Y2 D199

No one's gonna take me alive. The time has come to make things right.

Had a pretty shitty day yesterday. Some times I hate the fucking internet. Thanks to a link here followed by a link there, guess who I ended seeing on the good ol' interwebs? Yep, her royal highness, bane of my existence, X2. Which sent me into a fucking downward spiral for most of the day. I started thinking of everything I have done wrong, how far I have slid, how fucked up my life is right now. Same ol' same ol'.

Does it ever stop? Do I ever get to be at peace? Do I ever get to, not forget, but at least put the fucking past behind me? Can I move forward into a new place in my life?

Fuck.

Just don't like it. Don't like the feeling. Try to ignore it, but it just overwhelms me some days. Makes me feel so insignificant and so much a fuck up.

I only worked 4 hours yesterday. Because the client needs to hear some feedback on the things I have delivered, we decided instead of me burning hours, I should go bench. I am okay with it because I still ended up the week with about 37 hours.

Out of the list I had yesterday, I cleaned the house, did the dishes, cleaned the pets, bought groceries, and  paid bills. Still need to go to Target and my list for the weekend will be done. I have a date tonight with L7 so I have to get everything done pretty early. I want to be relaxed and ready before we go out. Don't want to stress.

Oh wait, too late....