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Yes I am up way too early today. It's because I want to check in for my flight tomorrow right at the right moment where I have the best chance of scoring an upgrade. You seriously have to do this shit right when the 24 hour mark begins to get the best shot at it. Why? Because there is a dozen other people just like me all fighting for that same seat. We ALL want the upgrade. Not so much for the seat or the food. No, it's for the overhead space and that ability to board first. Makes it totally worth it. Sounds dumb, but it's true.

So yesterday. Sigh. I stayed up ALL night drinking Thursday night. When I left to go have my brows done yesterday morning at 8am I was still drunk. Drunk as hell it turns out. I barely remember going. Came back and slept for three hours. Then I did some prep work for my class this week. That was the biggest thing I did yesterday. This is some very technical stuff I will be training next week and I need to be ready to go with the material. I spent the majority of the day handling that.

I honestly did quit cast yesterday as well. But I spent time talking to my directors and they helped me relax and get over a few things. The big problem was I took on too much ownership and responsibility about the show. I had people not doing a damn thing and I took it personally instead of letting it slide. This is why I walked away after the show the other night. I just walked away. I couldn't take it anymore. I think I need a break from performing. And drinking. And stress.

This trip while a pain in the tucas may do me some good. Separate me from things for a while. SG texted me yesterday being her normal little teasing self. Oh yeah, her and I were supposed to fuck but obviously that didn't happen, now did it?

I don't know what to do with her. I want to push her away but I do so enjoy the attention. No lie.

The kid and I went and had Indian food around 8, then I played some Lego Batman and went to bed. That was my day. Today I print out all my stuff, make sure my luggage is ready, then I am helping a friend move, napping, then doing the show. I am going straight to the airport after the show and may not have time to post until much later tomorrow. I am not dead, just flying.