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Hello. I am still here. I am still functional. I worked all day yesterday on some random stuff my boss threw at me around 11. Took me until about 7 to finish it. At least I had a full day's worth of work. Not bad given the time of year and that I am in between things. Mentally I am doing okay. Not fantastic, but not horrible either.

I did order a Christmas gift for the house yesterday. My friend who is an artist released some new paintings yesterday afternoon. About 10 of them and the first right of purchase went to about 12 of us who are past buyers of his work. I ended up getting one of the smaller ones. He was very smart and ranged them from $100 - $1000 to allow every budget to be able to make a purchase. Obviously I went with the low end. I don't mind spending $100 on something that will one day be worth much more. These are originals, not lithographs, not copies. Nope, there is only one of I bought and it's the kind of thing that will only appreciate.

He is a very well known artist and I am proud to be able to call him and his wife my friends. His work is seen internationally, on television, and licensed to a number of brands most people know. To have an original, my 4th, means something to me. His wife and I talked for a while on the phone. She misses seeing me around town. She also had some advice for me on my mental state which actually helped a little. Put some things into perspective for me. Just about not letting bad people or things even get in your life. That there's nothing wrong with just 'walking away' from those things. No client, no job, no person is worth dragging down your mental health in essence was her message. And these are two very successful people that I can really listen to and that I admire.

Tonight is my Christmas party. There's going to be some fireworks I am afraid. I don't want my picture taken and yet they are going to have a professional photographer there tonight. I got an email at like 11pm saying I should wear a coat, tie, and shirt for tonight. Bitch please, like you need to tell me how to dress. Like I am some dumbass developer who doesn't know anything about fashion. Bite me.

If they want a picture, they will get it with all my piercings showing and anything else I can do to make it unusable. There is nothing in any of my documentation that says they have the right to use my image for marketing or sales purposes. Hence, I can refuse to take a picture. Sorry, I just don't like my picture being taken. It's a personal thing.

Slept like shit too. Not sure why. Mostly I had trouble falling asleep. Too much swirling around in my head. Nothing horrible, just a lot of thoughts.

I think I am slowly starting to come back on an upswing. Let's see how this goes tonight.