Man I hate being this close to the wire. I need to call a couple of my credit cards and see about moving things to the 15th or 16th. I get right down to the nub the first half of the month. I am fine the second half but the stress of the first two weeks drives me nuts.
Work was okay yesterday. Still just plugging along. I am still riding this job out. It's only been three months so I need to see how things go for a little while longer. I like the company, I like my co-workers, but the product is frustrating me. Oh well.
Did have a client onsite yesterday and spent about 4 hours with him doing one on one training. Had a nice lunch with him and got through a few of his issues.
After work my co-head picked me up because the kid was working until 8. He hung out for a little while and we discussed everything that happened Saturday. Everyone knew something went down, but nobody knew the details which isn't a bad thing. But I trust him and we talked about everything. I told him that I did trust him and that I have no plans to stop seeing TGF. I wanted him to know because I will be outright lying to my director's faces if they ask me. I needed to know if he was going to be okay with that. He is. We talked about a few things and we both are just frustrated with their behavior right now. We also realized that if either of us left cast, it's not like we wouldn't see each other. We both know there are a good 10-12 people who regardless of what other people say would still be our friends. See, if I get thrown off cast? He is quitting too. He was ready to quit before I started and the only reason he didn't was because I came on board and threw myself into things 110%. If I leave or get kicked off, he will be done.
Kid got home around 8:30. She is very stressed out about starting school next week. Mostly because for some of her classes she has to go to multiple campuses and on Wednesdays she has a class until 9:30 and she is a little freaked. You know, I tried my best to raise her to be independent and self sufficient but there are time when I realize she isn't me and isn't able to adapt to stuff as quickly as I can. She worries and stresses about things that aren't worth stressing about. Tonight I am going to help her map out a plan and times for buses etc. I also told her to find campus security and see what kind of shuttles they have for late night students. On top of it, her boss is scheduling her some fucked up shifts now and she is worried she will have no life. I don't know what to do for her there, because it's true. You want to work and go to school? Deal with it. You're not the first or the last person who has had to try and balance these things. BUT I also told her if she wants to quit the job to do so. I will support her until she finds something more accepting of her class schedule. I also told her to talk to her manager first though before going to that extreme.
TGF comes home tomorrow night. I am very excited. We played 'truth or dare' via text message last night. We both picked truth. She asked me what my biggest regret was. Simple -
I let other people decided my life for me and did things that put my happiness second.
I asked her what she was most afraid of -
That people will get to know the real me and find that I am not special.
Oh darlin' you are more special than you will ever know. You took an old man and gave him hope, happiness, and confidence. How much more special do you need to be?
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