I left the show feeling kind of sad last night. Sad and angry. I felt like there was a lot of nitpicking going on and I ended being the whipping boy because of it. It was like our director was in a hypercritical mode and was pointing out every little thing that should have been done differently and as the department head I was to blame for all of it. I know on a logical level it was nothing personal and was more her being observational, but you can only take so much before you do start taking it personally and it gets to you. Plus I was just damn exhausted anyway. We didn't get in until very late, there were a ton of last minute casting changes, and it was just a long fucking night.
I spent the day rearranging furniture. I am not totally happy with how things look but they do look better. I just feel like I have too much shit in this place. It is feeling cluttered again. Time to box some things up and reduce some of the clutter.
I don't feel like doing anything right now but I will probably keep cleaning.
Spent the day moving things around followed by cooking dinner for the kid and KBF. I made pork chops. Left for the show around 9:30 because I was bored.
It was super hot yesterday. I think that also contributed to my lethargy and lack of perkiness by the time the show rolled around.
I want to go to bed early tonight. I need a fucking break from everything.
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