Y3 D75

Those who control me control my future


Thanks man, I needed that. I mentioned the other day we got the same fortune when we went out to Chinese food. I know it's a statistical probability, it's not a big deal, it's random luck, but... Here's what it said:


You will receive support from an unexpected source in the next week. Accept it graciously


We both got the same thing. 


I have so far received support from certain friends, my dad, my sister, my daughter all of which I am accepting graciously - and yet the approval I crave the most from the two people I seek it the most from won't give it to me. Well fuck it. I will not let them control my future. It's MY future. Not theirs.


I was thinking last night, no matter what I do, as long as I am on cast, I am putting myself into a situation where the odds are high I am going to meet nothing BUT people who are wrong for me. Maybe there's the answer? I needed cast when I needed it. Do I still need it? Have I grown enough to say thank you it's been a great year? I don't think quite yet, but I feel something. I won't let them control me.


(Something seems wrong with the font today. Forgive me if this post ends up looking weird.)


Went to work, did my job. Had an okay day at work. Nothing spectacular but no issues either. I am in a groove right now working on stuff for clients. Not good or bad, just a groove. Left my normal time and was home by 5:22. I did talk to my dad yesterday as it was his birthday. It's so odd when I talk to him and he tells me how old he is. He was 19 when he had me. He was just a little older than TGF. My mother was still 17. Younger than TGF or the kid. Different times? Different lives. He is doing okay. His wife is a decade younger than him so he gets where I am coming from right now.

And yes, this is pretty much all that is on my mind right now. When she gets home on Friday, let's see how things unfold. She will have been gone a week, I will have had a week to deal with all the repercussions of everything, etc.


Got home and made the kid dinner. Made mango coconut sticky rice with chicken in mushrooms, cilantro, and onions. Was pretty happy with how it came out. We then watched three episodes of X-Files. Finished with Season 3. Only 130 episodes and the two movies to go! We enjoy watching these together. Gives us a good bonding time. Tonight we are going to register her classes for school. This will be fun. 


Went to bed. Got a text from TGF around 10. Made my night.