I have reached the achy and sore portion of this cold. Lovely. The logical part of me knows I just need to stay home and do nothing for a day but yeah, that's not happening. Especially not last night. Last night needed to happen. I ended any kind of physical relationship with the gf. I did it in public so there wouldn't be a scene. At the time she was fine with everything, but of course five hours later I get a message telling me how unfair that was. Um duh? I did it on purpose? Strangers with this kind of honesty make me go a big rubbery one. She was a stranger. I may have fucked her, but she was a stranger. I didn't want to know her. I didn't want to get closer. That's why it needed to end. We said we could stay friends. Let's see how that goes. I expect to stop talking to her by the end of next month at the latest.
In other news, I do get B and CGF more. I am experiencing the high of NRE with NG. In snap she has bumped two others for the coveted gold heart icon next to her name. Let's see if it makes it to red heart. I found out last night she also likes photography. When we go out of town in a couple of weeks (370 hours in case you're wondering) we're both bringing our cameras. I learned many things about her in the last few days. See? NRE. Getting to know you, getting to know all about you. This I like. The only difference between me and B is the whole video thing. I'm not glued to a screen to talk to NG. I can't do that. Not who I am in general. But otherwise, yeah I get it.
Taught day 2 with my group. I like them. They're all very nice. No issues, no problems. Two more days with this group. Finished around 5 and headed out for my dinner around 6. Was back home by 7:30. Watched some tv, relaxed, went to bed. Tonight I am having dinner with my friend and HER new gf. Lesbians of the world unite!
I will go on the record and say once more, I'm okay. I will be okay.
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