Y4 D38

I am groggy this morning. I slept through six alarms. I needed sleep. I went to bed around 11 which isn't too late, but late enough it seems for my body. If there's one thing I wish I could stabilize in my life it would be my sleep patterns. But then again maybe if I stopped having sex with 21 year old girls, running around doing Rocky, and acting like I am invincible my body would have time to stabilize. But what would be the fun in that? I would just be one step closer to the American Nightmare.

Stayed inside yesterday. I worked pretty much all day. Yes, I know it was Sunday but we also have a 'Holiday' this week which as we all know in the business world is bullshit. Anytime there's a holiday in the middle of the week, Wednesday in this case, there's an automatic assumption you will continue to somehow get 40 hours of work done. I dislike mid-week holidays for exactly this reason. In an effort to not have to work 12 hour days the rest of the week, I decided to work yesterday instead. I put in a full day for two different clients. Which also explains why I am a bit out of sorts this morning. It feels like a Tuesday already because I worked all day. But no sadly, it's just Monday.

I played some Diablo as well but not as much as I had hoped. I did get further into Act 3 and got my Barbarian to level 30. Yeah, I know, I am a dork.

SG and I exchanged messages during the day. I think I provide a fantasy outlet for her. Whenever she needs a distraction from her life, she turns to me. I am a distraction and fantasy? Um, okay. I forgot to mention something that happened the other night between us which was a first for me. Yes, I had a first in the bedroom. 30 years of having sex and this was the first time this particular things happened. Kind of hit me later. She actually cried out my name at one point. I know that sounds dumb and weird, but with all my partners over the years, none of them have ever done that. XTGF and X2 were 'quiet' in bed. The random other ones we weren't together enough times to have it really count. J2 (?) was pretty vocal in bed, but mostly just noises. X1 was such a narcissist she would shout her own name. Okay, I am joking on that last one, but still. Seriously, out of, wait let's count... hm, harder than I thought, anyway, out of all my partners, this was the first one to actually say my name in bed in a positive way. Cool.

See? That's how uneventful and boring yesterday was. Even while working my mind drifted back to other night.

Regardless, her and I are trying to determine the next time we can have a repeat. With my travel schedule and her show schedule, it will be tight. But we will figure it out. I just have to learn to be more like her in the sense that I can't let emotion get in my way. She wants fantasy, distraction, I want emotional and physical connection. Oil, water, fire...