ANA Y1 D122

I am in my new office! It is very sparse in here so far. We will fix that slowly over time. There are two bookcases downstairs I want to bring up. I mostly have the room for them. I have four total down there that need to come up, but two will go in here, two in the media room. This was the second night I slept by myself. Yeah, not a problem if I am being honest. Again, it was nice to just shut off the sound machine, turn on a light, have all my clothes right at my fingertips. I'm going to be okay. B, NG, gf - I really don't need any of them to be okay. Any one of them is nice, some more than others obviously, but I don't *need* them. This bitch can do this. I will come out of this okay.

So yesterday was spent organizing this space, getting B a new dresser, moving their shit downstairs and organizing their space. It was a very busy and productive day. NG went to a concert and was out from 5pm until about 2am and I didn't get a chance to talk with them much. I did talk to gf too much though. They are trying to be friendly with me but I can tell it's hard for them. It was small talk but it was strained. I was already detached from them for at least two weeks before our talk hence why this is easier for me. Again, regardless of who else is in my life, I was already moving on. I just got lucky and found someone else. Nothing more than luck. I know it. Although I do get to see her in 120 hours. Not that I am counting or anything. 

B and I did have a good talk yesterday. It finally hit home with them that I am okay and moving on. To this point they haven't asked CGF to actually be their girlfriend. They were worried about me. I was touched and surprised to be honest. I told them to get on that shit! So now they're all excited for when CGF is in town because they're going to ask them in person. Cute. No, really, I think it's touching. I am happy for them. Later in the day we placed a clothing order for both of us for things to wear when we spend our time in two weeks with our respective paramours. It was a defining moment for both of us showing us both, we're friends, we're okay, we're good. 

This week I teach and get a new tattoo! Just got to make it through the week. Today is 8-4, tomorrow is hair, tattoo, group, wednesday and thursday 11-7, friday is therapy and a lash fill, then Saturday! Glorious saturday where I can see NG and have a good day. Okay week, let's do this!