ANA Y1 D103

I am ready for B to be gone. Honestly. Yesterday they had me questioning if something is wrong with me. First off, they saw or talked to ALL of their hoes yesterday. They spent like 5 hours with one, a 2 hour visit at midnight with the other, but then the big issue was MULTIPLE hours long phone calls with CGF. That's where my questioning started. Since CGF is now in Alaska, there's a 4 hour time difference. Yesterday she calls B at noon, so 8am her time. I try to be polite and excuse myself. Let them have space, right? I then decide 90 minutes later to go upstairs and realize I need something in the bedroom. I find them asleep, STILL ON THE PHONE like a fucking teenager. Apparently they told CGF they wanted a nap and CGF said leave the phone connected while I do errands! WTF? Who does that? How fucking creepy is that? You sleep while I shop and watch! Then when B wakes up, they stay on the phone for like another hour. But then, after getting home at 2am from blue smurf, they immediately get back on the phone with CGF until 3:30am. Are you kidding me? Grow the fuck up. You're 30 years old. I am so done with children. I really am.

Me, I worked on a new webinar, got it mostly complete. Finishing it up this morning then moving on to another. Went to group, got home around 11. That was my life. Basic, boring, and adult. I didn't sit at home like an old person, but I also didn't push myself and split my attention three different ways. Just done. Bye bye. Go now. What I need is for them to start packing up their office, get their shit out of there, paint it, and then I can move my shit in. Then we can move the guest room shit, and voila, they have their own space and I can stop caring even more. 

Oh, why was I questioning myself? Because it makes me wonder if I am not 'romantic' or 'cutesy' enough. Is there something wrong that I don't want to hang out with this many people in one day let alone one week? Am I weird for not wanting someone watch me sleep? Maybe. But I don't know, I guess I am okay with that? I really do expect to be alone for a while. I will keep my gf and possibly add a few more play toys, but otherwise, I need my space for a while. Indefinitely to be fair. I just don't need any of this drama. Focus on me and my life. Then I can just go and die somewhere.