I think I am catching a cold. Not COVID, just a normal stupid cold. Weather changing and all that shit. Plus I have been running my body ragged the last few weeks and it's catching up to me. I'll probably take some Nyquil before bed and see if that helps.
Yesterday turned out to be bleh. Neither of us felt like going to the fair to be honest. We ended up going to a cider mill with B's gf instead. It's still awkward trying to have them as my friend too, but I am getting there. As weird as that sounds. I need to keep doing shit like this to be able to lose all of my jealousy and possessiveness towards B. We are done in that way. Get over it. This is what I am telling myself at least. If I could just get my brain to believe it. We did have a little talk about things yesterday. Nothing major. Just about some of how this hard for me because I feel some days how they are acting like the last 9 years of our life didn't happen. It's hard to see them get excited to see someone the same way they used to get excited for me. But again, I was done with this relationship months ago. We all know it. It's here in writing. Go back to entries from this time last year and I was already pondering if it was time to stop. I've done my crying and my complaining. At this point, I just am ready to move forward. They need to finish their certification, get a job, and go. Sigh. Soon enough.
Documentation week ahead of me. Joy. Luckily it's already tuesday which means group tonight. Get out of the house. GF on Wednesday, helping a friend with installing fans on Thursday. No plans for the weekend yet. Yes, have to think that far ahead or I will go insane.
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