Yesterday started off like shit, continued to be shit, ended like shit and now today is heading in the same direction. Yes, it's 3am. I have to leave for the airport in an hour to go to fucking Memphis. I woke up yesterday morning to a bogus charge on my checking account from some company in MD. I submitted a claim, but that's $100 sitting there now that I can't touch until it gets resolved. Fuck. The rest of the day? I felt alone, ugly, unwanted, and useless. I left the house once to bring someone a gift they asked me to pick up for them in Disneyland. I had to go and come right back though because the kid needed my car for work. I wish she would fix her fucking car dammit.
I got back at about 10:30 and that was it. I didn't leave the house again. She got home around 5:30 but then left at 7 for a company meeting. I went to bed at 8:45. Had horrible nightmares. Men in masks were trying to break into my hotel room and do god knows what.
I didn't talk to anyone yesterday and no one talked to me. That's what is really bugging me. Nothing from XTGF. I expected at least a fucking thank you for the birthday message. A thank you. Nothing more, nothing less. How hard is it to do that? It's not like we dated for a week. We went out for almost nine months. You could at least acknowledge my presence.
Nothing from SG. Fine she has shows. Fine she is busy. Fine I am a fucking toy to her. Out of everyone she is the one I give the most slack.
Nothing from D. That pisses me off. Not even a hello. If you had such a great fucking time the other night, then at least say hello to me during the day.
Yeah, I am fucking needy so what.
This morning I wake up to find my Blizzard account for D3 has been suspended due to excessive spamming. Fuck me. I don't chat with anyone on there. I changed my password just in case but fuck I don't want to deal with this kind of shit right before I have to get on the road.
Not happy.
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