Yesterday was frustrating. It just was one of those days where it felt like I was struggling to stay on top of things. Too many legs is what C calls it. She's right. My biggest issue yesterday tripping over, cleaning up after, or pushing away animals. All day. Three cats and a dog is too much for one person. I was also very clumsy it felt yesterday. I kept dropping things, knocking things over, etc. So far this morning is better. I slept more soundly and I did the big favor to myself and locked the cats out all night. Just me and the dog. Nobody walking over me all night or yelling in my face to feed them. It makes a difference. It will help tonight when C is back too. Sleeping alone has it's positives and negatives for sure.
I dealt with a work issue yesterday. Our Litmos system decided to hiccup and sent me 8000 emails. No joke. I deleted 5000 on Sunday, woke up to another 2300, deleted those, reported the issue, then before it resolved, another 500 came in. It was just annoying. I don't know if I missed anything important because of it. Oh well. I also worked on putting my next webinar together. I have a good topic and am confident I can do it without any issues. I then had a whole slew of things happen at once. B wanted to talk to see the dog. I got on a Zoom meeting with them and no more than five minutes after we start talking, B's dad shows up to finish the job AND the gardener shows up to do my leaves and gutters. All the while, I have C talking to me in Discord. My brain was on overload.
The talk B and I had was good. We discussed future plans, we discussed when they might be coming home, how we're both doing with our new partners, how things are going to work moving forward, they showed me their apartment, the view, and we talked about stuff they're going to do over the next month. We also discussed Xmas and where each of us will be. We both want to wake up with our new partners so they may stay at the grandmother's and C will stay here. Honestly it was one of the best conversations we've had in months. Being apart and being happy in our situations has finally brought us back to being friends. It was a nice time. There's no animosity or anger any more. I will say it once again, even without C in the picture, I have peace finally. I am in a good place and it shows. So are they. My ears were clear for the majority of the day. They're clear right now. Being alone since Saturday has also shown me that I am good. I will survive. I will be okay.
Had all the leftovers for dinner, watched tv, C and I played video games together, talked on video, then I went to bed around 10. Today C comes back. I also teach, have to feed axies, and we have group. We probably won't go to the meeting, just to the after party. We want to see people but we also don't want to see people. It's a select list. We will see how things go. Today is my only teaching day and the rest of the week will be light. I don't know what we have planned for the weekend, but we get a whole weekend together which will be nice.
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