ANA Y1 D119

Well hello there. How are you doing? I'm doing swell. I pulled a B last night. I was on a video call for over 2 hours with NG. We compared music libraries, taste in TV and movies, and books. Guess who is also a Chuck fan?? Woo! She sent me a message while I was sleeping telling me how she gushed about me to her friend after we got off our call. Now here I am gushing to all of you. Let me tell you how the next 10 years of my life are about to go. Rinse and repeat baby. Maybe this time it will be easier when she decides to leave me. Ask me in 2032. What? I'm okay with this. I have discovered my pattern, my habits, and my flaws. All good.

On the other hand, gf turned into a psycho bitch. She ran the entire gambit of feelings yesterday. From calling me manipulative, to whining about not being special enough to be a primary, to finally calming down and saying she wants to be my friend. I stayed calm through the whole thing which at a couple of points pissed her off even more. C'est la vie babe. I'm not playing games. I shared from day one how I felt and stuck to my boundaries. Is what it is. No matter what, all of this has been a good learning experience. From B to the GF to NG. I am learning about me, learning what I can tolerate, learning what pushes me over the edge. 

Taught my group, went to dinner with my friend. She was supposed to bring her new girlfriend but they too are having issues. Boundaries need to be respected. What was going to be a light dinner turned into us talking for two hours about how some people just don't know when to back off. She's worried about a U-Haul lesbian, I'm worried about a crazy chick, oh, and B had their own lesbian drama too. They had to block one of theirs. B showed me the message thread and it was severe. Some serious crazy ass shit. Luckily that one doesn't have a car and can't get to us. But woo boy was it crazy.

Therapy today, another day of teaching, then going to do some start of moving shit upstairs. This weekend should mark me and B being 100% separate. I just have to get this office moved. Step one, get my damn network cables up there. I have to figure that out. Once I get network cables up, the rest is easy. Once the office is moved, I literally have no reason to be down here and they have little reason to be upstairs. Our lives will take the next step. No more climbing up and down stairs. I am good with this. Wish me luck.