Y2 D103

I haven't been fucked like that since grade school...

That pretty much sums up the last 24 hours of my life.  I also realized that she is Marla to my Jack - not to my Tyler, to my Jack. I get flustered, I don't understand why we are doing what we are doing, I can't have a normal conversation with her, but damn the sex is good.

I know a few of you think it's disgusting, but dammit, I was horny. Three months almost without anything. Three months without any intimacy or human contact. I needed it. I needed to be close to another human being in a physical way. We went at yesterday like our very lives depended on it. Four times in a single day. Dear god, I needed it.

Now what? I don't know. I am taking her home in a little while no matter how much the lady doth protest. I need my space back, I need to see how bad I fucked myself financially, and I need to see how I feel without the prospect of sex looming in the way.

What else did we do yesterday? Let's see - I took the other folks who crashed here home, except her of course. We hung out, relaxed, had a little food, sex, relaxed, mall for some stupid stuff (her not me), sex, food, did a photo shoot for her (she wanted some pictures for a portfolio), sex,  relaxed, bed. Pretty full day if you ask me. I also had to apologize to a few people on cast for being a loud mouth drunk Saturday night. I would have done those things regardless of H1, but it didn't help that I was associated mentally with her to a couple of people. Have some distancing to do there.

Did I ever mention how old she was? I don't think I have come right out and said it in any of these entries. Still not sure I want to do that. If I have then it doesn't matter. But if I haven't, I think that's one little piece of information I am going to keep to myself for now...

Ok, I need to shower and get her out of here...