Today is starting out extremely surreal. I fell asleep on the fucking train and no one woke me up. I came awake to a dark, dead, empty train. I couldn't get any of the doors open either. I ended up having to push open the emergency door release which made a small scene on the platform. Talk about a fucked up way to start the day. Technically it's not even the worst part. I woke up this morning coughing up blood again. I haven't done that in a while and I had hoped it was going away but apparently not. If more people knew the dark side of my lifestyle, they'd stop being jealous real quick.
Yesterday was so all over the fucking map it isn't even funny. Woke up to what I thought was a message directed at me from my director. Totally fucked up my whole morning because it was a 'dead to me' message. Turns out the world doesn't revolve around me and someone else was dead to her. Go figure. Then as far as work is concerned, I was so apathetic it's amazing I just didn't walk out. Unfortunately I was dealing with a client issue and I don't harbor any ill will towards the client. I don't want to leave them in a rough spot because I don't care about the company. The fucked up part is I couldn't get any of there issues resolved yesterday. Engineering wasn't responding and support is in fucking India and only works in the middle of the night. They tried to send out a GTM at 10:30 last night. If I had been sober and anywhere near a computer, I still wouldn't have logged in. Fuck them.
After work I went to a gathering for one of my meetup groups. I have to play the game with everyone. I have to make them think I am still looking for someone else even though I am with TGF. What they don't know is that this group was more for just making friends and hanging out than dating. Because no matter what it won't hurt me to once more expand my social circle. With all the drama on cast lately, having some friends outside cast wouldn't be the end of the world. One of my friends met me at the even and her and I proceeded to put away two bottles of wine. Well, I drank 1 1/2 myself. We started as a team chatting up this woman. She turned out to be wild and slightly crazy -- not good crazy either. Somehow she talked her way into our next stop...
The friends of mine who own the ice cream shop invited a bunch of us in last night for free ice cream. We were scheduled to meet up there at 8:30. Me and my friend and this crazy girl headed over there almost right on the dot. There were already about 10 people there and after saying hello in my loud drunken way, I had ice cream. We stayed for a little while and then ended up going to another bar with crazy woman. I don't know how she kept getting us to agree to go places. There were about 5 of us at that point at least. Last things I remember is dropping her off at home, then me being dropped off at home, talking to TGF, and then morning. Clothes on, contacts in, and on the floor of my bedroom.
I'm a fucking work of art...
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