Y3 D85

I feel like shit right now. Physically. And nothing serious or self inflicted. This is just a goddamn summer cold. I think it's because the weather has been all over the fucking map the last few days. I go from 80 degree weather to 50 with drizzle in an hour time span, add walking to that and being on the fucking train...

Ugh..

The kid is pissing me off right now. But that also I think due to my not feeling well.

She started school yesterday and while I am very proud of her, she is frustrating me. I look at TGF and then I look at the kid. While I have done my best to try and raise her right, there are times where I wish she could be more independent. I mean seriously, TGF does things by herself, runs around, deals with things and yet with the kid everything is a hassle it seems. She was stressed about the bus, stressed about finding the campus, stressed about walking back to the train at 9:30, etc etc etc. I need her to just deal with shit right now.

Went to work yesterday and did absolutely nothing. I just couldn't get my head around anything. Now I think it's because this cold was creeping on, but also I just think I didn't give a fuck. Old company is supposed to have a contract drawn up for me today. Let's see what happens. I also learned that the Director of Training officially quit yesterday. I knew she was unhappy too, but she snuck this one by me. Two of my other co-workers want out and my come with me.

Then I had the total bullshit moment of the day yesterday. I get a call from a collections agency being all dickhead about a $32 outstanding debt to Ameriprise. I am like what the fuck is this about? Turns out when I moved I had a small balance left on my insurance policy. They kept sending notices but to the old address. No biggie. I told the woman, fine, let's pay it. She still had an attitude. I had to basically call her out and say -- LOOK I AM NOT ARGUING WITH YOU AND WANT TO PAY THIS. She stopped and realized she was being a bitch and apologized. She also said she just wasn't used to people being polite on these calls and actually taking care of stuff right then and there. I told her I understood but this was just a simple error of moving and changing numbers and not a big deal. She agreed and we dealt with it. Man what a pain in the ass.

After work I took the train and then headed over to this college campus where we are doing a benefit show tomorrow night. We needed to meet to mark the stage, check lights, logistics, etc. An hour plus of driving. Sometimes my director upsets me. She doesn't drive and doesn't have any concept of traffic or where things are in relation to people. To her showing up at 7pm at a place is no big deal. To me it's an hour fucking drive.

Got done around 9 and picked the kid up at the train station. She had been texting me all day about buses, campuses, and I was just done with it. I went home and passed out. TGF texted me a couple of times and I didn't even respond to one of them I was so fed up with everything.

I still am. I may go home here shortly because I just can't do it right now. Want to go back to bed.