Had another great day with C. We talked, we laughed, we had sushi, we went for a walk both with the dog and by ourselves. They inspire me to be motivated and move. They inspire me to get things done. We did a lot yesterday while doing nothing at all. I went to therapy in the morning which was quite good. The big part of that was I left C alone in the house while I went. This was a big step in trust. Here you go, here's my entire house, all of my pets, access to my computers. Bye. Well guess what? They were still here when I got back! It sounds dumb, but when you've been fucked over as many times as I have, there will always be that little voice in my head. Yes, I talked about this in therapy. I'd be a fool not to. It's important and influences my behavior. I'm sitting here trying to remember all the things we did yesterday and it's just all kind of blending together. We did water changes and feeds on the idiots, we hung a mirror in the shower, we watched a little tv with our dinner, we went for a walk, we setup my new google watch, we trimmed C's eyebrows, I did a tiny bit of work, we went through old clothes to see what would fit her, molly maid came and we hid in the office, we had bagels - I feel like there's more, but that's enough on its own, isn't it? A full boring day. Exactly what we both have been after. We took a love language quiz. We both know that it's not a true measurement of a relationship but we took it for fun and surprise, surprise, we both have physical touch as our number one requirement. Acts of service was second for me, while quality time was for them. QT was 4th for me and AoS was fourth for them. Gift giving was the lowest for both of us and words of affirmation, right in the middle. It didn't come as any shock to see these results. Our percentages were also very close. 2-3 points difference at most. We just align in regards to most things. This is good.
Today she has to go back to take care of her dad but will be coming back Tuesday. I'm okay with this. Give me some alone time in the house. I can pack more stuff up, do some rearranging, feel like I am accomplishing things around the house. I have a hair appointment today so that will take up 3-4 hours. Changing colors. Going copper blonde for the winter. Never been a redhead before. Very excited and nervous about it.
B sent many pictures. Including some of a moose! They also saw a bald eagle. Definitely envious of them on this trip. No question about that. I am glad to see them thriving. I am over here doing the same. It's all good Charlie Brown, it's all good.
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