Y4 D207

Now that was some much needed sleep. Damn. I went to bed around 10 and woke up initially at 3:20. I woke up from a great dream. I was in a classroom and there was another instructor there but someone told me I needed to organize and get everyone outside because the parade was about to start and the other instructor wasn't moving fast enough. So I did what I do and that's take over and got everyone outside and then I grabbed the other instructor and got her outside. Her. She was perfect. She was wearing a cropped black leather jacket, jeans, a pony tail in her hair. Yeah, it was the kind of dream where I remember those details because even my brain knows the only place I will find someone perfect for me is in my dreams...

Went back to sleep until the alarm went off at 6. I then checked my work email, saw nothing, and fell back to sleep until 8. Fuck it. It's the holidays almost. Not my fault dammit. I want to have some work but if there is nothing, there is nothing.

Yesterday was a rough day for the kid. She left for work before 7 and didn't get home until 2. Not only did she have the stress of working retail during the holidays, but they all came in to find there restroom overflowing, the plumbers not able to do anything because it was Sunday, the janitors looking and going yeah, no, their anti theft gun broke, the anti theft door thing was on the fritz, and on top of it people were being messy assholes. She came home just exhausted. I felt bad for her. She went and slept from 3-5 to relax and then finished up her last project for the semester for one of her classes.

I made us cornish game hens for dinner and we watched a couple of Firefly episodes and then a movie called The Confederate States of America. Funny and scary all at the same time. I recommend it. It is an alternate timeline movie of what the US would have been if the South had won. At the end they show what was real and what was fictional. The real parts are almost more disturbing than the fictional.

I heard from a friend last night whom I haven't heard from in a while. She has been recovering from some surgery and I have left her alone because I figured she was still recuperating and would reach out when she is better. Tada. I hope she is fully recovered soon.

That's about it. As you can see, mentally I am hanging in there. Not good, not bad. It might seem strange to some that by avoiding people I am doing better mentally but that's just how it goes. It helps me keep things in check. When I control the size of my world, I can control my reaction and behavior towards the world. I need to do laundry. Yep, random but just thought about that.

Off to shower.