Y4 D19

Happy Kraken Appreciation Day! Don't ask. It's this 'holiday' that last year got created by some friends and now we all fill facebook with Kraken related jokes, pictures, etc. On KAD, you eat Chinese food, sacrifice your virgins to the Kraken, and then watch Clash of the Titans. Yeah, I know, but it's fun. Good clean silly fun.

Yesterday was pretty good. Nothing like Monday but not bad. I confirmed one of the four dates and will be having coffee on Friday. I also chatted with two of the other ones yesterday. My ego was doing pretty well still so no real complaints here. I should confirm one more today and see about Sunday. Monday's meeting is more casual, but that should happen too.

Otherwise I worked. Back into the grind of doing some modeling and database work. It is what it is. I did go to group last night. The doctor did ask me one question which I couldn't answer because I had never thought of it in the way she put it - I was honest that I was on an 'up' cycle and odds are I would crash soon enough. She asked if events precipitated the cycles or did the cycles enhance the events. Damn. Good question. Was I really 'high' Sunday and Monday because of things that happened or did I make things happen because I was in a good mood. That is honestly a damn good question. Now I am going to watch to see if when I do go down is it natural or will there be some specific event that triggers it.

Came home and played some D3 before bed while watching CHUD with the kid and KBF. Yes, he's back. I don't know what they are doing. I talked to her after he left and she isn't sure either but she is not looking to get hurt this time around. I told her that was my only concern too. I don't want her getting hurt again. I think they are keeping things casual but I know her, she's too much my kid and will let her heart get in the way. He hurts her again and this time I am not responsible for my actions. I let it slide last time but no way does that happen twice.

Slept pretty good and now I work. I may go out tonight just to get out of the house, but I also am thinking it might just be a good night to play D3. We are definitely having chinese food though regardless. Yay Kraken!