Y2 D218

Good day at work yesterday. Did more report work and discussed continuing the project into quarter one of next year. I can't believe this year is over in two days. Wow. It seems like it was just yesterday I was moving. I have been trying to think back over the whole year and all its ups and downs. More downs than ups it seems at times, but I survived another year. Yay me? More gray hair, more stress, less happy than before overall, but I survived. I guess that counts for something?

The only part of yesterday during the day worth mentioning was the 30 minutes I spent on the phone with X1. Yes, she was complaining that she hadn't received a check yet. What else is new? But then she started crying and telling me about how horrible her husband is, how rough her life is, and how she misses her kids because she is driving so much. Blah blah blah. I wanted so bad to go off on her, but I know only 5 more months and it is all irrelevant. It will mean nothing to me soon enough. She will be out of my life. I feel for her husband, soon to be ex-husband. He still has another decade plus to have to deal with her crap. I spoke to him afterwards as he is the one who will be actually picking up the kid on Sunday. We had a good laugh at X1's expense about some of the things she was saying. Amazing how different the other side of the coin can be. I did say one thing to her about all her choices - I told her that she finally sees how I have felt these last 16 years when I would go weeks on end without being able to see the kid. It hurts like hell sometimes but you don't have much choice. You make your decisions and you have to deal with them.

Made egg sandwiches for dinner last night. Nothing fancy. Trying to go through all the food that is going to spoil before the kid leaves. Once she is gone I am back to not eating. It's been weird having to eat again. Some part of me is just eating because she is here. That stops Sunday.

Put away Christmas last night. Cleaned up all the remnants of the tree and decorations. My house is back to normal. Kind of weird as I have been used to the tree and stuff out for the last month, but at the same time it feels like it was just yesterday I was putting everything on display. I also realized I have too much crap out and will probably deal with that on Sunday. Last day at work and then I get three days off! Two back to back shows and a drive to drop off the kid, but still, don't have to work!