts of damaging. First off - to my buddy and he knows who he is - dude seriously? Man I cannot even comprehend that and don't know how I would be feeling if I were in your position.  To my other friend - come on, past is the past.

Okay, that out of the way... SG and I talked A LOT yesterday. And by talk I mean virtual fucking. At one point she tells me "I am masturbating to the thought of you fucking me because you are not here fucking me right now". Gah. That just gives you the tone of how are conversations went. That was the tame part of it too. I have never really sexted before because well, just because. Last night took the cake. It was just dirty comment after dirty comment. The best was "I am sitting in my car right now waiting for my friends to come out. Is it evil if I tell you I have a vibrator with me and can use it without being seen?". Nope. Not evil at all. Go for it.

On top of talking to her, Wildcard and I talked. She is more reserved. Not totally, but there's a difference. Her age makes her more subtle about things. It was still text flirting with an overtone of sexual innuendo, but look at the difference just in my description. One wants to fuck insanely, the other wants to say the same things, but has learned restraint as an adult.

OH! I did get some good news. My new batch of pins arrived while I was gone. This should give me at least 100-150 for my next trip in two weeks. Hey, I will be back in the park in two weeks. YAY!

What else... I did phone shots with a friend. It sounds really stupid, but it makes me feel connected to folks back home. I think that's why I am not spiraling as hard on this trip as I did on the last one. I feel like there are people at home thinking about me. Maybe it's the attention from SG and Wildcard. Maybe it's the phone shots with friends. Regardless, I am not feeling as isolated as I did in ... where the fuck was I? Oh yeah, Memphis. I felt very disconnected there. Here it's not as bad. Maybe too because I have been to this part of the world before and am more comfortable. Regardless, I am not in the same fucked up head space. I am still depressed. I think I will always be depressed, but a good bed, friends, and virtual sex can help keep it at bay. Keep the dog on the porch if you will. Plus knowing Disneyland is right around the corner and the hotel is paid for helps. I also have my per diem while I am there. That helps too. I am going to use it to take the kid to a princess breakfast. I need to make that reservation today.

Off to the office. Another solid day ahead of us.