In my therapy class we are talking about thought records and how when a thought comes through that is affecting your mood you write it down and do all these things with it to examine both the positive and negative. I plan to ask the doctor today what do you do when there is no single thought just a mess of thoughts putting you in a really shitty mood? I spent most of yesterday just frustrated with everything. Nothing in particular just everything. No matter what it was I was getting pissed off. The flies in the house, the kid not cleaning the rabbits, a formula not working right, etc. It was all just pissing me off. How do you write a thought record for that?
It's not all of yesterday sucked though. I did get a package in the mail from my friend which totally made me happy. She got me the 2012 Father's Day Disney pin when she was down there last. That was a nice present. Takes the big board to 502. Jesus. Over 500 of those pins. I'm gonna need a bigger board. Only 498 to go for this year's goal. I can do it. I can always do it. I also got a gift from the local gas station. Weird, right? Well it's the only place I buy my cigarettes from and they received this really nice promotional lighter from the company. Since none of them smoke, they held on to it for me. It's a solid butane lighter and is pretty slick.
I was supposed to go out last night, but no one wanted to go to the club, the kid had nothing to wear, and I was in too pissy of a mood so we didn't go. Not like it would have been anything exciting anyway. Not just her and me. There are some things that just shouldn't be father/daughter and going to a goth club is one of them.
It also felt like the day was shitty to other people too. My friends posted a message in our cast email list about some shit their kid did which was beyond ridiculous. His actions, not their email. This time I am totally siding with them. He threw away an easy sweet deal to be able to smoke pot. What a dumbass. I talked with his dad for like a 1/2 hour last night parent to parent and we both agree he is being stupid as hell. I did the best I could to support him over the phone and told him if his kid comes anywhere around here, I will let them know.
Then at like 2am I get a bunch of texts from another friend who was having drama. She got a new tattoo recently which reflects her beliefs. While I don't agree with her beliefs, it's her body and her business as she has never tried to shove those beliefs down my throat. Well one of her other friends with whom she has been close to for six years decided that he can't be friends with her any more because of this tattoo. It's really hurting her because she hasn't changed. He is being a douche. It would be okay except that this guy is my age and should know better. He is acting like a three year old. She was up most of the night crying. I had to tell her at one point I'm sorry but I have to sleep. Which is why I am getting such a late start today.
I also played Diablo at some point yesterday. Yeah, until I get through the main game with at least one character, then a second, then a third, and finally a fourth, there will be mention of Diablo for a while. This game should satisfy my needs until the end of the year truth be told. It will be perfect for my road trip to Tennessee in July as well. No running around at night when there are demons to kill!
Nothing new on the female front by the way. I decided yesterday I was done chasing. They all know where to find me. To me you shall come! Yeah, right.
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