Yesterday wasn't bad, but not very exciting either. The sadness is still lingering in the back of my brain and keeping me from really taking any pleasure in anything. It's just back there nibbling at everything. I realized yesterday morning I was mostly sad at the party on Saturday night because I had no one to share it with nor anyone waiting at home nor did I want to deal with trying to meet anyone, etc. Dammit the last eight months were so much easier. It will be a month tomorrow. And three years since X2 in another 30 days. In three years, I have had one decent fucking relationship and even that didn't work out right. Fuck me.
Spent most of the morning in the house doing nothing. The kid had a date at 1 with some guy she met on OkCupid. I made her send me his name and number just in case. She left around 12:45 to meet him downtown. I planned on just getting on the motorcycle and riding. My friend sent me an IM saying how he was pissed at our other friend. Why? Because they were supposed to go to the city for the cherry blossom parade and he totally stood him up. I told him I was headed his way and I would drop my bike at his house and we could go get ice cream. Which we did. We also stopped at the video store where I found a copy of Shock Treatment. I had ripped it from my friend's copy, but it was 8gb and I needed a dual layer to burn it. A pack of dual layers is $40. A new copy of the movie? $12. Guess which one I bought?
Headed back home around 3. The kid got home around 5. She had fun on her date. They had ramen and hung around downtown. Nothing exciting. They will probably see each other again. Good for her. Yeah, there's some venom in that comment. No lying.
Watched some tv, went to bed. Fuck. My. Life.
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